Ugh, redneck towns, how I never could get along in them. gonk
That's like trying to talk to someone about paleontology and the Rennaisance works of art when everyone's thinking about bonfires and muddy trucks.
I feel sorry for your situation. x-x'
It is good that you do want to live, you should stick to that!
But I don't think life really works out like that, trying to make your life be fulfilling to make up for the past.
It's like trying to drive away from your problems when your problems are still in the back seat of your car.
I know my own past was crappy, I know it'll never be fixed, but I don't care about trying to fill up what I feel I missed out on, because I know thinking that way won't help me get anywhere.
I missed out on friends, I missed out on family, I missed out on fun - while it's sad to think about, all this because of one person, I decided to just go live my life without even caring about the jerks.
10/10 times I'd rather be talking to people on Gaia (such as you) and just having fun without thinking that I deserve it, or that I must do so because I missed out on it, but because I would like to.
There was some kind of famous old quote saying that when a person makes decisions without feeling tied down being the best decisions to make, but I can't remember it.
Well, I am an outsider if I am outside of the building, right? *ba dum tsss* *gets booed off stage* But I thought it was funny emotion_0A0
Nah, harem pants are an entirely different category altogether, and those are hilarious. lol
Elephant pants: http://www.jenkemmag.com/home/wp-content/uploads/2015/11/jncoheader1080.png Wide legged, very long.
Harem pants: https://harempants.imgix.net/s/files/1/0754/0497/collections/harempants-hill-tribe-pants-1_grande.jpg?v=1471869303&q=50 Wide at thighs, tightened up at the calves / ankles.
And these are the Oxford Bags I mentioned:
https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/fa/1e/56/fa1e567f638a71c154990b106978ca43.jpg High waisted, wide leg.