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Registered: 10/03/2009

Birthday: 08/31


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Are you ready for a ride with me? Do you want to feel insanity? Come on and feel it like I do…

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

I'm standing on a bridge… I'm standing at the top looking down… I'm waiting in the dark * there's nothing but the rain * I took a walk around the world *to ease my troubled mind* I left my body laying somewhere *In the sands of time … All my life I've been searching for something … Never seem to get in the place that I belong* Dont wanna lose the time* Lose the time to come

It's a damn cold night* Trying to figure out this life* And I wish I could know if the directions that I take…And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing…I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer *Is there something more than what i've been handed?... Tides that I tried to swim against *Brought me down upon my knees *Oh I beg, I beg and plead *Confusion never stops …It doesn't matter what I want *It doesn't matter what I need *If you've made up your mind to go *I won't beg you to stay

The universe just vanished out of sight…And all the stars collapsed behind the pitch black night…And I can barely see your face in front of mine…and The rope that's wrapped around me*Is cutting through my skin… As I begin to lose my grip…And the doubts that have surrounded me *Are finding their way in… There's an empty place inside that is hurting me* A place that keeps my heart out on its own…I started out clean but I'm jaded… Something ugly this way comes* Through my fingers sliding inside *All these blessings all these burns *I'm godless underneath your cover *but I keep it close to me *Like a holy man prays In my desperate hour* It's better that way There's a chair in my head on which I used to sit *Took a pencil and I wrote the following on it *Now there's a key where my wonderful mouth used to be…There's another world inside of me* That you may never see*There's secrets in this life …That I can't hide … I'VE seen more than I should have to I'VE seen this on my own… Somewhere in this darkness *There's a light that I can't find* Maybe it's too far away* Maybe I'm just blind... Help me carry on* Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes to navigate the darkness…Where can I run to, where can I hide ?*Who will I turn to now I'm in a virgin state of mind?… All this feels strange and untrue *My bones ache, my skin feels cold *And I'm getting so tired and so old

*Thought I'd be so free* I don't want the world to see me *Cuz I don't think that they'd understand *When everything's made to be broken *I just want you to know who I am … 'Cause now again I've found myself * So far down, away from the sun *That shines into the darkest place * I'm tired of living in the dark * I miss the life *I miss the colours of the world…I hate to talk like this *I hate to act as if there's something wrong *But I can't say I have this dream at night almost every night *I've been dreaming it forever *It's easy to remember, it's always cold always day always here *Always say I'm alright I'll be okay *If I can keep myself awake.. I'm over this …Everything I am *And everything in me * I've got to make this life make sense

Sometimes I feel you’re not listening* sometimes I feel you don’t understand* cause I’m just a little girl you see *but there’s a hell of a lot more to me *don’t ever underestimate what I can do *don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be… you didn`t notice me at all
I had to change *to form myself* paint me a portrait of protective mimicry… People say I’m a star but I still think ill never make it… I was a Superman, but looks are deceiving * The roller coaster ride's a lonely one… I wish I was special* But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo* What the hell am I doin here? *I don't belong here *I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul* I want you to notice when I'm not around… always been too late *smile away my pain…You called me strong, you called me weak, But still your secrets I will keep * I can't be your everything to everyone… So am I still waiting For this world to stop hating… just gimme the laughter again… Everything is so complex* Everyday is like a test full of obstacles
That seem almost impossible* Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me when all the answers that I see go around me.* And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me *Out of all the hours thinking *Somehow I've lost my mind… Maybe it's the warmer climate *Maybe I'm a smarter primate *Maybe it's the beer I'm drinking* Maybe I've stopped over-thinking…And I’m thinking just another breath not a minute left. How long have I been drifting?* Am I drowning? Am I fading away? Pass the glass pint hit the flash light now break it… Strain this chaos turn it into light… Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close *Closer to the prize at the end of the rope… I want it more than truth *I can taste it on my breath* I would give my life just for a little death… And it's beginning to get to me *That I know more of the stars and sea *Than I do of what's in your head… What if the sky falls and shoves me to the ground *Would you pray for me or pull me out?... If I couldn't sleep, could you sleep? Could you paint me better off? Could you sympathize with my needs? I know you think I need a lot… But I am stronger than you know… And when my smile gets old and faded* Wait around I'll smile again

Headlights show it all before me *So beautiful, so clear *I will reach out and take it… Desperate for changing, starving for truth… And if you'd get inside my head, then you'd understand*Then you'd understand me… I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell *I know right now you can't tell *But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see *A different side of me… Nobody gave it up *Im not the kind *To lay down and die… Too much is not enough * I can feel the blood rushing through my veins… Adrenaline keeps me in the game…I am a vision, I am justice… *something saved me *Now this is who I am *Although I was blinded, my heart let me find that *Truth makes a better man… The world becomes quiet clearly *Something I can live in *If I could just get through tonight… I really don’t mind what happens now and then As long as you’ll be my friend at the end…I'll never let you down *Even if I could * I'd give up everything *If only for your good … What would you think of me now, *So lucky, so strong, so proud? *I never said thank you for that *Now I’ll never had the chance…and If I could tell the world just one thing *It would be that we're all OK *And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful And useless in times like these* I won't be made useless *I won't be idle with despair *I will gather myself around my faith *For light does the darkness most fear

{{If you've read this to the end, I admire you for your endurance and if you recognize at least 20 of 39 songs I used, I’ll admire you for your great taste in music }}

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The Solarised Night Report | 08/10/2015 5:13 am
The Solarised Night
Oh, thank you. Hope you're well.
l Nari l Report | 11/25/2014 7:34 am
l Nari l
KyIe1 Report | 08/31/2014 5:40 pm
Maha o:
Happy birthday biggrin
wreaks_havoc Report | 02/19/2014 12:43 am
Thank you Maha heart
mahii Report | 02/14/2014 3:00 am
It's threatened me with sticks and a loooong move haha. But it's good. I've also come back from a super long hiatus. Can never truly quit Gaia. How have you been?
XingYang Report | 01/27/2014 3:10 pm
Mhm auch.
spielst du ab und zu noch zOmg? xP
XingYang Report | 01/27/2014 3:05 pm
long time no see.
wie gehts? ^^
XingYang Report | 01/27/2014 1:07 pm
amg haaay,
Pluvius Deus Report | 01/26/2014 3:11 pm
Pluvius Deus
Deus is my main account now. smile I don't have an esstablished art shop but I'm trying to start one up. I don't have a tablet either so my art is all hand drawn. ;(
xXVicious ShadowXx Report | 01/02/2014 7:58 pm
xXVicious ShadowXx
You called angel? XD

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Done by Cee :)