Urgh... I'm an idiot. An over-emotionally/mentally breaking down idiot. Stayed up without taking my nighttime meds that help me sleep & stabilize my moods a bit... Forgot to take them at 11 when I was supposed to.. Now it's nearing 5 frickin 30 in the morning! D:
So in addition to PMSing, my emotions are 1-100 and I need to sleep. I don't know if I'll be able to, or if I should take my entire nighttime medication dose or lower it for when I get up later this after-- probably early evening... UUUUUUUGH... Mood swings SUCK. So does crying. And going from being fine to being like this is too much for me to deal with... :c
I'm gonna take my stabilizers and try to sleep a bit. I can't stay awake this depressed or I'll end up going over the edge/possibly asking dad to take me to intake for medical help. ;-;
Heya! So sorry I disappeared before you returned! I had been up all night, so my energy levels went from manic & overtired/hyper to a very high decrease in happiness and my body shutting down/refusing to focus. ^^;;
Also my bestie is staying with us for a few days, so I'm trying to help her through the issues she's going through. She's being kicked out of her apartment in January, so my folks are considering letting her stay with us, as we have another room she could stay. (& I really hope they agree to this) She's said she'd pay rent, which would help my folks out, as well as her. So fingers crossed my folks agree and let her stay with us! She was upset last night because she thought she'd be unwelcome or a burden. I would never think of her as ANYTHING near a burden, and tried to reassure her that she's ALWAYS welcomed with my family and especially me. Especially during crisis times, as well.. I hope she trusted my word on that, since I truly could never think she was a bother or anything negative like that.. And she really is always welcome in my home. My mom says she has a "second daughter", referring to my bestie Naomi. And she's more than just a best friend to me.. She's the sister and beloved friend I was needing for years, and my mom had been praying for me to find a best friend, and I consider Naomi an answer to prayer. She's always so good to me, and we connect on a level that I never thought I'd have a best friend so much like me, and she has so much compassion and understanding. She's the best friend I have.. I don't know what I did to deserve my wonderful bestie.. But however I can help her, I would do in a heartbeat. ^__^
How are you?! How've you been doing during this unholy amount of time I've been inactive? (I can explain the details to why I've been so scarce talking-wise and Skype/Gaia-wise... It's been a rough time...)
I'll get on Skype if you're willing to chat with me, still. ^^;;
I feel like a big jerk for making you wait so long for me to send you a comment/message/skype.. I really hope you're not upset with me, and I'm really sorry if I ever make you feel unimportant to me. Because that's far from true. You're a very important person in my life, and I would have a very big gap in my life if you weren't in it. <3
You're a wonderful person and I love being able to come to you and not feel judged or disliked, even when I take a while to respond to you. I'm so grateful to you, for both being you, and being so patient and understanding towards me. (And I truly mean that.)
...I know it sounds mushy, but you're one of the best people to have graced me in my life. I truly feel blessed that I met you, and that I can come to you about anything. (Which I probably should do more often, since I've been absent due to my moods/lack of sleep/lack of focus/dramatic things happening/etc.. You're always so willing to listen to me, and I really appreciate that about you. ^^)
...Mkay, getting on Skype. I feel like Danny-time is needed and will make the day more awesome~! Gimmie a sec! ^__^
-glomps- I'm so sorry I've been MIA for so long... A lot's been going on. But I still feel bad that I haven't been able to get on Skype to talk.. I miss you and I hope you're not mad (Or at the very least can forgive me for being gone so long.. So I'm sorry for that...)
How have you been? Is everything going well? -getting on Skype now-
Hope all is well, and that you're having a good time and stuffs. ^__^
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Haiiiii~ <3
So in addition to PMSing, my emotions are 1-100 and I need to sleep. I don't know if I'll be able to, or if I should take my entire nighttime medication dose or lower it for when I get up later this after-- probably early evening... UUUUUUUGH... Mood swings SUCK. So does crying. And going from being fine to being like this is too much for me to deal with... :c
I'm gonna take my stabilizers and try to sleep a bit. I can't stay awake this depressed or I'll end up going over the edge/possibly asking dad to take me to intake for medical help. ;-;
Also, how have you been? What's new wif chu? o:
Also my bestie is staying with us for a few days, so I'm trying to help her through the issues she's going through. She's being kicked out of her apartment in January, so my folks are considering letting her stay with us, as we have another room she could stay. (& I really hope they agree to this) She's said she'd pay rent, which would help my folks out, as well as her. So fingers crossed my folks agree and let her stay with us! She was upset last night because she thought she'd be unwelcome or a burden. I would never think of her as ANYTHING near a burden, and tried to reassure her that she's ALWAYS welcomed with my family and especially me. Especially during crisis times, as well.. I hope she trusted my word on that, since I truly could never think she was a bother or anything negative like that.. And she really is always welcome in my home. My mom says she has a "second daughter", referring to my bestie Naomi. And she's more than just a best friend to me.. She's the sister and beloved friend I was needing for years, and my mom had been praying for me to find a best friend, and I consider Naomi an answer to prayer. She's always so good to me, and we connect on a level that I never thought I'd have a best friend so much like me, and she has so much compassion and understanding. She's the best friend I have.. I don't know what I did to deserve my wonderful bestie.. But however I can help her, I would do in a heartbeat. ^__^
I'll get on Discord in a moment ^^
How are you?! How've you been doing during this unholy amount of time I've been inactive? (I can explain the details to why I've been so scarce talking-wise and Skype/Gaia-wise... It's been a rough time...)
I'll get on Skype if you're willing to chat with me, still. ^^;;
I feel like a big jerk for making you wait so long for me to send you a comment/message/skype.. I really hope you're not upset with me, and I'm really sorry if I ever make you feel unimportant to me. Because that's far from true. You're a very important person in my life, and I would have a very big gap in my life if you weren't in it. <3
You're a wonderful person and I love being able to come to you and not feel judged or disliked, even when I take a while to respond to you. I'm so grateful to you, for both being you, and being so patient and understanding towards me. (And I truly mean that.)
...I know it sounds mushy, but you're one of the best people to have graced me in my life. I truly feel blessed that I met you, and that I can come to you about anything. (Which I probably should do more often, since I've been absent due to my moods/lack of sleep/lack of focus/dramatic things happening/etc.. You're always so willing to listen to me, and I really appreciate that about you. ^^)
...Mkay, getting on Skype. I feel like Danny-time is needed and will make the day more awesome~! Gimmie a sec! ^__^
-glomps- I'm so sorry I've been MIA for so long... A lot's been going on. But I still feel bad that I haven't been able to get on Skype to talk.. I miss you and I hope you're not mad (Or at the very least can forgive me for being gone so long.. So I'm sorry for that...)
How have you been? Is everything going well? -getting on Skype now-
Hope all is well, and that you're having a good time and stuffs. ^__^
Sorry, all this time I still can't seem to get back into the swing of things.
How have you been?