I have tried a thousand times to pinpoint what it is about my personality that makes me, well, me. And a thousand times it has eluded me. Perhaps this is because I'm unique, like I would very much love to be, or perhaps it's because I change very often and often very quickly.
I am a happy person, except when I'm not. It sounds pretty straight forward, and I guess it is. I am generally smiling even if I'm not exactly in the best moods. And if I'm not smiling you can be sure that lead weight in my stomach is sinking me beneath the calm dark waters of depression once again. Sometimes this can happen quickly, within minutes, and sometimes it takes an entire day.
I am as silly as I am serious. Equal parts of each balance out to a personality that you can rarely expect exactly how I'll react to a situation. Even I don't know until I find myself reacting.
I'm not social, in fact I am and was that quiet girl who is sitting in the back corner of the room with her nose buried in a novel(and sometimes manga or comic), and a new one just about every week at least. This is not particularly because I'm shy, even tho I am, this is because through everything I've seen in life, nothing has led me to much like the general public, and I find a desperate fight for someone's life more entertaining than who had sex with whom, broke up with whom, or took so many drugs at the party the other day and did something "awesome".
I'm rather blunt with what I say, despite the fact that I tend to use excessive amounts of words for things that most would use little. I do this unconsciously, and I'm afraid that some people find this trait make me seem 'stuck up'....well I apologize ahead of time, the books must be getting into my head and increasing the size of my lexicon. Don't worry, my ego is sufficiently small to counteract this ailment.
Aaat any rate, I love to be creative in my boredom, which some would call random. Toasting mini-marshmallows over a candle with a paperclip type creative.
So strike me on the right note and I'm lots of fun, I take it as my job to entertain and keep people happy since it makes me happy. Strike me on the wrong note and I'll probably bore you with some long drawn out speech that you don't care about. And strike me on a helpful day and I'm chalk full of advice.
There is my personality basics on a nice silver platter. I'm afraid I ran out of garnish, so you'll just have to deal with the seasonings or run to the store, if you like. Either way, I've been told this meal is delicious~... =b