I cant sleep any more. and when i do i wake up with adrenaline pumping so hard that im trying to catch my breath. i have dreams that im falling and i wake up having a panic attack... i have sedation meds AND sleep regulation meds and ADHD meds. none of them work. my mind is still racing at night.
I dont particularly fit into any sub culture. I'm Indie. Not what you think indie is, but only cus it means Independent. I'm goth emo, metalhead, rocker, sosospazticcsicklypsykeoh-C-Rawk. haha. that should be my stage name.
i truley am a sissy i cry when i watch romance movies. i watch soap operas with my mom lol. i just dont believe there are girly or boyish things.
Stop asking, I'm not gonna cyber.
I wont be your boyfriend on the internet. I'm honestly bi, but i wouldnt ever have a relationship with a dude, therefore i wont do anything with them either.
there is actually a girl... I have alot of history with.
My feelings for her are like an Ipod's headphones. If you blink, they get all raveled up. She is immature. I dont even like her that much. I put on a lame act every time I'm Around her, cus I can't look her in the eye. NO. if I did that I would feel too much. I don't even know how the hell I could ever love her. But apparently, I can.
I am SUPER corny and poetic. as my username says... lol
I will admit. i am a music download monster. RAWR!... i iligally downloaded over 7200 Songs.
i do not think its wierd to ask certain questions unless i deem it too personal. but dont worry, if your cool about it i will forgive and forget.
I am intermediately a one man band. I have the brain and the ideas to lead a band to success, and to me success, is bringing as many people to god for as long as people. bro i worship with metal if i have to. My biggest inspirations right now are Gavin Degraw, MCR, and From First to Last.
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING!!! PLEASE RATE MY POEMS AT THE ARENA!! thanks XD