The boringness of meJanuary 2010
I was once married. Was tied down to a man that stayed indoors all the time. Now I'm free. I've been free since July. I was scared to go out into the world on my own and relied on many others to make me feel safe and secure. Now I realize that I have never given myself enough credit. I can do things on my own. So I've been exploring life. I've spread my wings and started doing new things. Instead of being stuck in the house reading which I still do occasionally, I won't give up my shojo manga, I'm outside enjoying life. I've made friends outside of work that I can hang with. I can FINALLY get some fresh air and walk through the woods without a care in the world. I can beat the crap out of guys that try anything because it's fun and they asked for it. I feel I have found myself in the last few months. I can't wait to see what life brings my way. I'm starting anew.
I would like to thank every one of my friends that I have met here. You all helped me through one of the hardest times in my life, and I really appreciate it. Thank you very much! ^_^ You guys are irreplaceable to me.
I state the month because this is how much life changes. I'm still free. I enjoy my freedom as much as possible. I'm not scared to go out into the world anymore. I'm tired of my stability. I want to go out and see what the world has to offer. Someday soon, I will. biggrin I give myself enough credit now. Not too much because that's being egotistical and conceited, but I now see what others have told me. It's great to feel confident of yourself. I can honestly say, I haven't read a manga in almost 3 months. For anyone who knew me back then, I hope you didn't pass out when you read that. I still go outside and walk in the woods, and I have a few people that join me. There's nothing like a bunch of nature loving people together in a forest. ^_^
Life has brought much to me. It's made me realize that life is not as long as we believe it to be. That you must take advantage of every opportunity and not settle because no one is going to live your life for you. You should be happy with what you do and settle for nothing less.
I have found my beliefs in the past few months. I never had a religion, and I don't still, but I'm proud to be what I am, a very accepting pagan. In the past few months I have opened my mind to so many new things. I've found out and learned so much about myself that I never knew. Slowly, day by day, I am changing. Currently I'm in my cocoon, but as soon as I'm happy with everything and I know which path I must take, I will burst forth as one of the brightest butterflies you have ever seen.
I have learned many hard lessons in the last few months, and I value every one of them because they have helped me better myself.
I have made MANY friends since I have left Gaia. All of them are kind, generous, and understanding. I feel happy and honored to have them as friends. My life on Gaia is practically over. I have found happiness elsewhere, but I will keep my account so anyone who wants to can contact me can do so. I wish you all the best in life. ^_^