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Last Login: 08/17/2017 3:49 pm

Registered: 04/13/2007

Gender: Female

 

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Avenged Sevenfold - Unbound

About

My name is Noel. I am from North Carolina, but now live in Pensylvania.

I am sometimes super awkward.

To all those I have pushed away, I am sorry.

I have had issues with schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder, anxiety, and depression for a long time. Things actually seem to be looking up now, so I am looking for work again now that I am functional. I am hoping I remain functional.

I love: the band Avenged Sevenfold, too much other music to name here, Pokemon games, my Mom, my Brother, a person named Michael, all the cats I have befriended over the years, raccoons, coffee, etc.

RACCOONS ARE AMAZING. GO WATCH RACCOON VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE. SO COZY.

Michael, if you see this, I hope everything is well with you. I am respecting your space and not messaging you until I hear from you again. Let me know whenever you want to talk again if you ever decide to talk to me again. EDIT: However, you may be better off without me. I am glad for your sake that you quit talking to me. Yeah I miss you a lot, but you cutting me off has helped me grow. Just knowing that without me you actually have a chance to be happy is enough for me to be ok without you. I know nothing I can say will make you give me another chance, so I've given up trying to convince you I am better.

I keep to myself a lot now, and have given up on dating and sex. I plan to get a realistic sex doll at some point for cuddles and sex, and listen to lots of music. Music has helped me cope with life. To quote Korn (or paraphrase rather, because i forgot the exact words), "when no one understands you, the music do".Also as far as friends/music go, the band Avenged Sevenfold are my best friends now. Though i have never met or talked to them.