About

okay, here it goes. so, my name's legally Kimberly Ann Hessian. i am always changing, the change is constant, every single person opens my eyes and changed my opinions, it's almost as if change makes me fake. but i am as real as i can be. this is so cliché but i am me, you have to except it no matter what, but you don't have to except me. seriously, if you're going to hate me over some simple details in my life don't bother to read this. and every one does make mistakes, get over it. so music isn't my life, but it's a big part of it. i like music i can relate to, and doesn't sound like some sort of sea animal dying.i am trying to be a vegetarian, and if you're gong to annoy me over it it's just pathetic. i don't have that many friends in real life, just out of choice, if you're going to revolve your self around finding drugs, doing drugs and being high, i really don't want to talk to you. but i'm fine with you doing them as long as thats not what your life's about. i hate questions like what's up, if you seriously have nothing to talk about then just don't. well here is one of my life goals, complete my list of life goals, travel the country the year i get out of high school or college, if i go to college, and just kinda be a hippy and take my sucky pictures. i would just like to see how people could open my eyes and stuff. also i think i would want to move to Canada, Australia or Seattle. one thing i would like to discover through my life is a deep meaning of life, other then reproducing. theres really not to many people i like enough to talk to, they annoy me quite a bit, i mostly talk to people who have a lot in common with me and understand what i'm thinking, more so, the people who are actualy interested by this overly long paragraph. and yes, i am against the war. it is a very violent, pointless thing, especially how every single country in the world has a draft. if people actualy like your country, then they'd fight for it. war is pretty pointless, killing people over you're stupidness. gee, sounds fun. i completely welcome you into my life, you can try and come in or stay out, your choice. and i will completely trust everyone until i get a reason not to, then you must earn it, or else i just won't trust you. mmkay, thats about all i'ma tell you now, i am an completely open person, ask me any thing that you want to know, i'll answer with complete honesty. i'll talk to you if you please, message me, comment me, talk to me over atp, aim or msn AIM; ECT biggrin

envy is ignorance. imitation is suicide
I’m sure you’ve noticed that this about me is a bit long. Oh dear God! I must be so full of myself, right? Wrong. I believe This is a place for you to meet new people and get to know them. So I write these long about me’s to explain a little bit about who I am, which include; my views and opinions, some of my experiences in life, and of course the basics (name, age, location, physical appearance, likes, hates, etc.). If you are not going to be open minded when reading this, then leave my page now and never speak to me. I hate people who can’t have an open mind when listening to what other people have to say. While reading this, I would also like you to keep in mind that when I am explaining the hard times I’ve had in my life I am not looking for your sympathy at all. I believe that past experiences and how you handle them turn you into who you are today, and by explaining some of the things I’ve been through, you’ll have a better idea of why I am the way that I am. If you have been through something similar to me, and you’re having a hard time dealing, I hope that you realize you’re not the only one, and that you can get through it like I have.I Can Not Wait To Start A New Year, I Have A Lot Planned For 2009 And It's Going To Be Amazing I WILL Make It Amazing. I Laugh At People Who THINK They Can Have What You've Got, But With A Face Like That You Won't Be Gettin' Anyone Or Anything SOZ. Apart From The Negativeness And The Vile People That is Surround Me, I'm Doing Pretty Good, I Have Everything That I Need In My Life Right Now And I Will Continue To Keep My Life As Good As It Is Now, I Will Push Myself So High That I Will Go Beyond Space, THAT Is What I Call Determination Beyotch.
Love-Is-Love---Pansexual.
i have never had sex.
i don't do drugs.
I'm addicted to drinking.
i turn 15 on July 13th.
i cut myself.
i enjoy snow but when the weather is above freezing.
i like pain.
i can't handle emotional pain, so i take it out physically.
people say that they like me because I'm pretty?? and because i have a good personality.
people say I'm to likable.
I'm quite shy.
i except everyone. i am very nice so don't be afraid to add me.
I freaking LOVE Jeffree Star
I'm just really honest && straight forward.
I'll write more later right now this is just a little bit of whats more to come.
I hope you know how much you really meant to me. You helped me through a lot by just being around. I will always miss you. <3
"On the day that you were born, you began to die.
Do not waste a single moment more!"
~Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

"The day is ending.
It's time for something that was beautiful
to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go."
~"Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert

"The worst thing that happens to you can be
the best thing for you, if you don't
let it get the best of you"
~Anne Hathaway

"Well, let me tell you something, Mister. If I had
her money, I'd be richer than she is."
~Breakfast At Tiffany's
I live my life the way I want to live it. Usually, I’m living in the moment. I do the best I can to only think about what is happening in the present time. I try not to worry about the past, though it does of course come up every now and then. To me, the past is something to learn from, not dwell over. If I’m thinking about the past, I try to remember the good times so I just smile and laugh. If I’m thinking about a bad time, I just remember that it’s done and over with, and the mistakes I made then I’ll try never to make again. I just find that I am a lot happier when worrying about the present time and the present time only. If I’m getting ready in the morning, I make the best of it. Dancing and singing while I’m putting my makeup on and doing my hair. If I’m with a friend, I make jokes with them and try to laugh until I can’t breathe. If I do happen to be sad about something, I let myself be sad. I cry as much as I need to until I can truly accept what I’m upset about and move on. People have different beliefs on the reason to life, or if there really even is a reason. I have accepted that while I’m alive I will not figure it out. What’s the point, trying to figure out what your purpose is in life? Whether it’s to be a proud parent, a busy businessman/woman, a world traveler, or whatever else you may think your purpose is in life. I’m sorry, but I believe my purpose in life is to live. It’s as simple as that. I’ll do anything and everything I can in this life as long as it makes me happy. If I never get married, have kids, see the world, have money out the wazoo, or whatever else you think a person should do or have in their lifetime, I’m ok with that. I’m okay with my life as long as I can be happy no matter where I am and what I’m doing. I could die tomorrow. Hell, I could die in the next hour. So why worry about my past? Why worry about my future? Your future might not even exist for all you know, so why worry about it? Your past is done and over with, so why the ******** are you still crying about it? I’m alive, right now, in this moment. I could be making a mistake, I could be doing the best thing I’ll ever do in my life, I could be happy, I could be sad, I could be anything, but I’m alive, and hopefully well.
Lets take a look into my past. Now, let me warn you, it isn’t the happiest past. My childhood wasn’t all horrible of course, but for the most part, it was hard. My mind has actually blocked out many years of my life as a child. I do remember all the screaming, the yelling, the shattering glass, the doors slamming, the running, and the hiding though. Thankfully, there wasn’t any physical abuse that I ever saw or knew about. But life started getting hard around the time when I was 10 years old. Drugs and alcohol and a family full of people born with chemical imbalances.. Doesn’t really mix. along with others I love in my family. I believe I knew by instinct.
Relationships after that haven’t gone so well. I seem to be a little too bitchy in relationships now. I’m not very good at showing affection towards people. I’m sure the reason for that though is I just don’t give a s**t. Whether I’m in a relationship or not, I could care less. In fact, I’d much rather be single. I’m happier this way. I’m sure in the future I’ll want to be with someone, but for now, I’m going to stay single until I think I can do well enough in a relationship. You know, like, when I can actually be nice. Haha.So now that you’ve heard about my life and such, I can move on to the more boring things. This is where I’m just going to ramble on and on about random things about me. . Yeah. That would be me. A lot of people think I have some OCD issues because of it. I probably do though lol. Who knows. I have 2 dogs and 8 cats. I’m not sure what I would do without a dog to be honest, I always have to have one or I seriously go ******** insane. I mean, don’t you agree it sounds a little bit better to say you’re talking to the dog when you’re actually talking to yourself instead of saying, “Ohh umm.. I’m talking to the wall, not myself, I swear! I’m not insane!” Hahaha. I talk to my dogs, it helps. I feel less crazy. Then again, I like feeling a little crazy sometimes. Makes life less boring. I love that my family is dysfunctional. Normal families bore me. We’re all either completely insane or at least slightly insane in this family of mine, and I love it. I believe it makes us human. My natural hair color is dark brown with red highlights, and so far it’s been my favorite. I tried bleaching my hair and putting pink highlights in one time, but that didn’t go over so well. Ha. Then I dyed it purple and fell in love. I think I’ll stick to this color. b***h. And you know what, ******** it, I’m proud of it. I don’t even care anymore. I’ll just go with whatever my body wants to do. I love to read and write. If that isn’t already obvious. I could read all day. I love fishing. Take me fishing and you’ll be my new best friend. I’m a spazz. I hate drugs, haven’t touched a single one, not even a cigarette. I love alcohol though. It’s best to keep that stuff away from me. I swear, you say the word wine or rum, it’s almost as if I’m a dog and my ears pop up like it heard you say the word WALK. I have one tattoo and four piercings counting my ears. I plan on getting many much more tattoos though. I am now very amused by the fact that I just said “many much more.” I love when the sun goes down, and I only like the sun rise when I haven’t slept in a couple of days. I probably listen to music a lot more than you do and I wouldn’t doubt me losing my hearing from listening to it too loud. I’d rather be blind than deaf. I am probably the most nonjudgmental person you will ever meet. I hate getting advice from people I don't know. If you're giving me advice on something that I already know, I'll probably ignore you. It annoys the hell out of me. I have people I go to for advice. So I honestly don't appreciate it when people I don't know try telling me something I already know. Ask me anything and I’ll tell you the truth. I can’t lie for s**t. The best place to ask me a question is either in my Q&A Blog or Truth Box. If you ask in my Truth Box I’ll answer your question in a bulletin. If you actually read all of this, you’re ******** bomb. You should now comment/message me and tell me that you took the time to read it, I’ll reply. <33

[I enjoy talking about people's beliefs. Whether it be on religion, love, or anything else. I'll talk about it. If you're curious about my beliefs, feel free to message or comment me on it, and I'll be more than willing to talk about it.]

"Here's to the kids. The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of whiskey & Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. Here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here's to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. Here's to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV... and blame MTV for ruining their life. Here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircuts. Here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. Here's to the kids who hum "A Little Less 16 Candles A Little More Touch Me" when they're stuck home, dateless, on a Saturday night. Here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart... from someone who didn't even know they existed. Here's to the kids who have read The Perks of Being A Wall Flower & didn't feel so alone after doing so. Here's to the kids who spend their days in photo booths with their best friends. Here's to the kids who are straight up smart asses & just don't care. Here's to the kids who speak their mind. Here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. Here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do. Here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. Here's to the kids. This one's not for the kids who always get what they want, but for the ones who never had it at all. It's not for the ones who never got caught, but for the ones who always try and fall. This one's for the kids who didn't make it, we were the kids who never made it. The Overcast Girls and the Underdog Boys. Not for the kids who had all their joys. This one's for the kids who never faked it. We're the kids who didn't make it. They say "Breaking hearts is what we do best.", and "We'll make your heart be ripped of your chest." The only heart that I broke was mine, when I got My Hopes up too too high. We were the kids who didnt make it. We are the kids who never made it."

-Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz III