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Ember-babe

Report | 06/21/2014 9:12 am

Ember-babe

I miss you and I love you ...
Ember-babe

Report | 05/05/2014 9:56 pm

Ember-babe

*sings* A thousand miles seems pretty far, but they've got planes and trains and cars. I'd walk to you if I had no other way. Our friends would all make fun of us but we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way. Delilah, I can promise you that by the time that we get through the world will never ever be the same. And you're to blame ...
Ember-babe

Report | 01/15/2014 10:39 am

Ember-babe

... Kharras .... ?
Ember-babe

Report | 07/14/2013 9:57 am

Ember-babe

I love you, Kharras. I hope all is well. You're greatly missed ... heart
Ember-babe

Report | 06/21/2013 5:38 pm

Ember-babe

Happy Birthday, Kharras. heart And I hope you're having a good Solstice!
Ember-babe

Report | 04/08/2013 1:53 am

Ember-babe

Y'know ... it has been over a month now. It hasn't gotten any easier without you. In fact, I think it just keeps getting harder. I sometimes wonder how long it'll be until I just completely break without you.

My hallucinations have gotten worse, my nightmares have increased nearly ten fold it seems -- in frequency and in intensity .... and I don't know if that's just from the stress of losing you, and my inability to cope, or if it's from me just being in a really bad place, worse of a place than I was already in.

I miss you so terribly. And I don't even know if you miss me at all .... if you even love me at all still. I go over every little joke in my head that only we'd get, that I try to tell others and they just don't find it funny, and I read over past posts and past PMs that I've held onto for years, and ....

... Gods, I just miss your presence. It's so lonely and quiet without you ... for a while there, it felt like you never left. And all of a sudden ... it's just the rare occasion again ... and I just ...

I catch myself crying. All the time. When I least expect it, when I don't mean to. And I feel like such a big part of me was lost when you left. I'm still not entirely sure how I'm going to walk through this pitiful, worthless life without you by my side ... Gods know I don't want to ... but .. I have to ... I have to try and make something out of this disaster.

I love you. Forever and for always. I do not beg your forgiveness, and I don't come here in hopes that you will read all of this one day, and take me back, as much as I want that to be so ... I come here in hopes that, one day, you'll see how much you always meant to me, how deeply I've always felt for you, and that my love never once wavered for you, even though I fell in love with someone else too. I'm not ... I've always been able to love more than one person at a time, it's true. But ... you, Kharras. You were so special to me - still are. And that's why this hurts so bad. That's why there's this undeniable hole in my heart, and it feels as though my soul has just been ripped to shreds, and I catch myself unable to breathe.

I stopped caring the minute you left me about sounding too 'mushy' or whatever - when I lost you, I knew that all the years spent being afraid of what you thought about how deeply I felt for you ... it all went away. I lost you not only because of my unfaithfulness, but I feel also because you didn't know just how much you were cared for, how much you meant to me. You are not one easily replaced - you CAN'T be replaced.

My heart belongs to you. Truly, it does. You were .... you've always been ...

... oh, Kharras ... I love you so much, can't you see that ... ? I cannot sleep. I cannot eat properly. I am completely riddled with scars now, and I just .... I know you were always gone before this all happened, but now you are truly gone ... and this is a truth ... so unbearable. So painful. I .... even if you never wish to have me back - as I will always gladly love you with everything in me, and will continue to love you, even if you choose not to love me in return - and even if we never speak again ... I just hope ... somehow, someway, someday ... you'll realize and know how much I love you. And if this life of mine comes and goes before we have a chance to make things right between us .... I just hope we'll meet again some day. Somewhere in time.

I vow, here and now, I will find a way back to you. Even if you do not know who I am, and I do not know you, we will have another life together. Somehow, someway. I will brand my soul with this vow, and if ever I break it, if ever it proves to be an impossible task ... than let the consequence of that broken vow be for me to seize to exist, to never be reborn, for my soul to die and never be anything ever again.

... I look forward to the day we meet again, Khar'as'uhr. And I hope it is on the best of terms ...

I love you.
Ember-babe

Report | 03/21/2013 9:09 am

Ember-babe

I love you, Kharras ...no matter what happens to me, to your world, to any of us .....just remember that. I'm always here for you, whether you want me or not.
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Report | 03/07/2013 11:05 am

Ember-babe

Please be safe ..... please, come back intact. Heck, just ... come back ... before things are too far gone.
Ember-babe

Report | 03/04/2013 6:28 am

Ember-babe

I know you broke up with me last night, but ....


Just wanted to say, I love you.
Ember-babe

Report | 02/14/2013 3:16 pm

Ember-babe

Happy Valentines Day, Kharras. heart I love you very much. Come see me sometime soon, mmkay?

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