I am alone... All I want is to be wanted by someone and I would do anything for that person in place among this terrible, horrific and useless world.. I am very violent when I am left alone, abandoned.. And ignored but Im also sad, lonely and in needing of acceptance.. even if I don't recognize or understand my own sadness. Nothing I do is perfect to anyone and I just want to be something to someone. I am very angry and clingy and have a dark sense of humor but I'm loving towards others that are able to understand my suffering and can over look my flaws and grasp it's meaning. Anyone that means something to me, I am very loving and open towards them. I am clingy and I don't want to loose them. I don't have many friends because I am always misunderstood.. And go through so much s**t in my life, I've given up seeing the good in things anymore, since there is so much to question.. I am generally scared to be hurt by someone getting too close to the point of lying and saying things without true meaning.. All I want is to be accepted.. And feel like I have purpose in this shitty world, and have meaning to someone who deserves me, even if I am broken and insane.. I want to feel wanted and deserving of someone who can take time and actually consider caring for me at all.. I don't want to be alone and suffer in silence any longer... I want to have purpose... I want to belong..