It's beyond reason, my social anxiety. I recently opened myself up to a group of new friends and it's been a really huge panic attack ever since. I managed to really click with one from the group but even now I've started holding them at a distance and stopped talking to them for a while. And before that I felt so rabid D: I felt like I was so far up their butt that they had trouble breathing-- and I understand why. It's because I desperately wish I had friends but I just can't let my guard down from how many times I've been hurt. So if I can ever muster up the gusto to bother you- I'd actually.. seriously *bother* you otl I even out after a while because me and Mettycakes went through it and she was just so laid back about it-- and we've just been really close ever since- but I wouldn't want to freak you out xD
iAi I never thought you considered me an actual friend of yours, though otl You've always been sweet to me and have always said really nice things and shown me support but a lot of people would think that would still keep everyone at arms length so it means a lot to me that you consider me to be your friend otl not worthy, not worthy.. please take my love..