October 30 199_
Going through hard times in life is difficult. You feel like you have nobody. Your alone.
Close your eyes imagine yourself,friends,family.
You feel alone. You feel like no ones there for you.
You had a shitty day. Something has to go wrong every single day.
Whether is a fight with your best friend,parent, or within yourself.
Everyday it seems like an uphill battle.A battle to get out of bed and face the world.
But this one day whether is actually today or a day in 5 years from now, is a day that will change everything.
You get home from school and your home all alone in your house.
The silence is louder in your house than normal.You walk into your room and lay down on your bed, thinking about how awful your day is. You think about the names you where called. You ask yourself "Why am I still here when everyone wants me to be gone." You imagine yourself leaving the planet. Your curious how people would act when your gone. Whether your the funny kid that everyone knows of, Or the shy kid that minds there own business. Whether you struggle with your weight, appearance, sexuality or any of the other battle teens face, You know you cant stick it out any longer."You cant hold on." Playing the happy card and faking your smile will only get you so far. You get up out of bed, your sad and very angry. You want to make a point to everyone, you want people to remember you, and to regret the mean things they say. You know something has to be done, and you know now's your only chance. If you don't it now, then when will you ever."You Crack." You go with the pills because you know there inset any other way. Your scared. Very scared. So you take the pills out of the cabinet. And gather up some paper and a pencil. You write very little, but its just enough to be heard and leave an imprint. Your write your parents and apologize for what your about to do. You write to all the people that didn't give you a chance. And that shut you down. The people that made fun of you, didn't give you and opportunity, didn't include you. You know who they are, but you don't name names. But you know who they are. You finish the letter and see your tears soaked into the paper, you cry harder. This is reality. You pick up the pills and don't hesitate. You realize Your Gonna Die. That kid who leaves there talent. Your crying for someone to come and help you. But no ones there. Then your dead. That's it. But its not. Your mom comes home to see her baby dead. You just killed her inside. She panics and calls 911, She cant catch her breath.She cant get this out of her head. Your school is notified and your friends find out. Your whole school is in Shock. Your school is silent for Days. They lost a friend, a classmate, A student. They lost a soul. You are forever known to that school. You will still forever be in there hearts. Your friends cry every night blaming there selves for not sending you a text. A text that could have Saved Your Life. Your family is falling apart. Your dad works late nights just so he doesn't have to go home and sit in the house where you vanished. Your mom looses her job, But she doesn't care because she just lost her baby. She hold on to the Good Memories you guys had together. She raised you, but she blames herself for not raising you stronger. Your brother and sister don't go to school. They get hundreds of messages that say "I'm sorry for your lost." Your facebook wall witch is still up, is filled with apologies. But the truth is, Your not there to see it, your not there to see all the people that care about you. Its funny how when your dead people start listening. Only if they gave you a chance to shine Before It Was Too Late. You where loved by so many people, but the bad part is its only showing now that your gone. My Message your people out there is, So way is suicide the answer. You'll make it through anything that is bringing you down."Stick It Out, And You Won't Regret It." Many amazing things will happen in your life. But none of them will happen if your not there. Would you rather be known as the person who took their own life, or the person who stuck it out and succeeded. In no way is this trying to make suicide look like a self-fish or cowardly act. But however I'm encouraging everyone to have a new out-look at this act. Whether you are suicidal, Struggling with personal problems. Or know someone that is suicidal. I'm here to tell you. "You Are Loved." If you ever feels like no one cares about you. I Do. You have so much to live for, and such a bright future ahead of you. Don't prove your point now. Prove it later when your living your successful life. I'm here to tell everyone that its "Never To Late" to become a better person. Its never to late to do something nice for someone. No matter how cool you think you are, Or how weird you thin someone is. Your never to cool to do something nice, say something nice for someone. Everyone out there is Hurting out there. Don't be that person that tries to look cool around his friends. Be that person who's there for anyone that needs someone. Don't be that person to break down someone. Be that person to build up another. Suicide is not the answer, Together we can make a difference. "Be There For People." Because you know what it feels like to no have anybody. Together we can save lives, Even if its just one.
We measure success and depth by length of time, but it is possible to have a deep relationship that doesn't always stay the same.
What I've learned by dating in general online or offline it is a partnership and the partnership can only be fully achieved if both partners are in sync.
With out this physical and mental sync the relationship is bound to fail.
And at the end of it all. Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.-Cole
You continue to think about that loved one, and think and think. Constantly.
Stop thinking about them and ask yourself, Is it them you miss? Or is it the memories.
Trying to drown your sorrows away, But in reality they learn how to swim.
Lifes like a beach, Where just playing in the sand. But some of us don't have toys like others, so where sitting in the sand wondering what to do.
While others are building sandcastles. Playing in the water, and there's us,confused.
Religion, I don't believe in it. They always say God knows best. So tell me why do people have cancer.
Born with a disease with no cure. We have no control over that yet God knows best so he'll just give it to random people right?
The people that have made a small mistake yet are paying there whole life for it.
People that are never given a chance. They live on the streets Begging for help. while the world thinks down on them.
God says he'll always forgive you.So if you ask for a bike, he wont give it to you.
But if you go steal one and ask for his forgiveness its alright? Why is there Hell? Will God ever forgive the Devil for what he has done?
Lifes always a struggle, Cause it shows if your willing enough to fight for what life throws at you.
If you aren't you loose the most important thing if your life, wither its a person, or an object,
Friend, Family, Pet, Or even a Teddy Bear. It can be the most important thing in life. But at the same time you take advantage of it.
Not knowing what it has to offer, show you. Because you never gave it a chance. You decided to cut it short.
All because of a little conflict. A little Argument. A little obstacle. You don't want to face it, and you let it go.
You'll have people who copy other kids so that they think that they are happy,
When they're truly not. You can Do what everyone does but that dosent make you happy like them.
You have to do what you are meant to do. The thing that is made for you to enjoy life.
If you really love someone and lose them, you never say goodbye because they are never gone.
You hold your head up and take them with you every step of the way.
True, genuine, pure love is as close as your heart regardless of where life takes you.
It's a treasure few experience, but love seeks what's God's best for the other, despite the broken heart or sadness it may cause you. ♥