Ineffable Pain

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Name: Andres Joaquin Rocha
Age: 17

I'm hispanic. I was born in the United states, but both of my parants are form Mexico. I'm an individual who loves observing, thinking, and art, such as drawing and writing. This is a piece from one of my writings:
My mind is a convoluted labyrinth of unanswered questions, despair, and broken dreams. Try exploring it and you will find yourself lost in your expedition. Try understanding and you will find a riddle you cannot solve.
-The Meaning of Futility

i live in palmdale, california

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Sport: soccer and working out

Music: I like all genre's, but Metal is my absolute favorite X)

Food: mexican food

song: A little Piece of Heaven by A7X

Bands: a7x, escape the fate, the used, alesana, asking alexandria, silverstein,
bullet for my valentine, we the kings, linkin park, three days grace, etc...

other fav songs: Fiction by A7X, You Are So Beautiful by Escape The Fate, The Fire by The Blackout

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You reach into the hat and pull out the #3 and practically scream it out. you hold your breath and see Danny (your bff) stand up. You exhale feeling relieved you weren't stuck with anyone else. He tosses his head back laughing and says ''hey sexy! would you like joining me in the closet?'' ''it would be my pleasure,'' you say inbetween giggles. He leads you in by your waist and smacks your a**. You let out a sexy yelp and return the favor by smacking his a**. ''Baby chill, were not even in the closet yet,'' he says sarcastically and everyone laughs while he locks the door. He turns to you and starts tickling your sides. ''Danny, stop!'' you say laughing hysterically. ''Nope, i don't think so,'' he says tickling you even more. You fall to the floor laughing in pain and he climbs on top of you. You use your hands to push him off but he is too strong. You both wrestle for awhile, Knocking coats and boxes over everywhere. Out of nowhere a box smacks Danny in the head sending his face crashing into yours. His lips press firmly against yours and quickly he lifts his head. ''im so sorry ______, that was an accident!'' he said still laying ontop of you. ''it's ok......it was just an accident,'' you say, trying to put together what just happened. Everything goes silent and he notices he is still ontop of you. ''ohh....sorry....i should get off now,'' he said feeling awkward but he didn't. He stayed hovering above your body. You give him a questioning smile and you feel him getting hard. His cheeks turn a bright shade of pink and he starts picking himself up but you immediately bring him down once again. ''what is happening,'' he says smiling. ''i don't know but....i don't want this to stop,'' you say in a breathless whisper. He looks back at you with intense eyes then grabs your face and passionately kisses you. He starts sucking on your neck while you unbuckle his pants. Still working on your neck, he somehow manages to strip you naked and you do the same for him. He positions himself comfortably on you and starts going in, inch by inch. Teasing you with every stroke. You had enough and screamed his name. He smiled and shoved it all the way. You moan, enjoying every second of it. By the time you both were done you were hot, sweaty, and breathing heavily on his chest. Finally he spoke ''_______, i love you, i always have and....i just wanted you to know that,'' tears formed in your eyes. ''Danny, i love you too,'' you say looking at him. He stares back and places a kiss on the top of your head. Just then i knocked on the door. ''Hey you guys, Times Up!'' you both exchange glances and quickly get dressed. while walking out Danny whispers in your ear ''_______ be my forever,'' you turn, pull him close and whisper back ''forever babe,'' The whole night you both talked, made out, and eventually fell to sleep. After two months of dating you find out that you are pregnant. You get really worried and tell Danny. He's quiet for a moment but then smiles ''wow...we are gonna have a baby,'' he finally said. ''are you sure your ok with this?'' you ask nervously. ''________, im more than happy, im going to be a father,'' he said tearing up. He pulls you close and you both cry in eachothers arms. ''I'll take care of you _______,.....i promise,'' he says while caressing your face. Two weeks later he proposes and starts planning out the future. He keeps telling you that he wants a big house full of children but most of all, he wants you to be happy with him. During the pregnancy, you find that Danny is excited to be a father. He keeps talking about the baby and how he can't wait to hold it in his arms. But unfortunately you have a miscarriage and he cries for months. You both went through many hard times and Danny had a bad case of depression. One day after school you dropped by Danny's house and found him making out with another one of your best friends ''How could you Danny!'' you cry out and run out of the house. ''_______, come back!! it's not what it looks like,'' he tries screaming but you are already gone. A month passes by since the incident and you find out that Danny left you pregnant once again. Your parents kick you out so you go and live with Alex (your ex) for support. You get a call a few days later that Danny was in a bad car wreck for drunk driving and was severely hurt. You and Alex rush to the hospital and you burst into his room. He looked practically dead. You busted out crying and ran to his side while Alex stood beside you. Danny opened his eyes and started to tear at the site of you. ''________, im so sorry i caused you pain but you have to know that i didn't cheat on you! she came unto me! ive been true to you since the beginning,'' he said choking up. ''Danny don't even worry about that now, i just want you to make it out of here,'' you said while stroking his hair. He looked at you and squinted his eyes in pain. ''_______....im not....going....to make it,'' he said inbetween gasps of breaths. You couldn't believe what you were hearing. ''NO Danny! don't talk like that! you'll see, youll be better in no time! then we can get married like we planned,'' he looked back at you with hurt eyes. ''im so sorry baby...i just can't...hold on much longer,'' he said. Your eyes started to burn. ''Danny, you can't go!...you need to live because im pregnant,'' he looked up at you shocked and you continued. ''Your going to be a father Danny, just like you always wanted,'' Tears started raining down his face then he noticed Alex in the background ''No....Alex is,'' he said and passed away. ''Danny?...Danny?...DANNY!!! wake up! don't leave me like this!'' you cried out but it was too late. You spent the whole night crying in Alex's arms. A few months later you gave birth to a handsome baby boy who looked exactly like Danny. Alex helped you raise Danny Jr. and you both got married 2 years later. But not one day passes where you do not think of your true love, Danny...may he rest in peace. awww OMG that is sooo sad!

one of the best stories ive heard and ps dont judge this story from the beginning

“Hey! Emo girl!” a guy in the hallway yelled, jumping out in front of me. I dodged him and kept walking, listening to Daggers Speak Louder Than Words by Alesana on my iPod. I had a lot of music on there, mostly by Alesana. I have OAD, which to me means Obsessive Alesana Disorder. OK I’m getting off-topic and that’s not the point. 1When I got to my eighth-period class, Reading, I grabbed a book, stuffed my iPod in my bag, and took a seat in the back. People stared at me and snickered. 2“Hey, are you supposed to be here?” the teacher asked me. I nodded and brought my schedule up to her. She took it, looked at it for a moment, and handed it back to me. I walked back to my desk.3I was too busy putting my schedule in my binder I didn’t see this one girl’s foot poke out in the middle of the walkway. Of course, I wiped out. People laughed.4“Ha ha, emo girl!” the girl said. 5“Hey, Ms. Bufton! You should give that girl a Wing. That was a good one!” a boy in the front yelled. I gathered up my stuff and ran to the back of the room. 6At the end of the day, I walked home in the pouring rain. I lived in Oregon so it rained 24/7, 365 days a year, 366 days on leap years. I turned my iPod up to full blast and sang along to Suicide Season by Bring Me The Horizon. They’re another screamo band. I guess I didn’t mention that Alesana is a screamo band.7People stared at me and I walked down the sidewalk. I guess I did look kind of stupid, seeing as how I suck at screamo.8The song ended, so I took my iPod out of my pocket to choose another song. While doing that, I bumped into someone. Figuring it was another person getting ready to hate on me, I got up off the ground and started to walk past him.9Oh my gosh, I thought, as I stared at him, dead in my tracks. He was the most gorgeous emo boy I’ve ever seen!10“Sorry about that, my bad,” I said, looking down at my neon green and black Converse because I was sure that I was blushing. 11“No problem. I’m Damien. What’s your name?” he asked me, picking my iPod up from the ground and handing it to me.12“I’m Erickka.”13“Cool name. Nice shirt, too. Dashboard Confessional is a good band. I like the song Vindicated. ‘Vindicated, I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I’m right, swear I knew it all along,’”14“I love that song. Hey what school do you go to?” 15“Reynolds High. What about you?”16“H. B. Lee.”17“Nice. Wanna walk?” he asked, putting his arm around my shoulders. I nodded, blushing again. 18“Emo kid!” someone yelled, standing up in the backseat of a convertible that was driving by.19“Ugh, I’ve been getting that all day. Someone in eighth period tripped me, and in ninth period, FACS class, someone dumped cookie dough all over my favorite hoodie, which is why I’m walking down the street in the pouring down rain in a tee shirt. He laughed. 20We walked for about 20 minutes, until we reached my house.21“Can I have your number?” he asked, taking out his cell phone. I gave my number to him, then he handed me his phone so I could take a picture of myself to put with the number. We said goodbye, and I walked in my house.22“H. B. Lee is full of preppy kids who hate emo kids,” I told my step-mom and went to my room. I looked around at all the boxes that I needed to unpack, turned my iPod on, and opened a box up. It had all my composition books I’ve kept since I was 12 (I’m 14 now), which had poetry, music (bands I’ve written down to add to my iPod) and lyrics to some of my favorite songs. I put the composition books on my shelf and took the box apart and put it in my closet. I picked up the next box, and I heard knocking on my window, dropping it, I looked up. It was Damien.23“What the freak? You scared the crap out of me!” I exclaimed, opening my window.24He laughed. “My friend is having a party, and told me I can bring anyone. Do you want to go?”25“Uh, yeah!” I said.26“Cool. We’re going to be driving there so I hope you trust a seventeen-year-old behind the wheel. Don’t worry I have my license.” He held it up.27“You look hot in that picture,” I said.28XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO29“Damien, you never told me that there would be drinking at this party. You know what, screw it I’m not even going to let you drive me home, because you’re as drunk as a horse.”30“No I’m not, I’m just buzzed,” he said, tripping over the flat ground.31“Uh-huh, sure. My parents would kill me if I were in a car with a 17-year-old who is drunk. Look, I don’t have anything against you,” I said, helping him up.32“Look, Erickka, I really do like you. And I know you like me too,” he said sympathetically, “So trust me.”33XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX34“Slow… Down… Before you get us killed. What are you, suicidal or something?” I yelled. About 100 yards in front of us was the railroad tracks. He sped towards them, trying to beat the Union Pacific train that was coming down the tracks.35“You’re not going to beat the train, Damien. The train always wins. Always.”36“Okay, you know what, you drive,” he yelled, stopping in the middle of the railroad tracks. The train was about 300 yards away, coming at 55 miles an hour it looked like.37“You moron! You are trying to kill me, aren’t you?”38“No, oh my God, we’re screwed,” he yelled, finally realizing what he was doing. He floored the gas but ended up running into the bar that’s supposed to keep cars from getting hit by the train. He cursed under his breath.39I jumped out of the car and ran over to Damien’s side. 40“I’m not getting out. Go. If you try to get me out then we’ll both get killed. Something’s wrong with my seat belt, sometimes it gets stuck and you have to pry it open—“ he was cut off by the trains whistle.41“I’m not just going to leave you here, Damien!” I yelled over the train, which was 100 yards away now.42“If you don’t get out of the way I will never forgive myself. Just go. Don’t worry about me,” he said, looking me in the eyes. I hugged him tight, and jumped back when the train blew its whistle again.43The train was fifty feet away. “GO!” he yelled. Trying to hold the tears back, I jumped over the bar as the train comes thundering by, smashing the car, and killing Damien. A piece of sharp metal flew out from under the train, almost hitting me. 44I burst out crying and couldn’t stop for two hours. Once I was done, I reached into my coat pocket for my cell phone, but I found a folded up piece of paper instead. I took it out and unfolded it.45“Ericka, I’m very sorry for what happened. I never meant it to be like this, this was supposed to be a fun night. Sorry if you can’t read it, if this note is messy, I just wrote it really fast while you were busy yelling at me. But I really, really like you and always will. And I hope some day we’ll get to see each other again. I didn’t know this was going to happen. I just wrote it incase something did happen but hoping that it wouldn’t. I’ll miss you. From: XxXdamienXxX. 46I folded and opened the note about a million times before it finally hit me. He didn’t even try to get out of the car. I should have pulled him out. He’s dead because of me. I started crying again, not sure of what I was supposed to do. I found my cell phone and noticed that it was 11 o’clock at night. I did really like Damien, and now he’s gone. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t know if I was dreaming or not, but I didn’t feel like pinching myself or kicking myself, like a lot of people I know do. 47Instead, I picked up the piece of metal that had landed next to me, closed my eyes, and stabbed it into my chest.

1st place

2nd place

hey it's jackson, I'm not here right now please leave a message"*click*"hey it's jackson, I'm not here right now please leave a message"*click*You were lying on your bedroom floor the tear marks were dried onto your face, you knew he wasn't going to answer, you knew no matter what you did it was way to late, but you just wanted to hear his voice again.Jackson had been your best friend since sixth grade, the two of you were inseperable. You had told him everything, things you didn't tell anyone else. But there was one thing, that was ten times more important then any other thing you'd ever mentioned. And it was too late now.You had been had been at a party the night that it happened. You were all playing 20 minutes in heaven, and you stuck your hand into the hat feeling more nervous then ever.You pulled out a pair of headphones, and Jackson stood up and helped you up with the biggest smile on his face. You two walked into the closet slowly as everyone watched you go.You wore your favorite outfit, your black skinny jeans with the neon green zebra print shirt that Jackson had given you for your birthday a couple of months ago."I love your shirt where did you get it?" Jackson asked you smiling his widest."oh, well you see, there's this kid and he's the bestest friend I've ever had. He got it for me, doesn't he have good taste?" you said laughing a bit."That he does!" he said smiling.there was an awkward silence between the two of you. you understood why. both of you were alone in a closet standing less then two feet away from each other, in the dark. Everyone outside of the door, had known the two of you were best friends, they were just waiting for a miracle to happen."you want to dance?" Jackson asked quietly."dance? there's no music" you said smiling"well you picked up my headphones remember?" he said grinning wider now."oh right I forgot. Yeah sure i'd love to" you said blushing a little.jackson took his headphones back and plugged them into his ipod, he slid one of the ear buds into your ear and played the song "My Heart Will Wait" by Joe Brooks.He pulled you in close, very slowly, as if he was scared to break you. And he put his hand gently on the lower part of your back and with the other hand he grabbed your hand tightly. You two moved so slowly, and as the song played along you put your head on his chest, and he laid his cheek on the top of your head. And then he pulled away and began to sing a part of it into your ear softly."My Heart will Wait, My heart will wait for you, my heart will wait, my hearts gonna wait for you, always."you've heard the song before, but you never listened to the lyrics closely, and now jackson was singing them to you, and they had alot of meaning behind them when he said them."I whisper goodbye, I swear it's not for the last time.I know it's not easy.It's not meant to be easy." he said as he pulled away from you and faced you straight on now."_____" he said to you taking his hand out of yours and putting it on your face rubbing his thumb gently underneath your eye."yeah" you said nervously."we need to talk" he said a choking sound comming from his throat."is everything okay?" you asked worried.Jackson didn't say a word, he simply just took your hand and brought you outside of the closet. Everyone looked at you two in shock, but jackson didn't even look at them, he brought you out of the house and fast. Everyone seemed to be going by in slow motion.When the two of you got outside, he started running, and you chased after him the best you could. He slowed up, grabbed your hand and ran along with you. you ran through a couple of trees and you finally ended up in this huge field, with mountains on the other side. In between the mountains was the moon, the biggest you've ever seen it."wow" you said out of breath now."I know" he said, breathing heavyhe grabbed your hand again, and lead you to the center of the feild, and sat you down next to him."___?" he said"jackson" you said quietly."your my best friend." he said looking into your eyes."your my best friend too" you said tears comming to your eyes, you wanted it to be so much more."you know i'd never hurt you right?" he said seriously."yeah" you said looking into his eyes."what i'm about to say ____ is probably going to hurt you more then you'll ever be hurt" he said with a tear sliding down his cheek."it's okay, jackson" you said feeling scared."no, it's not okay." he said shaking his head."whats wrong" you said tears forming in your eyes."you're not going to forgive me" he said looking at the moon."you know I will" you said seriously."i'm sick, ______" Jackson said after a long pause."how sick?" you said tears comming out of your eyes faster now."very sick. I've got a couple of brain tumors ____, i didn't know till last week, I had a siezure when i got home from school." Jackson said looking at you now."well don't they have treatment for that? I mean people of survived from that right? Jackson your strong, you can live it" you said desperate for an answer.jackson began to shake his head. "I've decided not to get any treatments.""Why not, I mean don't you want to live? don't you want to see more of this life?" you said frantically."_____" Jackson said looking deep into your face."I've seen it before, I know what treatments can do to a person. So I've decided to live, because i don't want my last couple of weeks, to be spent in a hospital ___ I just don't want to go that way." jackson said putting his face in his hands.You stood up now, looking at jackson like he was crazy."weeks? what do you mean weeks?" you said half screaming."the cancer wasn't caught quick enough ___. it's to late. They gave me three weeks at most." he said tears comming out of his eyes."No!" you screamed at him."No, your my best friend, you can't just be gone" you said tears filling up your face.Jackson stood up too and tried to hug you but you pushed away."Live jack, please, I'm sorry if it sounds selfish, but I NEED you, i need you here, you can't just die" you said sobbing now.Jackson moved toward you, but you turned around running. You ran as fast as your legs would carry you, hoping that running would make this whole thing disapear. You ran all the way to your house, but you fell apart before you even got close to the door. It was late, and your parents were home, but you laid on the front lawn not caring anymore.Jackson, all of a sudden was sitting next to you, and pulled you into a tight hug, holding you close to his warm body."I'm not scared of dying, _____. I know people can move on after I'm gone. I know you'll be okay in the end. Dying would be a thousand times easier if it didn't mean leaving you. I'm so sorry ____. I wanted so much more then this with you. There's so much I had to tell you _____. And it's all to late, i took to long, and now I can die at any moment. And i can't leave this earth, i can't leave you, without you knowing exactly how I feel about you." jackson said still holding you close."then tell me everything" you said still crying hard."I love you, _______. I love you more then I thought I could, then i thought was possible. You made me a better person, you really did. You taught me what it was like to be truly happy. I wanted more, _____, i wanted more then three weeks to have a life with you in it, more then just a best friend, Hell ____ i don't even know if I'll wake up tomorrow. I wish I could just express how much you mean to me, but I can't it's just not possible. I can't tell you why I love you, because it's not something I had to think about, it was just so easy. Everything about you, makes me smile. The way you walk, that way you laugh, how you smile over silly things. How you try and convice me your okay, when i know your breaking down inside. Your such a beautiful girl ____, inside and out, don't you ever forget that. I'm so proud of you, cause I've seen you grow up. I'm proud of every little thing you've done, and I'm proud to say you were the best friend i was so blessed to get. And i'm okay with dying, becuase even though I'm about to lose you _____, at least I got to know you, and the thought of never having you in my life, is worse then imagining losing you. Your the best thing thats ever happened to me. And your going to make it big in this world ____, i know you are, I believe in you. I want you to know _____, your beautiful everbody see's it, your so smart it's hard to even understand, your good at so many things even though you haven't realized it yet, your such a good person, and I have to tell you this cause I know you don't hear it enough. I didn't tell you enough. I wanted to marry you one day ______, i wanted to have kids, and a future with you. I'm sorry that doesn't get to happen. I love you, i've always loved you, and no matter what happens to me, I'm always going to love you, please don't forget that." jackson said holding your face in his hands"Jackson" you choked out.Jackson didn't answer he just pulled your lips into his and kissed you with every bit of life he had in him. You kissed him back, the tears not stopping cause you knew this wasn't going to last.all of a sudden, a light turned on in your house."s**t" you said."it's okay, go inside, I'll call you tomorrow okay?" Jackson said doing his best to smile."no, no I want you to stay" you said looking in his eyes"I'll be back, I'll come back for you alright?" Jackson said pulling you in tighter."you promise?" you said, tears hitting his shirt."yeah" he said kissing the tears away.He gave you one more kiss goodbye and watched you walk inside. you went inside smiling over the kiss for a few seconds before you realized that the boy was going to die in a couple of weeks. You crawled into bed and sobbed threw the entire night praying that Jackson would some how live.In the morning, Jackson didn't call. You waited hours, so you could arrange to see him so you could tell him how much you loved him back. But he never called, and he never answered his phone. Finally you called his mom getting worried. She answered the phone and said"______?""yeah where's jackson, there's something I need to tell him" you said."______, he didn't make it through the night." she said obviously crying."wh-what do you mean I just saw him less then twelve hours ago." you said freaking out."I know, i know, the cancer just got the best of him" she said upset.She started to give you details on the wake and funeral dates but you weren't listening, you finally just hung up.You laid in bed for days untill the day before the wake. You finally got up and grabbed paper and a pencil.you wrote everything you felt about that boy in a five paged letter. tear marks covered the page. And the day of the wake you slipped the letter into the casket, touching the boy that used to be warm and happy, now just cold and hard.later that night of the wake you called his cell phone over and over again. Just listening to the sound of his voice, the one you missed incredibly"hey it's jackson, I'm not here right now please leave a message"*click*"hey it's jackson, I'm not here right now please leave a message"*click*"hey it's jackson, I'm not here right now please leave a message""I love you, jackson. I always did, I always will, and I'll never stop. i miss you, i miss you alot. And I wasn't lying when I said i needed you, i still do. I keep thinking it's you when the phone rings, i know it's silly, i just can't believe your gone. I'm never going to give you up, I'll never forget you, and you can bet everything you got on that alright? I love you, so so much. I'm sorry you never got to hear it." you said into the voicemail before hanging up.

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ALL THREE STORIES THE NARRATOR IS A GIRL

Enjoy: First 3 were not written by me. I just really liked them. Fourth one is mine :P

i wrote this one hope u like it im not a good writer lol XD

I still remember that horrible day, August 19, 2001. I will never forgive myself for what I did or planned that day, but it’s to late for regretting. What started out as a normal, beautiful, sunny day ended up as a never ending nightmare. I moved into Houston, Texas on February 21, 2001. It had been six months since I moved there. I went to the school that my 2 friends, Danny and Sara, went to, which was Clear Lake High School. Sara was a beautiful 16 year old girl. I loved her, but the thing is Danny and Sara were going out. They loved each other so much. I felt happy for them, but sad for me. The truth is I was jealous of Danny because he had Sara’s heart. Anyways it was morning and I had barely woken up and my mom was calling me for breakfast. We were having pancakes, my favorite. After breakfast, I got ready and headed to the school. The high school wasn’t far from were I lived so I walked. When I got there I saw Danny and Sara at the entrance of the school. “Hey you guys, “ I said and waved. “Hey Jason, “ they said and waved. “How are you doing, “ asked Danny. “Good and you?” I asked. “Good” he replied. Danny was the first friend I made when I moved here. He was a nice guy, and lucky because he had Sara. Also I was shy to express my feelings to Sara with Danny around. But I was determined to tell Sara about my feelings for her today at lunch. The bell rang and we went to our classes. We all had different classes, but same lunch. At lunch I tried to find Danny and Sara. I looked everywhere for them. I finally saw them in the corner making out. My heart broke as soon as I saw them. I tried my best to smile and said hi. “Oh hey Jason, “ they both said trying not to laugh. I knew I had to do something to get them apart. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had to think. Many girls liked Danny at the high school. In sixth period, I decided to ask a girl to do me a favor. “Hey Amy can you do me a big favor,” I asked nervously. “Sure what,” she asked with a smile. Amy was a very cute girl that didn’t care if she hurt other people. She was perfect for my plan. “Can you help me break up Danny and Sara,” I asked nervously waiting for an answer. She looked surprise, but smiled and said, “sure, what do you have in mind?”. I was happy and thought of what to do. Finally I said, “I’ll ask Danny after class if he wants to come to a park with me and you, but I’ll also invite Sara, but she has to come after Danny because you have to kiss Danny and Sara has to see ok,”. She liked Danny so she liked the plan. After school I asked Sara if she wanted to come to that park with me and Amy. “Sure Jason,” she smiled. I smiled and said bye. Amy was supposed to ask Danny. The next day, like it was Saturday, I prepared to go pick up Sara. When I got there she looked happy to see me and I was happy to see her. We headed to the park. When we got there, we looked for Amy and Danny. When we found them, Amy was already doing her part. I smiled because my plan was going well. Sara was broken as soon as she saw Amy kissing Danny. She said screaming and crying, “Danny how could you?”. She ran with tears falling from her face. Danny tried to stop her, but it was too late. Danny went on his knees and said with tears in his face, “Jason I didn’t want to kiss her, she suddenly just kissed me, “. A week passed and Danny tried to explain to Sara what happened, but she didn’t want to talk to him. So she mostly spent time with me, which is part of my plan. I loved being with her. She had already gotten over Danny. The next day she surprised me by asking me out. And of course I accepted. I smiled at her and she smiled at me. My plan was complete, but I still kinda felt bad for what I did to Danny. I mean he was the first friend I had in this city. I had what I wanted, but yet I still felt sad. I decided to tell Sara what happened the next day. The next day I went to the entrance of the school and I saw her. “Hey Sara,” I said with an upside down smile. She said hi and hugged me. I sadly said, “we need to talk”. She asked, “ok what is it?”. I said with tears starting to come out of my eyes, “we cant go out no more because you and Danny were meant to be”. She responded with a kinda mad face, “what do you mean? Danny cheated on me. I don’t like him anymore”. I finally said, “it was me who told Amy to kiss him. It was all my plan, but now I realize that was wrong sorry”. She looked angry at me and screamed, “you did what? You are a jerk. Don’t talk to me anymore”. She slapped me and left. She tried calling, txt, and even went to Danny’s house, but Danny wasn’t there anymore. He left a note in the door for his parents and friends. Sara took the note and read it “Dear parents, friends, and mostly Sara:For my parents I love you. I’m sorry I did this but I couldn’t stand my pain anymore. For my friends: Jason take care of Sara for me. Sara I’m so sorry it wasn’t my fault, Amy just suddenly kissed me. I love you I’ll never forget you.Love, DannySara couldn’t believe that Danny was gone, after what she did to him, leaving him without letting him explain. Her heart just was ripped apart at that moment. Tears of blood dripping from her eyes. She messaged me the next day. “Jason it was all your fault Danny killed himself I’ll never forgive you. There is no point in living anymore bye forever, “ she messaged. I couldn’t believe I did this to my 2 best friends. That was the last message I got from her and the last time I heard from her. I was screwed up. I just couldn’t. I just couldn’t believe it. My heart was not living anymore. I had nightmares the whole week. I couldn’t stand the pain, guilt, and the nightmares anymore. I went home from school that day not alive, I was dead. i locked my room. Ending my life was my only choice left.At least now i cant feel anymore pain.

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