Hey Hlyn, apparently your not as active as you once where, never-the-less I wanted to thank you for the impact you've had on me. I don't know if you where told or have seen my Rping now, but it has improved thanks to you and Robayn. I'm leaving this here to let you know that it is because of you that I am what I am today. Thank and I hope to see you soon. : )
You had far too many fair weather friends in your life. You expressed regret over not noticing sooner. You wondered if a person like that could change. Even I still wonder if these people can be forgiven. Forgiven for leaving when things were at their worst. It's easy to admit a problem, it's easy to apologize for it, but these kinds of people are the ones who need to struggle for forgiveness instead of having it handed to them on a silver platter. They need to bleed, beg, and burn for their troubles, before they are allowed to heal, to feel comfort.
As we discussed before, once shown to be just that, a fair weather friend, they are a friend no more. All that they were, invalidated in an eye blink. Even a friend made just that day is more worthy.
Last night I was going to write and tell you all about how I miss you and how I deserve everything that's happening to me right now because I can never be forgiven, but something else must have happened while I slept because I feel a little different about it. I still miss you, and I still wish there'd been more time so that I could have said everything to you that I wanted to say, but now I know that I will be able to do that one day. Knowing that gives me the strength to live and to do right by you, if not for you.
See you soon <3