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I am a complex individual, I am a growing male human being going through some rough times and still trying to find out who I am for myself. I see myself as a bright intellectual person. Capable of feelings, emotions, and thoughts but still unsure of how to express them. Usually I subliminally submerge them into myself I tend not to have many feelings. Lately the only feelings I know how to express are love, happiness, sadness, and anger. I am capable of accepting and acknowledging others thoughts, feelings, and emotions as well. I see myself as a very social person that has very few friends but they are of high quality. I would rather have few true friends than have many false friends. I am a good listener and I am capable and do so on my own free will help other people with their problem. I go to any length to help them. I find that I am a very caring, responsive, helpful, knowledgeable, understanding person I tend to be very quiet I try to keep to myself and not speak usually unless spoken to. I am pretty shy unless I know the people that I am talking to. I am open to new ideas, and will try most things once. I have my emotions baggage. I have my emotional excesses. I have a tendency to procrastinate. I am indecisive. I also dwell on the negative a lot. I am easily distracted, unless something holds my interest. Concentration is something I never had in abundance. Being easily distracted is probably one of my worst character flaws. If I can be immersed in something, little can distract me. I also easily get bored, so intellectual, and emotional is vital to keep me interested. Some may call that being undisciplined or unfocused, and they may be right. I am one who likes to dwell on something in that I have lost interest. Something that does not provide stimulation does not provide satisfaction. I am never one to make decisions, except on impulse or when a choice is clear. This is usually because of a predisposition to doubt any decision I make. This is not only a result of poor self image, but because of many people telling me my judgment is bad, especially when I discover it is not. There is also a fear I had, be it of failure, rejection, or apathy from others. I do not like entering situations for which I have no recourse should I be rejected or ignored. I can be quick to rush to judgment. I do consider myself a 'learner'. I prefer a more hands-on, practical learning approach. I found myself to be more of a self learner. I have been knocked down more times in my life than I remember. I am not one for confrontation. Presented with a situation with apparently no way to come out successful or unscathed situation, I will escape, either within myself, or out into the world. I am definitely not one for emotional arguments, finding the emotions too painful. I also find that they tend to bring out the worst in me. I was painfully shy at a younger age. As I have grown older, and made acquaintances with more people, I have become less shy. In this respect, I am a dichotomy. I am still rather shy when I don't know you. If you converse with me, I can become comfortable with you very quickly. Once I am comfortable with you, I tend to be rather sociable. Once limits are set, I can be as sociable as you wish. I am hardly shy to people I know. I prefer listening to what others have to say. I do fancy myself a good listener to conversation, whether good or bitchy. I also fancy myself as a 'people watcher' no that does not mean I am a stalker. I can be as comfortable just seeing what the crowd is doing. This can be interesting in clubs, because you can see people making rather willing fools of themselves. When I see someone 'so scene', I appreciate how grounded I am. I am cautious at what I do. I often find myself depressed I find it that I am never really happy just a false sense of happiness. I tend to be miserable a lot and moody as well. I find that I am very tired all the time I find that just getting up in the morning is a challenge. It is not just like I am just normally tired most of the time I am very close to passing out. I will be attending a sleep clinic for this. I find that I do not get confused easily but sometimes when I do I usually overreact to the problem and make problems out of nothing and make small problems big problems big problems. I tend to be a worrier I tend to make not a lot of decisions I let others make them for me probably for this reason. I find I am often displeased with my life and events in it I find that this hinders and impairs my daily decisions. I am a very anxious person. And that I feel that I am very overwhelmed at this moment in my life. I have gone through fifty-two friends committing suicide, had two girls cheat on me, I dated them both at different times, all since September, I have recently broken up with my boy friend, dealing with my parent that they are separated, I have been bullied since grade two, I have attempted suicide numerous times, that stressor was my fault, I was kicked out of my house, there is a lot of animosity between me and my sisters, mom and dad. I am mainly very reliant. I am affectionate, caring, comforting, considerate, and courteous towards others. I am 5 foot 6 inches, I have dirty blonde hair, I have green eyes at the moment but they change from time to time from green, hazel, to blue or any mixture of the lot. I find myself able to be flexible at relationships but not at many other things in my life. I find myself in touch with my feelings and emotions but not able to know how to express them or know how to distinguish which is which. I find I am in touch with both my feminine and masculine side of myself but on the social scale I have more female friends than male. Others think that don't know me I think tend to think of me as being a normal person wearing a smile or just a strait face going to where I have to go. Those who know me I think will tell you that I am kind and a nice young man that has many positive things and characteristics that makes me a better person. Some would say that I am a good loyal and honest friend. I am trust worthy, and will go out of my way to help anyone even if it means inconveniencing myself. I think that they know that I would do anything for them. If they were depressed and really sad and down in the dumps I know that they know that I would do anything to cheer them up, anything, at one time I even threw myself in front of a speeding car just in an attempt to make her happy.....hey it worked...it was my idea I saw it coming and jumped.....I would do it again if needed. But as well I think that they see me as a troubled young boy that has many problems going on in his life but he needs to work through them and find a way to cope with these events that happen everyday, and those that have happened and to prepare for those that could come. And that I am easily bogged down by events that happen in my life and that I am not using correct or enough coping skills in my life. Some would say that I am a bit confused about my personal self and others might say I need to cheer up and smile a lot more. Don't let the negative things in life bring you down and even if you are upset don't bring the whole group down. Just smile and pretend everything is ok and don't bother others with your problems, be in a happy mood around other people and just act normally happy. Sure bad things happen but they happen to everyone. Some more than others some go through harder things than others. But everyone has their limit to what they can handle. Some people with general anxiety would start to freak out if there was a test tomorrow or a pop quiz right at that moment. While others would normally be like "oh no" people with general anxiety would be freaking out beyond belief. Everyone has their own standards and limits to what they can handle (incidents) and to what extent they can handle them(quantity). Like some people can't handle the death of a close friend let alone a friend or more especially a family member. While others are able to cope and work through their lives and mature some for the better others make bad decisions and mature for the worst. But every one has their limit no one is without that. Everyone has feelings no one is without them. Many people say to me that I should think of others before I act upon what I do. Like think about how it will affect others before I do it. This is probably because of how I normally act upon impulses recently, due to a lot of the negative things going on in my life. But that really shouldn't be a reason it is just an excuse. I should think before acting upon anything. I am very good with working with children and the elderly. I have enough patience and stability when I work with young people and children. I find that I can stabilize myself enough no matter what state I am in to work with them. I am very observant an am in tune with my inner child I can relate to them and how they act and can play along while at the same time teach them and keep them under control. If they were to get out of control I have the ability to get them calmed down in a matter that is quick and efficient. My method is different for every occasion. I can be strict when needed but I usually am calm and a lenient person. With the elderly I can relate to them and how they feel, in many situations. I like to listen to their stories, and tales of their past. I am willing to help them with whatever task they need help on. I am very sensitive, I am aware of my own emotions and aware of other people's emotions which makes me very perceptive. I can also lower myself to the level of a child to talk to them on their level so they can understand what I am trying to say or to teach them. And I can talk at a level that is very mature enough to talk to adults in a respectful manner. My vocabulary is extensive so I am able to express myself and what is needed to be said or taught with enough detail to be understood and it makes me sound more professional, and mature. By using big words, the children look at me and think man he is smart and look up to me. And maybe they might ask what that word means then I would be able to tell them then they would be able to have new knowledge in their heads. For the adults and the elderly they would probably think that I am very mature and able to talk at their level so I can understand them and carry on a decent and intellectual conversation with them. I am also very observant, which is a very good trait to have for each type of work or socialization.TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Adam Beyer
Birthday: September 12, 1988
Birthplace: In The Hospital
Current Location: At Home
Eye Color: Hazel, they turn colours tho from blue, brown, green, or any mixture of the lot
Hair Color: Changes as well just like my eyes they change colour usualy on my mood from blonde to dirty blonde, to brown, to dark brown
Height: 5' 6"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
Your Heritage: Um I have a bit of everything in me>.<
The Shoes You Wore Today: Stayed home didn't go out>.<
Your Weakness: Self confidence, Self praise, And Taking things to seriously or literally
Your Fears: Failing, Dying, Seeing or even hearing about a friend commiting suicide or even contemplateing it
Your Perfect Pizza: Bacon, Ham, Peperoni, Itallian Sausage, and Ground Beef
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Graduate High School and Get A Job
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: >.<
Thoughts First Waking Up: Another day same old stuff...
Your Best Physical Feature: People say my eyes
Your Bedtime: lol Chronic Insomnia Anyone?
Your Most Missed Memory: The feeling of being in love before having it snached away from me....
Pepsi or Coke: Alergic to caffene>.<
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Either
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee, or Tea
Do you Smoke: No
Do you Swear: Sometimes
Do you Sing: Lol yes anyone can but am I any good no...
Do you Shower Daily: Yes
Have you Been in Love: Yes
Do you want to go to College: Yes
Do you want to get Married: Hopefully
Do you belive in yourself: Sometimes but rarely
Do you get Motion Sickness: No
Do you think you are Attractive: No
Are you a Health Freak: No
Do you get along with your Parents: Not really...
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes
Do you play an Instrument: No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
In the past month have you Smoked: No
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Only legal doctor perscribed ones not illegal street drugs
In the past month have you gone on a Date: No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No
In the past month have you been on Stage: No
In the past month have you been Dumped: Yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: No
Ever been Drunk: No
Ever been called a Tease: Yes once
Ever been Beaten up: Yes alot...
Ever Shoplifted: No
How do you want to Die: In Someones Arms
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A Child And Youth Worker
What country would you most like to Visit: Do not know...
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Does not matter
Favourite Hair Color: Does not matter
Short or Long Hair: Does not matter
Height: Does not matter
Weight: Does not matter
Best Clothing Style: Does not matter
Number of Drugs I have taken: No illegal ones
Number of CDs I own: Can not count them >.<
Number of Piercings: None but want a few...
Number of Tattoos: None but want at least one...
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to list...
SxTxOxM
I'm a literate male who uses adjectives and stands when I pee. 3nodding
Figure_in_the_mist
Ok. *runs off through some doors. Screams can be heard of a girl and then silence, DEAD silence (hardy har har). Comes running back out with a pint of delicious looking ruby red blood, with a little toothpick umbrella sticking out of the top of the bubbly liquid. Sets it down* FRESH bloody Mary. And I mean fresh...*hides bloody hands...* (LOL) twisted rofl 4laugh
Balflear The Sky Pirate
Thats a start! Now throw in some pie fights, people getting tied up, danceing, one crazy bastred and a pervert then we have fun again blaugh
MissNasisaki
yer avi is a ragin sex faerie
Total Value: 1,523,740 Gold
After Exclusions: 1,522,160 Gold
[Item Information]
Item List:
Demonic Pendant
Bloody Eye Bandage
RoRo Robo-Puppy
Oculus Magica
Elven Ears (Magma)
Crossed Belts
Blood Drop Brooch
Android Damage Prosthetics
Black Goth Boots - M
TM (Time Piece)
Ancient Katana
Ancient Katana
Belted Pants
Black Zoot Suit Carlango
Black Zoot Suit Shirt
Black GPD Protective Vest
Gaian Name: hive_warrior
Name: Dazandra
Age: 1278
Race: Vampire/Werewolf/Dragon Fire Elemental.
Weapons: My body and my pets: My Pet dragons. My fire whips and my nightmare blades. My mind telekinetic and telepathic. Elemental Magic. My slaves I rise or my servants I create by sucking their blood. And any animals or creatures I control.
Abilities/Powers: Can transform into any animal. Highly Talented with my mind as I am a phy vampire and a blood sucking vampire a hybrid of both. Uses elemental magic. Uses summoning magic. Uses necromantic magic. In my main form I can take out or put away my black wings and transform into different higher version of that form but in my main form I can do all that I can do in the other forms just not as well. I use healing magic. Super strength, can jump really high, and can fly. Good hearing. Great eye sight. Can survive in fire or any other hot environment indefinitely. I can transport myself with magic. Can turn myself into mist at will and can float. Can control animals and take over their body much like a parasite. Hypnotic gaze, if someone of lower power than me gazes into my eyes and I use this power I can control him and much like the animal I can control him/her by either just telling them what to do or by becoming a parasite. Can Transform into a werewolf or a werepry.
Appearance:
My Normal Form
My eye colour is blood red they shine when I am angry and can turn completely black at will. I have long wavy hair that the colour matches my eyes. I wear a long trench coat with skeletal hands on the shoulders. I wear a tuxedo underneath. I sometimes have what looks like mist at my feet but it is really the tortured souls I have either corrupted or have under my control. I wear a cross on my neck that is constantly burning my skin but my body is constantly regenerating itself. It is to remind me of my past. My height is 6'0"
And my weight is 195 pounds.
My First Transformed Vampire Form
Bat like wings, horns on my head extremely big muscles long toung, sharp claws and teeth. Long tail.
My Second Transformed Vampire Form
Bat like wings, horns on my head, skin turns red, the skeletal hands on my shoulder become skeletal heads. Sharp claws, teeth, and long wavy black hair, pure black and white eyes. Long black cape. I only turn into this form when I am lose to death or am very angry.
My Transformed Werewolf Form
Large mucles, teeth and claws.
My Werepry appearance is mysterious and does not show itself very often.
Bio: When he was younger he was always teased by the local villagers whether it be the adults or the children he was seen as an out cast he had no parents due to an illness that they both had caught and died from...He had been told anyway... really they slaughtered his parents when they found out that they were not normal and they could not kill the child for they had some heart left... he was alone in this world. He was beat up and left for dead in the village he survived and went off in search for power to live and survive but not only that but to get revenge. He came across some necromancers who he joined and they taught him powers and magic beyond his belief. He went back to his home town and slaughtered everyone and used his powers to control their spirits and he has brought back his mother and father back to life with his magic but what he saw before him was not his parents they were zombies just awaiting his commands no will of their own?.he was disgusted with his work and slaughtered them. He vowed to find a power to make them alive or at least a form of living and back to their original self?s with their own will. He was searching distant lands and was bitten by a vampire and was imbued with new powers and he allied himself with the fellow vampires. He normally keeps to himself and doesn't speak that much but when he does you know there is good reason to he only uses his mind to talk but you know he is angry if he uses his mouth to talk. He then came across some werewolves who used special magic and bit him who gave him the power to be a werewolf as well...he joined their packs and with all of his abilities moved up in the ranks very quickly. Until he became the alpha. On his travels he came across a woman who was superior to him in every way...he did not know what he found attractive in her at all at first maybe it was the competition, maybe it was her power, or maybe it was the children he could have...all that much more power...what ever it was they ended up getting married. And having some children, the mother was very abusive, but she had always said "Hate me, loath me, one day when you are strong enough you will then beat me...and then on that day I will know you are ready..."
Quote: "I will find it!"
Usual Entrance: A cloud of a colored gas starts to emit itself from the ground up and it came together and started to take a solid form in a dark corner of the room. A man about 6' 00" stepped out of it. He has long glossy red hair it covers his face but not enough so that it blinded him and a black leather jacket, thin black glasses over his eyes and black gloves covering his body. Over his coat he had a cape which was just barely touching the floor. Underneath is a dark black tuxedo. He was stained in blood his fangs bearing and then he put them away. He looked up at the rafters as a quite spot to observe the crowd as he had no intention of mingling with them at the moment. He jumped up as he found a quaint spot. And sat there watching the crowd. He looked for an object he had left there earlier. He found it and jumped back down unnoticed. He then made his way slowly towards a dark corner seat and sat down on a chair and started to investigate the object. His name was Dazandra he was an ancient vampire always on the run from his enemies but he always managed to stay one step ahead of them. Dazandra pocketed the item then walked into the crowds to mingle.
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