when i went to tc, i was at work. did you see me hanging around longer than 10min? no.
i went to tc just to say hello to everyone, cause i couldn't do it personally, and you were all there.
i get it that you don't wanna be friends nor close anymore, but no hate, ok? cause what's the use?
we will see each others in cb anyways, so i'd wish us to be at least cool with everything.
it should tell you something that i at least came back to apology and say thank yous.
if i was totally ignorant, i wouldn't had even tried. sad
1. i never said that what i did was right. which is why i said sorry for acting that way.
i never thought that you were stupid, cause i have always had high respect when it comes to you.
2. i don't post in cb for attenttion. i do just like others, to discuss with other people.
sometimes a bit trolling but hey, everyone does that. and how am i addicted? i just left for like a month.
i came back to reply to PMs every now and then. and posted max 20 posts to cb per day. not even on everyday.
oh look i have done 5 threads total on may. back then i did 3 threads per day.
3. i know that running away my problems won't solve anything,
but it gave me enough time, cause i was leaving my job, so i couldn't deal with other stuffs together with it.
cb was my escape. i told to everyone that i'm ignoring my inbox but i'm in cb cause i still need distraction.
PMs were too personal. when you're depressed, you don't really wanna think about the problems in your life.
well whatever, you can hate me sure. i'm sorry and thank you, it was nice to be your friend for a while.
if ever you wanna be friends again, just let me know , -
i said sorry ok.. emo but no then.
back then my life was chaos and you know it well.
i was depressed which is why i left gaia for like a month to clean up my mind.
even back then i told everyone sorries if i didn't reply cause if they were good friends of mine,
i was hoping them to understand.
i couldn't reply to PMs longer than 5 sentences cause i couldn't think, my mind was too corrupted.
now i'm trying to get back to gaia again, and i remembered those who were close to me by messaging them,
which is why i decided to message you today. anyways, thank you for your care back then emotion_hug
i randomly came across your friends profile, you did some comments, i felt sad for you, i hope things are better now,
i would love to skype this week with you, im from new zealand,
sorry for being so random but you seem interesting and if you ever need someone to talk to
it sucks being cheated on, x life does get better, xx