My name's Jillian and I'm Filipino. I love the color pink and green, shopping, ice cream, ice skating, watching movies (especially Korean movies/dramas) and I'm a text-a-holic.
oh believe me i know she's not going to pay me back.. i'm not even wanting to here her bs anymore.. karma is already getting her.. hahah a guy she tried talking to hurt her feelings badly because he doesn't like her.. that what she gets for trying to talk to people that don't want to talk to her.. i'm tryin' my best to find a job ryt now.. i need to help my parents out n stuff.. also i need to sign up for a class for something.. it's important..
I thought about moving away to0 but the person that owe me money isn't paying me back so I won't be able to move away. It's bullshit on top of bullshit. Moving away and starting over is like the best idea so far that all of us though of but it can only be an idea because I don't have the money to move away also my parents need me. I'm stuck. crying
If I can't get pass this then I'll just live with it. And honestly, I'll be o kai with being alone for the rest of my life. Yeah, it's true that I'm not getting any younger but I can't lie to my heart either yanoe? Though we can try.. We need to figure something out to trick my heart! It's the only thing we can do because I know myself wai to0 well. I can't lie about my feelings. My feelings never been fake about anything. I'm to0 levelheaded to have fake feelings.. Just got to figure something out into tricking my heart or finding a way to block my mind from thinking about my past. I was able to do so before when I was younger until my past met up with me when I became a teenager. Maybe we can find a wai to block my mind again? Anyways, do you still uses xanga? I made a new one.
ideekay yet but thanks for having my back sis! love you ^_^ *hugs* i'll update you on everything when i think more about it. i already sent a msg saying that once i'm ok i'll make sure nowun be able to find me. sis, i just want to stop being so pitiful. lost everything that's really important to me n went into depression for so long i need to find a way to stop thinking about everything. oh yeah should i cut my hair to0? ideekay if i can get rid of my style bc i love my style though i can always change my hair easily. thusmore my style have many different levels so it'll look like it changed to pplz that don't know me so that's fine.. lol.. i just want to be o kai for once..
big sissy.. i made my decision.. if it's possible can you help me.. i want to change myself and escape who i am.. maybe i'll be o kai then.. i'll work hard at it.. right now i'm trying to get my health to stay normal.. i'm just really emotionally tired out especially in the last month..
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