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Last Login: 10/09/2014 6:59 am

Registered: 02/28/2006

Gender: Male

Location: Pennsylvania

Birthday: 04/01/1987

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Tired as I am of explaining myself, this is me. Wake yourself up once a week at four in the morning, get fully dressed and go outside and stand at attention for 45 minutes on the sidewalk next to the street. While doing so, picture in your mind a convoy of six hummers going past, five of which have caskets in the back and do this for eight months out of the year. Every time you hear a loud noise, state in your head that you are back in the civilian world and that you do not need to take cover and "return fire." Every time you see a little girl or boy between the age of 5-12, picture half of their face blown off because they saw a field to play in, unknowingly stepping into a mine field. Now with all that in your mind, picture your wife/husband leaving you because "they're no longer happy," and watch them immediately start dating someone who was supposedly "just a friend." Try living your life with not being able to see your daughter/son till the weekend because you have to work 40+ hours a week to keep the bill collectors off your back, while you have to live back with your parents because your credit is now "6 feet under." Live through this waking nightmare, knowing that your worst fear is being alone with the demons that now haunt you.

That's my life, welcome to it. I don't take life for granted, I am glad everyday I can wake up, read the paper and NOT see my obituary in it. I appreciate each smile that I can muster from the people around me, and dedicate every waking moment to get myself out of this hellhole that I am now in. I dedicate every moment of my "off" time on the weekends to making my daughter smile, and spending time with the ONE thing in my life that is now keeping me sane. Welcome, to my corner of the night. I am the "white knight" helping those around him, even though the white wings that once shown proudly on his back have been burned and scorned by the world that hated him for what he does.

For those who are not familiar with what I do, I donate to those who are truly deserving. Once a day I give out a small gift as a token of my gratitude to gaian avatars, as well as a sign of humbleness to those who are just beginning in here...

# of avi's found worthy: 67

total gold donated: 250000

items donated towards avi's: 81

# of friends lost to the callings of eternity: Too many to count-1

# of random people that love my poems and profile: 62

# of people I have helped with personal problems: 20

What I live each day by, the lyrics at any rate

The Way I Feel When I See The Source of My Pain....

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xXAmaranth88Xx Report | 11/20/2014 12:43 am
xXAmaranth88Xx
yes thats true...if there's hope if its only a small one its still worth to carry on... smile
xXAmaranth88Xx Report | 10/08/2014 7:05 am
xXAmaranth88Xx
my life is similar to yours too...there are times when everything is wonderful then always something bad comes...but still I think everything is fine with me...it could always become much worse smile
xXAmaranth88Xx Report | 09/12/2014 11:32 am
xXAmaranth88Xx
yeah it was so many years ago when we talked...I hope everything is fine with you smile
Pixiepunk2008 Report | 08/24/2014 11:06 pm
Pixiepunk2008
You're welcome, thanks for selling (: heart
Infinite Seraph Report | 08/24/2014 4:27 pm
Infinite Seraph
ahaha... maybe i did buy a charm... ive bought too many charms to remember who i bought them from
Infinite Seraph Report | 08/24/2014 12:24 pm
Infinite Seraph
I didn't buy that so I think you got the wrong account~~ yum_puddi
The Angel Of Justice Report | 08/24/2014 9:37 am
The Angel Of Justice
You're welcome
Xizence Report | 08/22/2014 1:01 pm
Xizence
TQ for you emotion_bigheart S
pixelbob Report | 08/22/2014 1:01 pm
pixelbob
np : )
CherryblossomGoodbye Report | 08/22/2014 12:58 pm
CherryblossomGoodbye
not sure if you want background or something on your avi but here's two cool ones: Shrouded Night and Horns of the Black Hole
 

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Dark Greetings fellow Gaian's:

In an effort to be fair on all parts, I offer a tidbit of knowledge. To those that read through my profile and take a look at what I have to offer there, I visit their profiles. Already I have given out gifts that reach into the many zero's but there are still yet people and potential friends out there to yet be reached. If you have a worthy goal in mind than you may become the growing line that I talk to on a day-to-day basis. If not than you will have another comment left on your profile something to show for the short amount of work that you so sought out to accomplish.

 

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