gothic_monsterman

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Last Login: 06/10/2014 6:02 pm

Registered: 02/28/2006

Gender: Male

Location: Pennsylvania

Birthday: 04/01/1987

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Tired as I am of explaining myself, this is me. Wake yourself up once a week at four in the morning, get fully dressed and go outside and stand at attention for 45 minutes on the sidewalk next to the street. While doing so, picture in your mind a convoy of six hummers going past, five of which have caskets in the back and do this for eight months out of the year. Every time you hear a loud noise, state in your head that you are back in the civilian world and that you do not need to take cover and "return fire." Every time you see a little girl or boy between the age of 5-12, picture half of their face blown off because they saw a field to play in, unknowingly stepping into a mine field. Now with all that in your mind, picture your wife/husband leaving you because "they're no longer happy," and watch them immediately start dating someone who was supposedly "just a friend." Try living your life with not being able to see your daughter/son till the weekend because you have to work 40+ hours a week to keep the bill collectors off your back, while you have to live back with your parents because your credit is now "6 feet under." Live through this waking nightmare, knowing that your worst fear is being alone with the demons that now haunt you.

That's my life, welcome to it. I don't take life for granted, I am glad everyday I can wake up, read the paper and NOT see my obituary in it. I appreciate each smile that I can muster from the people around me, and dedicate every waking moment to get myself out of this hellhole that I am now in. I dedicate every moment of my "off" time on the weekends to making my daughter smile, and spending time with the ONE thing in my life that is now keeping me sane. Welcome, to my corner of the night. I am the "white knight" helping those around him, even though the white wings that once shown proudly on his back have been burned and scorned by the world that hated him for what he does.

For those who are not familiar with what I do, I donate to those who are truly deserving. Once a day I give out a small gift as a token of my gratitude to gaian avatars, as well as a sign of humbleness to those who are just beginning in here...

# of avi's found worthy: 67

total gold donated: 250000

items donated towards avi's: 81

# of friends lost to the callings of eternity: Too many to count-1

# of random people that love my poems and profile: 62

# of people I have helped with personal problems: 20

What I live each day by, the lyrics at any rate

The Way I Feel When I See The Source of My Pain....

The Reason why I do, what I do...

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Evil Gods Report | 02/06/2014 2:33 am
Evil Gods
I'm glad to see your doing well, Indeed ones roots are always the best place to restart when the path ahead has been lost.
Evil Gods Report | 01/08/2014 8:02 pm
Evil Gods
Hello my friend its been a while.. this is DemonXking dont know if you remember me, just wanted to drop by an see how things were going.
CherryblossomGoodbye Report | 05/06/2013 6:40 am
CherryblossomGoodbye
Boo.
Aaliyae Report | 03/22/2013 5:18 am
Aaliyae
you're alive~ :3
Aaliyae Report | 01/16/2013 6:26 pm
Aaliyae
:3 hello again
Velventeens Keeper Report | 11/08/2012 9:33 am
Velventeens Keeper
Quite alright luv, I've been all over the place again lately anyway ~chuckles~
I hope all is well with you and that you're taking care of yourself~
A Bloody Lover Report | 10/15/2012 12:33 am
A Bloody Lover
"Lets paint this town in Blood..."


Blessed be my old roleplay friend.
It has been a great deal of time.
How have you been my dear?


"For this is how I see the world!" ~ Ashley Judd
Trip the Darkness Report | 07/27/2012 9:39 pm
Trip the Darkness
*Laughs* Well, a good friend of mine told me how and that I should get new friends. smile Your avi looked bad a**, so I thought I should tell you that, and that was enough for me to friend you. smile Oh, and thank you. Your avi is very dark and well put together, and I also love your profile, new friend. smile PM me some time, and we can talk more. smile
Velventeens Keeper Report | 07/04/2012 6:44 pm
Velventeens Keeper
Just thought I'd pop in and leave some love!!
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Velventeens Keeper Report | 05/04/2012 2:09 pm
Velventeens Keeper
~mad scientist laugh~ Why thank you lolz
How have you been?
Hope to see ya tonight, I have internet for the evening so I'll be making a new toon on WoW :3
~hinty hint hint~
 

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Dark Greetings fellow Gaian's:

In an effort to be fair on all parts, I offer a tidbit of knowledge. To those that read through my profile and take a look at what I have to offer there, I visit their profiles. Already I have given out gifts that reach into the many zero's but there are still yet people and potential friends out there to yet be reached. If you have a worthy goal in mind than you may become the growing line that I talk to on a day-to-day basis. If not than you will have another comment left on your profile something to show for the short amount of work that you so sought out to accomplish.

 

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