Last Login: 05/24/2013 10:14 am
Registered: 03/06/2010
Gender: Male
Birthday: 01/07
My Aunt and Uncle, you really don't want ******** with them, but only because you'd end up having the s**t beaten out of you.
These two are pretty cool, you really don't wanna ******** with either of them, though Joo tends to be weaker, he still can put up a fight.
My sisters
My brothers
<3
Cain and Cata, two friends that I've known for like, ever
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You okay onii chan?
o .o
o w o
Do you really need to get your panties in a twist over something like that? People have worse to deal with, but that is not all I want to talk to you about.
I want to talk to you about the apology you gave me, and my feelings about it.
Have you realized what has happened to me? Have you realized how much i've changed, how I've morphed into a troubled girl who now is diagnosed with MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) and has a bad addiction to pills.
Then again, you've always judged me for what I did in the past.
Think about what I did, Andrew. Think about how I used to play with hearts, how I danced lovers on strings and fled when my crime was found out, only to never take responsibility for it. Have you seen how Karma has gotten back at me? Now, I am alone. Now, I am insane. Now, I am ruined.
Now I have faced the punishment for my crimes. I have developed several sides, all of which argue and try to persuade me with voices to do things I never want to do. I an alone in reality, my only "social life" being the internet when at school I am alone and bullied to the point of swallowing down hand mixes of pills to fall into a dazed state that is better, even though its crappy and I suffer withdrawls (a reason why I didn't go to school today). I have had friends who used me like I used loves and abandoned me. Hell, the only reason I roleplay anymore is because I feel it's the only way I can communicate. I can communicate what's happened to me or my feelings through characters, plots, ideas. It's why I always roleplay, because when I don't that looming truth that I am in actuality alone looms over me, because people on the computer aren't true friends, even if you care deeply about them. There are secrets they will never know about you, and I sure as hell am revealing quite a lot right now.
I want to tell you that I think karma is changing for me. You're probably the 4th person to apologize for whatever crime you have commited in the past. But I wish to let you know something.
You probably know this, but you're not you anymore. You're not the Andrew who fell for me, you're not the Andrew I met and befriended. You're the karma that has harmed and ridiculed me to the point I am at now. Although this can be seen as "morally good" because of what I have done, it's not good.
You are becoming me.
Please, I still care about you Andrew, and I still feel a bit of love for you. What you have become now, taking your wounds and using them in ways they shouldn't be used, will not help you. With this arrogant, mood switching, and destructive attitude, it will bite you in the a**, and even though it doesn't sound like a big deal, it is.
Look at me, I am a broken toy, and I'm probably going to OD one of these days and never speak a word on Gaia again. It's sad, but it's the truth.
If you really want to show me apology, change your a*****e self.
Or I will pull the strings once again and make you.
-Acacia
so not my fault
or problum=-=;