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My name is:Zane
My mama/papa is:Dire Giovonie and toushiros new bodygaurd
i like: momma and dad, sleeping, and being held
i dislike: nothing yet

Poem written by me.....~Degraded

Be strong.
Head up.
Choke it back.
Shiney silver.
Thick handle.
Long and sharp.
Think about it.
Obsess about it.
Must have it.
Want it.
Fear it.
Need it.
Love it.


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Dire Giovonie

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Last Login: 08/09/2013 6:01 pm

Gender: Female

Birthday: 03/27

About meh :D

Well im 16 and live in a town called blah blah blah. Haha my name is Maddi3 but i go by lighthouse on occasion (lloonnnggg story behind that one) and my closest friends call me madds. I look alot like my avi. Yes i am emo. Yes i am bi. Yes i dooo know a s**t load about sex. Into alot of different styles of it too smilies/icon_wink.gif Not really a good quality but hey? its fun. bahahaha!! OH and hell yes i am NOT a virgin. And yes ive been through HELL.
I was raised in chicago for most of my life and then i moved to hick land i have a sister whos 17 and has some learning disabilites. I have a mom who works in drug prevention (oh the irony) and my dads a salesman.
Iv been to institutions juvi you name it iv done it. Ohhhh the memories.

But ill tell ya something.. If you get to know me and actualy make a attempt to look past all that stuff i just wrote ill have your back no matter what. Im loyal and honest and do have a heart even though its been smashed to peices by this twisted thing called life. Yeah im weak but im damn sure good at hiding it. I can be a b***h when im hurt and i hate talking about my past but ill damn sure do everything in my power to keep what happened to me away from anyone else. No one deserves that kind of treatment...

I admit ive made a whhoolleeeee lotta of mistakes but im trien to be 'normal' even tho its WAAYYYY more fun to be insane! Lol, dont forget what happens makes the person you are today and your stuck with it so you might as well just shut up and smile. :3 oh and yes i am a dork, spaz, im bubbly, random, and usualy happy. And dont you forget it :3 hahaha...SPARKLYY!! XD mehehe

OH oh oh oh oh oh!!! I like to rp too im into all kindsa stuff so if u wants to give it a whirl pm mee ;D
i promise i dont bite...hard :1 lol

im into the gorey stuff when it comes to books and movies. Love horor movies, grudge is my all time favorite!! XP umm...weeeellllllllll... Ive got no idea what else i can tell you aboot but if you got any questions what so ever about me feel free to pm me.

Another thing: if you ever need any help in the real world (abusive boy/girlfriends, attempted rape, tramautic events all tht good stuff) i will help if your willing to talk. I know all the odds and ends and i dont judge. As i said earlier i will keep anyone safe from the things that happened to me when i was younger. Im very loving like that.
Fave animals: Pandas, hippos, elephants, kittehs, bunnehs and foxes
Fave sports: Basketball, volleyball and track
Fave colors: Black, yellow, purple, red
Dream job: I wanna run a daycare or teach preschool because im really good with younger kids, and i have the "motherly instenct". Or so ive been told.
Fave candy: Hard rock candy ((and not like that..PERVZ)) and GUMMEHBEARZ!!!
Fave persons in rl: My baby sis riah and my mom
Fave season: Spring. I love all of zeh cute baby animals ^w^
Hobbies: I write poetry, i paint, sketch, im a frequent runner, starting to get into archery, and a few other things but im totaly blankin out right now.
Fave song: Anthem of the angels by breaking benjiman, beautiful bride by flyleaf, zombie by the pretty reckless, and W.A.M.S by fall out boy, royal we by silversun pickups
Fave singer/band: Breaking benjiman, slipknot, bullet for my valentine, the pretty reckless, fall out boy, marylin manson, nicola, the cranberrys, daughtry, lotts and lotts more

Weeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll thats about all i can thinkk of for now. If ANY of you read of all that your awwssommee hahahaha

Love you guys,

Poem written by me.....~Fade

The darkness swarms.Th tears pierce like knifes. Why do i have to feel?! Screaming i shrink to anything. I cower to people I scream for help. Im so alone. Im so scared. They stop. They look. They laugh!! Stop it! The darkness pulls me under. My head of fear and the pictures flash. Help me! Save me! I dont want to remember! These wounds are so deep. Bleeding. Bleeding. I drown in my own tears. Dont leave! Make it stop! Please! Im begging! Make it stop! The memories hurt! The darkness pulls me further. I cant breathe!!! My eyes slam shut and i scream as loud as i can. No one can hear. Nothing. Echo. Cant breathe. Cant think. Cant.....

read it!

Girl: Do you think I'm pretty?
Boy: No.
Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No.
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: No.
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No.
Girl: What would you choose, me or your life?
Boy: My life.
The girl runs off in pain and the boy runs after her, grabs her hand and says: "The reason why you're not pretty, is because you're beautiful. The reason why you never cross my mind, is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you, is because I love you. The reason why I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die. The reason why I won't do anything for you, is because I'd do everything for you. And, the reason why I chose my life, is because you are my life."
Next one:
A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle. Girl:Slow down, i'm scared. Guy:No, this is fun. Girl:No it's not, please, it's so scary. Guy: Then tell me you love me. Girl:I love you, slow down. Guy:Now give me a big hug *She gave him a big hug* Guy:Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself, It's really bothering me. The next day in the newspaper, a motorcycle crashed into a building due to brake failure. Two people were in the crash, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks weren't working, but he didn't want the girl to know. Instead, he had her hug him and tell him she loves him one last time. Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live, even if it meant that he would die. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

|| A Naughty poem ||

I'm sure you can imagine

As plain as you can be
The place is Picadilly
The player He and She

She whispered "Will it hurt me?"

"Of course not" answered he
"It's a very simple process,
You can rely on me."

She said "I'm frightened,

I've not had this before.
My friend has had it five times.
And said it can be sore."

Then finally contented

Laid back and relaxed a bit
Quickly and readily he bent over her
And then he started it

It was growing rather painful

Tears formed in her eyes
It was hurting quite a bit now
It must have been quite a size

"Calm yourself," he whispered

His face was filled with a grin
"Try and open a bit wider
So I can get it in".

"It's coming now,"he whispered.

"I know."she cried in a bliss
Feeling it deep within her now
She said "I am glad I am having this.."

And with final effort

She gave a frightened shout
he gripped it with anguish
and quickly pulled it out
she laid back quit contented
and sighed and gave a smile
im glad i came, it was worth the while
Now if u read this carefully,
The dentist you will find
Its not what you imagined,
its your dirty mind!

~Gotta love em~

People who wanna tap it ;)

Poem written by me......~Chains

Black angelic wings piercenthe shallow grave i sleep in. The hight pitched scream and deep breathing shoot through my ears like blood red tears. The mercyless chains that cut off my, breaking, snapping, things tear me apart. slowly bit by bit they break me from the inside out. But ill never show this tomb. Ill never show my pain. There is only one thing to do. Speak nothing of it. Choke back the pain. Smile and fake it at all costs.

it so true

Rules of love:
kiss on the lip = i love you
kiss on the ear = you are special
kiss on the nose = laughter
kiss on the cheek = friendship
kiss on the forehead = i comfort you
kiss on the neck = i want you
kiss on the shoulder = you are wonderful
kiss anywhere else = be careful
play around with hair = cant live without you
holding hands = happiness
arms around waist = you are mine / i need you
a hug = i care
smiling at each other = i like you
wink = flirting
looking somewhere else = hiding feeling


..When did i realize i was god?
.. Well, i was praying, and i suddenly realized i were talking to myself.
The only thing we have to fear in life is the monster in the mirror.

Poem written by me...~Questions

The light flickers on. It burns so bad. My eyes are so watery with tears already. Its cold. Its scary. Its empty. Something hits me. Hard. I get slammed into the ground. Iace first. Whos there? Something hits me again. And again. And again. So much blood. So much screaming. So much pain. This strange noise bubbled up from my stomach. My mouth oppened and and a verry painful, agonising, blood thirsty sgeam escaped my lips. What was happening?? It stopped. It faded. I at there in the dark. Alone. Bleeding. Waiting for what was to come.
One shot.
Thats all it took.
And i closed my eyes forever.


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Cyanide High Report | 11/24/2011 9:11 am
Cyanide High
awww noes you not retarded, they're a great band them check them out pirate
Seliora Report | 11/23/2011 11:12 am
Hey girl (;
Cyanide High Report | 11/22/2011 8:36 am
Cyanide High
np, its from H.I.M. lyrics
Cyanide High Report | 11/22/2011 8:19 am
Cyanide High
iMarkuschuu Report | 02/03/2011 12:51 am
Hey your back. =]
kurumu_sexy_bat Report | 01/05/2011 5:08 pm
kk lol!!!
kurumu_sexy_bat Report | 12/17/2010 4:00 pm
but promess u not telling toshiro
kurumu_sexy_bat Report | 12/17/2010 3:30 pm
ummm........??....i dont know what shu mean???
kurumu_sexy_bat Report | 11/09/2010 9:36 pm
hhehehehheh toushiro was my secret i could help u..........i could make him get in love with u
Seliora Report | 10/22/2010 2:39 pm
Lmao maybeeee
toushiros new bodyguard

Im Not Heartless I Just Dont Care....

i absolutly adore him <3

Charlie zeh uniccoorrnn!!!! bahahaha