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I am not "brutal", I am not your groupie, and NEVER your b***h.I live my life according to my own beliefs. I dont knock your way of life so don't even bother discrediting mine. I'm what you call a bomb in a birdcage. 17 is my lucky digits. I broke the limit-I destroyed every give a ******** meter I had, I defy all guidelines, I will never be caged nor contained by any standard less than my own. Im ticking and beating on the inside-and my heartbeat does not know anything more than tragedy and you can observe the ruckus and red paint that I bring to your town. I have a smile that lights up the world, and I have an inner demeanor that screams to hold your hand. I laugh like you'll laugh with me, and id kiss all day if I had the chance. I write like my soul is exploding on paper, and I revolve around most things that people have lost sense of, things that some people kill for; like love, truth, and happiness. Sleep has stolen too much from me; I wish my eyes could stay open forever at a young and fast pace; letting the stars beam down at me as I gaze at them with the dreams I will never let go.If they do talk, I will not alter who I am nor will I let this planet tear me down for its own sad, sorry will. I will not be defeated by anyone but my own organ system that is bound to fail sooner or later, and I will never stop reaching, never stop loving, and never stop growing as a person. That cage broke many years ago, that bomb went off and I exploded into my own definition of a person-I am free, I am free.
******** a short and simple "about me". There is nothing short and simple about me. Im complex and I have to admit, I am one of the most COMPLICATED human beings alive; I have yet to come to full consciousness of who I am because I am often wide eyed and yet completely oblivious to the world. I'm fully awake with so much desperate energy, yet I am fast asleep in dreams of a world without collision. Though I do hold onto memories so vividly, it is only because I believe, "never a mistake, always a learning lesson." I no longer live in the review mirror. Through the years I have learned to admire those who have the ability to let go; I'd rather be given reason to forgive, for I have learned it is priority. Words will never come close to decribing me but I can try and give you just a taste. Get to know me... you might be surprised.
Sometimes I think I’m just a mess of badly written stories. One where I’m just scrawled veins beneath paper rough skin and set of tragic love tales where I scream for the movement of love, yet the world is set like stone. I wear poorly sketched scars on my heart and body, and beg for mercy as this terrible world never seems to notice my plea for a happy ending. Well lets just hope I live to tell the tale.
I'd like to be someone's everything-no somebody's something; I'd like to do something that actually doesn't hurt someone else; I'd like to create something new; I'd like to scar my body up with piercings and tattoos and not regret a single one; I'd like to wander through town holding hands, not caring where I'm going; I'd like to give the longest hug in the history of forever; I'd like to kiss until my lips go numb; I'd like to meet somebody, that nobody else knows about; I'd like to have a secret, that you'd kill to find out; I'd like to take pictures until the lens shatter; I'd like to paint the town red;I'd like to see the world; I'd like to leave; I'd like to meet someone and fall in love when we look into each other's eyes; I'd like to speak my thoughts; I'd like to see it for myself; I'd like to see through someone else's eyes; I'd like to live life like i'll die today. I'd like to live life like I'll live forever.
Do not underestimate me-but do not be intimidated by me either.
I'm a master at destroying myself but now im perfecting the art of building myself back. I am both happy and sad at the same time, and i'm trying to figure out how that could be. I lack the ability to stop loving. I've made so many mistakes and learned so much from them that im thinkin of makin a few more ha, I prove i exist even though i have no set road and no specific sense of direction.
Just a warning- I'm difficult to understand and you can watch how good i am at smiling the pain away; you'll never guess i'm screaming on the inside.
Wanna see the epitamy of an emotional wreck? You're looking right at him baby.
I get bored easily. What I want today might not be what I'll want tomorrow, and I’m not easy impressed with people at all. I wanna live a life worth living and i feel im living it day by day honestly. I'm a very sexual person-but does that mean i want your d**k? No not really.
If you aren't intelligent, creative and able to hold a conversation deeper than "hey baby? or hey" you won't get my attention, but please do not be afraid to talk to me... I am one of the sweetest people I know; I don't put down others to make myself feel better, my life doesnt revolve around hate or ignorance; I will love till my my heart no longer beats and I will smile and laugh till I no longer breathe.
I think I've died inside so many times and resurrected from my own ashes that I know enough of what life and people have to offer.
Unless you were there, unless you had seen it, unless you could feel that pain and seen and done what i have; then don't judge me. You don't know, you weren't there, you never have and never will know every little thing I've been through.
To take a step in my shoes and go through what I've been through took a lot. Ive come too far to just give It all away now. Don't bother placing any negative judgement on me, I no longer have eyes and ears for those type of people. I'm a dork, a nerd, a complete a*****e, an over analyst, a believer, a lover and a fighter. im overly sweet, clumsy, and my worst critic out of all people in this world; i have more insecurities than you will ever understand. I can see the beauty in something simple, and I can see the beauty in something tragic and complicated.
Do not mold me of perfection;you will be highly dissapointed.
I'm always changing but my drive and passion will never cease-i am not the same person-i have suffered many trials and errors. I wear my heart on my sleeve and always will. my soul is incapable of tyranny, and my heart often lets me down. I'm me and i'll always be that guy trying to win your heart over every step of the way.
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I do, I really do miss Pokemon 'R' Us, but mostly I miss the people. But I still keep in contact with Kie...er Axel, in case you didn't know his real name.
i was asking him how nintendo will manage to top SMG2 and he said they might make one of those.