I am leaving Gaia
Hello everyone,
I have decided to quit gaia. I simply have far too many bad memories here. I had a lot of very good friends at many points, and they had helped changed my life for the better. But I was an idiot, and also did a lot of very stupid things that I regret so much. I wish I could seek forgiveness somehow, but I know it is too late. If only I had truly let my good friends in on how I was really doing, and what I had been getting myself into, I know I would have been helped right off the bat. When I was doing the wrong things and falling, I should have reached out, but I was too embarrassed. And I shouldn't have felt that way, I had people who cared about me, and I should not have had any reason to feel ashamed, they would have stayed close to me.
Now I have learned this, but it is already too late for me here, even though my bad times were years ago. I am moving forward, and meeting new friends in other places, and trying as hard as I can to be good to them, and the ones that are still with me, and there are even a few I met here that are still with me. Thank God for that. I want to start a family, and be the best I can be, and I pray so hard that people that I hurt will forgive me, and I know many of them will not see this, but please forgive me.
I need to leave this place, and this name, behind.
I know I tried to reach out to a lot of people before I went on this almost two year hiatus, but if I missed you, or you came back after being gone yourself, or maybe you are just someone who remembers me and wants to reach back out to me, you can write me at my old email account. I am also leaving it behind more or less, but I will check it every once in a great while just in case. You can't pm me, because gaia deletes unread pm's if you don't log on in forever, if you've ever taken a long break yourself, you know what I'm talking about. >_< Either way, everyone has an email address, so it shouldn't be too hard..
Okay, I guess this is it. Thank you gaia for the special people I met because of you. And thank you to those special people in particular for everything! And lastly, if you are someone I hurt, I am sorry from the bottom of my heart, I may never forget all my mistakes, and forgiving myself is the hardest part, but I pray you can forgive me somehow.
Please take care everyone, bye~!
Email: deku-chan@hotmail.com
