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Report | 07/01/2015 3:36 pm


Lol, horror movies make me laugh more often than they scare me. Cause they're usually so cliche, cheesy, over-the-top, fake, and have bad acting. My friends usually look at me weird when I burst out laughing or sit there giggling while watching some crazy mother tear up her child on screen. xD They're probably thinking, "How can she laugh over something so terrible? She must hate kids and not have a soul!"

Now I did think that The Shining was a really scary horror movie. =o= And so was Oculus, from what I can recall when I watched it about a year ago. Can't think of any other horror movies that genuinely frightened me though. o3o The Shining is one of my favorite movies up there. *o*

I watched The Human Centipede as well, and that one just had me cracking up the whole time. It was unbelievably cheesy. xD There was one scene in the beginning where two slutty American college girls were driving in a car at midnight in a dense forest to attend a hot party in some other city, before they get lost, their car gets a flat tire, and neither of them knows how to fix a tire (that alone just hit about 10 horror movies cliches right there, lol). And then this sweaty, really overweight man suddenly drives up in his car, rolls down his window, oggles the two girls, and starts speaking in German. The two girls turn on Google Translate, and then they do an exaggerated GASP and go, "Did he just say '********?' OH MY GOD, HE JUST SAID THE WORD '********'!!!!!" xD In a later scene, right before one of the victims is forced to poo into the mouth of the other victim, he says, "Oh s**t! I have to s**t!" xDDD I lol'ed all day at that. That line completely ruined the mood of what should have been a scary scene. xD

Hmm. Those scenes you described aren't scary to me - they're just plain gross. ;/ The grossest movie I ever watched was Drag Me to Hell, which was a horror movie. It had me gagging every few minutes. I've included pictures of gross scenes in the spoiler. (I don't think the pictures are scary, if you're wondering. But they are gross, like puke and snot and stuff).

So here is an old lady puking on the main character:
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Here's the lady inserting her entire arm inside the main character's mouth:
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Here is the old lady feeding worms/maggots to the main character:
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Here is the old lady trying to bite off the main character's chin, even though the old lady's retainers just fell off before this picture was taken:
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This is a corpse that accidentally fell on top of the main character and pukes into the main character's mouth:
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Have you lost your appetite yet? xD That movie has so many more scenes like that. Lol, I remember there was one scene where the old lady took off her retainers and threw them the main character's head as a weapon to try knock the main character unconscious. *gags*

Ya, US sweets are too sweet for me. I probably would like the cakes in Norway better.

I like Twix bars. 8'D They're my favorite chocolates evaaaah.

Report | 06/30/2015 6:05 pm


I feel relief in feeling that most horror movies aren't based off of real things. Otherwise, this would be a scary world. Like that one horror movie, "The Exorcist", from 1973? Never watched it, but read that it's one of the scariest horror movies in the world, and based upon a true story (or so they say).

Ya, I sent my comments to you in PM in case of the small chance that someone is browsing your profile comments and decides to report. ;/

Oh ya, I believe that alcohol for parties is the sole reason why it costs so much money to join a fraternity/sorority.

By "games could be more complicated or mature", does the game "Cards Against Humanity" fall under that category? xD In case you haven't heard of it, its slogan is "a horrible game for horrible people". it's a game where each player gets some cards with different statements on them, while the back sides of the cards have some questions. One person will start the game by reading off a question from the back of a card, and every one else will try to answer the question by choosing a card from their own stack that they believe to be most offensive in the context of the question. One person will be selected as having the "best answer", aka the most offensive answer. Whoever can rack up the most offensive answers after all the cards are used up wins the game! I played this game once, and I still remember all the terrible answers I came up with. xD

Here are question/answer combinations I found online:

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Oh dear, for whoever came up with this one:
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And this is the worst one I came up with:
The question asked, "_____ are taking over the world. The only cure is ____." And my answer was "Black colleges", followed by "AIDS". If I ever said that phrase in normal public, I'm pretty sure I would get beat up.

I actually hate cakes and cupcakes and all donuts (except the plain old chocolate covered ones). They're too sweet, and I keep picturing cavities while I eat them! *embraces for incoming hate from you* Don't worry, I'm used to people going "WHAAAT?! YOU HATE CAKE? DIE! >O>" at me. xD

Report | 06/30/2015 2:49 pm


You know what a secular humanist is then? O: That means that it's just some thing that no one knows about? It definitely sounds a lot better than saying I'm atheist.

I'm sure your history lessons on Catholics is much more accurate than my knowledge from horror movies. xD

Wow, I thought I was the only weird one who felt that way about the same gender. *O* I'm so glad you feel the same!

OK, so while I was trying to type out how I feel towards girls in the above paragraph, I think I figured out why the thought of an intimate relationship with a girl repulses me. xD I'll send it to you in a PM.

I want someone to buy me that shirt for my bday. xD I hate going to parties. I think they're boring too. I don't get why it's fun to get drunk and dance to loud music for hours and hours. =o= The games make them a little better. But I truly wanted to socialize, I would rather invite a group of friends out to have dinner or have a movie night.

Lol I like kids parties more than adult parties as well. I still love playing board games and telling horror stories and playing with Play-Doh and whatnot! xD

Report | 06/29/2015 3:11 pm


I got "secular humanist". I read the long paragraph description of it. Sounds pretty on point. o3o

Atheist are unpopular though, so I don't mention my religious (or lack of) views unless someone directly asks me about it.

Roman Catholics also get a slightly bad rep, though nothing serious. For me, it started with Hollywood horror movies (the Catholic nuns are usually the ones who are possessed in horror movies), so my views about that religion is definitely skewed all the horror movies I have watched. But I do hear complaints in real life about how that religion can feel a little too controlling.

Most doctors whom I have met are also religious and believe in the after-life or what-not. It's comforting to their patients.

Muslim students in my college will sometimes host talks about how Islam supports peace, but then I flip on the news and hear the opposite end of the spectrum, where Islamic State doing something absolutely repulsive again.

I dunno about myself either. o: There's been around 4-5 girls in my lifetime I've found myself attracted to, and I'll have what feels like a crush on them (I'll want to hug them, pet them, give them flowers and cards)......but then I try to imagine what it would be like to have an intimate relationship with them and I just gag. D: I've wondered whether maybe I really actually just want to be friends with them, but the thought of friendship doesn't interest me. ;/ So I dunno. Do you have any idea? >.>

I've done the same. Sometimes I"ll eat so much my stomach hurts terribly for an hour afterwards.

Lol one of my employers told me today that she thought I was an extrovert. xD I was like "No...you have it really wrong."

Check this shirt out:
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Lol. xD

Report | 06/28/2015 10:19 pm


I always thought I was an atheist, but then people would ask me what type of atheist I was, and proceed to list off all the 10-30 different types. And I'd be like..."I didn't know there were types." D: So I took a lot of those online quizzes to figure out if my beliefs had a name, but those quizzes always gave different answers.

I do think that some religions help societies function better though, such as through philanthropy and moral guidelines. Any philanthropy, regardless of motive, is good in my eyes. As long as the religion isn't stirring up criminal behavior and hate, I'm fine with it.

So in other words, radical Islam scares me a lot.

Society's fascination with gays definitely exists. xD

I'm sure there's a lot of definitions of what a crush is. In my mind, a crush is someone you wanna date, whereas being attracted to someone can mean anything from finding someone to be pretty/sexy to interesting/funny/friendly to crushing on them. (I think crushes is one of the many categories of attraction).

Oh wow, your freebie thread is doing great! That's very exciting!

Lol my fish don't let me pet them. They're green puffer fish, so they have really sharp teeth and bite. Their bites hurt too. Their teeth actually sink in to your flesh when they bite, unlike some of those other fish with smaller/rounder teeth.

I love food as well. *o* Sometimes, after I eat till my stomach is full, I find myself wishing that I had more than one stomach so I could continue eating. xD

Wow same here. I have to have some alone time, but I also start to feel really lonely and miserable if I'm left alone for too long (usually 3 days by myself locked in a room). If I didn't have a roommate, I'd probably fall into depression. Loneliness can be a really terrible thing. One of my top fears, next to my fear of ghosts, becoming blind, or being sentenced to lifetime in jail. Hanging out with new people tires me out faster than hanging out with old friends as well.

I'm good at making friends initially (like the first couple times we meet), but really bad at retaining them or developing the friendship deeper. >O< It takes a lot for me to open up to someone, but when I do, they become a friend forever. *u* For example, I feel like I could lose contact of my good friends for a decade, meet up again after a decade of no interaction, and still manage to jump right back into comfortable conversation as though we never stopped talking. xD

Report | 06/28/2015 6:38 pm


That sounds a lot better actually. I do wish people were more private about their religion here. Lol usually when people try to convert me, I lie and tell them I'm Buddhist to make them go away. I'm not religious or Buddhist, but they don't know that! xD

o3o Yes, I think making out in public is rude. But sometimes it's cute! Like it happens at an airport where a couple is reunited after having spent a long time apart from each other.

Lol, I do sometimes get that impression that it's popular to be gay as well. Even though gay people get hated on, they ALSO get a LOT of love as well, just for being gay. It's almost like having veteran status.

I have seen that happen as well, where guys pretend to be gay cause it's funny...I can't make up my mind whether that's offensive or not, but it IS funny to watch and I laugh when it happens. xD

You've never had a crush on a female before? You've never had a crush on Angelina Jolie? How is that possible! *drools all over her poster* If she weren't married to Brad Pitt, I'd propose to her in a heartbeat! *q* On the other hand....if she weren't married to Brad, that would mean I could marry Brad instead. Oh, it's impossible to pick between them. D:

I saw your freebie art thread several hours ago! I think I saw your avi art in your siggy of your current avi. It looks super cute!

All I have for pets are fish. I don't think they can even differentiate me from other people. xD All the do is stare at plants and bite each other's tails. =o=

It is interesting to hear the quiet, muted sound that happens after it snows.

One additional plus to being a guy: You can eat more!!! :'D I have this one male friend...I call him the "dumpster" cause he eats everything I can't finish, and somehow still has room for more food. xD

Being small and cute has lots of uses. ^w^

Wow, lucky for your male cousins. Ya, I don't see myself ever dating an exercise nut. Whoever I do end up marrying, they HAVE to like watching movies with me tho. >:U No negotiation on that.

Ya, my ex-roommate would get really sad whenever she's left alone. I'm like you - I have to have some alone time otherwise I feel exhausted. I don't like to hang out with people for too long at once for that reason.

Most people here know that being blonde has nothing to do with intelligence as well, but the "dumb blonde" phrase seems to used more as a malicious insult, and blondes here usually do get offended when they are called that. On the other hand, the "gingers are evil" stereotype is just plain funny and is dished out all the time between friends. xD I have no clue how that phrase even got started.


Report | 06/27/2015 8:49 pm


Haha, I love reading your comments. They're so insightful, and make me want to immediately respond back with my thoughts.

But I'm going to bed early today and waking up early tomorrow to self-administer a med school admissions practice test. They used to be only 5 hours long, but starting this year they're now 8 hours long. :'( It eats up half a day just trying to simulate it. =o=

So I'll be a little late in responding to your last comment. ;o

Report | 06/27/2015 6:18 pm


Despite that I live in Texas (which is known by the media for being religious and anti-gay), I've never personally met anyone that was anti-gay because of religion. (I dunno why that is. Maybe I'm living in the wrong region of Texas or something). So I can't understand their side of the story or their reasons. 

But I have personally met a good number of nonreligious people here who are anti-gay because they think it's weird. There aren't a lot of openly gay people here, so these anti-gay people have limited opportunities to actually observe and understand gays. They have a completely different image of what gay people look and act like in their minds. I think gay people here know that there is a lot of anti-gay sentiment, so they aren't as likely to come out, which means that there remains few openly gay people here, perpetuating ignorance, and so it's a cycle.

I have met a lot of schoolmates who are hardcore Christian AND hardcore pro-gay marriage here tho. I don't know how that works, but they are the most passionate, outspoken, (and annoying even) people I have met (cause all they wanna talk about in class is I &lt;3 Jesus and I &lt;3 gays, when all I wanna do is just learn some biology cause it's biology class! &gt;:U)

I really like the color combo too.

Aww, I wish I had a cat to lick me as well. I'm definitely getting a cat when I have my own housing. The way they curl and swish their tails is so cute as well. *o*

Dogs are definitely more loyal and loving than cats, but...dogs just annoy me after a while. D: They drool, have bad breath, are too energetic, and are too loud. =o= Wears me out.

Aww that's sweet of your mom. Sometimes my mom buys clothing for me. At times her fashion sense will be on point, but other times they're terribly off and I end up having stuff I dislike in my closet again. &gt;o&lt; I'm a fan of unsaturated colors as well.

I like looking at snow....from within a TV screen. xD

If I were a guy in my next life, the first thing I would do if I were a guy would be to hit the gym. *u* And be sweet to girls. :') And learn how to fix cars, mow the lawn, cook, and use tools. I'd be everything I, as a girl, look for in guys. =u=

I do like to abuse that system of making guys do stuff for me just cause I'm a girl too tho, lol. Kill a bug? They got it. Haul some furniture? They got it. I've gotten so accustomed to guys opening doors for me without me asking...to the point where if a guy doesn't automatically open and hold the doors open for me, I judge him to have ill manners. &gt;.&gt;

Small ones are cute, but more like as a pet. I do feel sorry for small guys. If I were to be reincarnated as a guy in my next life, I'd hope I end up a tall one. I like the big (muscle AND fat), gentle, humble, and loyal ones too! 8'D And he doesn't have a face like Hollywood's. Rather, I'd prefer he look more average, but endearing to me in a special way. That's how I imagine my future husband to be. :oops: Six packs are nice to look at, but it's true I couldn't imagine myself with someone who has a six pack. *picturing cocky, arrogant, vapid guys*

YES, lol. Sometimes, I could just care less if I made any friends cause I'm too lazy to spare the energy for chattin. xD My roommate last year was an extrovert, and she HAD to be with at least 1 other person at all times from 6am to 2am each day.

Do they have that "dumb blonde" stereotype in Norway? Huh this is so interesting for me to hear. Asian countries are fascinated by blonde hair and blue eyes cause it's rare to see, but I wouldn't have expected Norwegians to also be that fascinated by blonde hair and blue eyes since so many Norwegians seem to have them. xD

I love dark brown hair on white people for the same reasons you like ginger hair...so "deep and wonderful". =u= Like chocolate. When I picture the stereotypical American blonde girl from California, I do admit I tend to imagine people like this: http://s3.amazonaws.com/citybuzz/2014/03/s

Report | 06/27/2015 4:34 pm


*shakes you* Gay marriage has just been legalized across the entire US! It's been legalized since yesterday! I can't believe I've been in the dark for a whole day! *stares out the window* Anyone getting married right now on the streets? *looks right and left* Dayum, no one? D: Well, give it time. I've known for years that it would get legalized eventually, and I knew earlier this year that the supreme court would make a decision about it this June, but it completely slipped my mind this month with my temporary job and whatnot, and when I checked the news today it was a shock...it finally happened! *o*

I like your current avi!

Well, I'm actually really slow at writing cursive, which defeats the usefulness. xD It takes me about 5 minutes to write one sentence in cursive, versus 10 seconds in normal writing.

Cats have awesome personalities. ^w^ One of my friends was telling me about his cat: "You have to pet the cat otherwise it'll keep meowing at you. And it'll want you to pet it an exact number of times. Like sometimes, it'll want exactly 5 pats on the head.....not 4 pats and not 6 pats, otherwise it'll bite." xD

I agree, jackets are a problem. I was lucky enough to find this amazing, sturdy, forest green jacket that I've purchased worn for the past 2 years now. It goes with almost all of my clothing. *u*

My ex-violin teacher grew up in Russia before coming to Texas. Said he never wanted to see snow again in his life. xD

Guys are so pampered sometimes. ;o

Same here! I have a broad spectrum of likes when it comes to guys, but I sometimes find myself liking guys that are a little chubby as well. *u* I sometimes like when they are big and robust with both muscle and fat. Like a bear. =u= But without the big beer bellies. I like six packs as well tho. As long as the guy isn't smaller or shorter than me, it's all good.

Lol laziness usually does win out over everything else. I can't understand people who are so energetic and active all the time (ex: extreme extroverts!)

Wow, I had no idea that having straight hair and being blonde was so valued. But yes, it's a huge stereotype that all Scandinavians are tall, blonde, and blue eyed. (It's probably statistically true that they have the highest percentages and averages of tall, blonde, and blue eyes in the world). I can understand wanting to look/feel different from the rest of the world, majority of who have black hair and brown eyes. I've looked around in my classroom once or twice before, and I think I recall counting about 2-3 blondes for every class of about 15-30 students. In fact, *thinks*, I don't recall having any blonde friends........that can't be right.....surely I do....*thinks harder*.....AHA! My best friend in elementary school was blonde. But otherwise, it looks like all of my middle school, high school and college friends are brunettes, gingers, or have black hair. ;/ *worried* How can I not have any blonde friends? What if I am subconsciously avoiding blondes? D: Or they are subconsciously avoiding me? o: Well, I do find brunettes to be attractive, so maybe I AM subconsciously avoiding blondes. o;

Report | 06/27/2015 11:48 am


I hated learning cursive as well. Less and less schools are teaching it now though, which is good.

Oooh I love cats too! I don't own any, but I've liked them for years. I like their tininess, softness, flexibility, meows, cleanliness, and personality. *u*

My grandma also makes a lot of clothes for me. I always tell her they look beautiful, but I secretly think they all look terrible. The clothes are just piling up in my closet. But I can't throw out any of the clothes she made me, otherwise she'll be heartbroken.

A lot of flats can be really tight indeed. A lot of the edges will cut into your skin and create blisters. I've worn my Oxford flats almost every day for over a year now though, so they're getting worn out. Gotta get new ones.

I can't stand the cold. xD Don't think I'll ever live up north. Can't believe it's cold even in the summer. D:

I personally don't think leg hair on women is repulsive either, but I have to conform to society's opinion and shave. ;o; I've had conversations with my guy friends about this, and they strongly believe that body hair on women is disgusting. ;/

I've heard about people with dark hair dying their leg hairs blonde so it wouldn't stick out, but I've always felt that the color mismatch would be really weird to look at. xD

Aww your sister sounds sweet. I generally deeply admire girls who look attractive and even more so if their personality and voice is attractive. But then there are the girls who look attractive but have nasty personalities...

I'm really shy and awkward as well. There was this one guy I found really attractive the first time met him. He didn't fit the textbook definition of good-looking, but I liked his looks. (He had dark brown hair, brown eyes, nerdy glasses, shorter than average height, not athletic, and wore shabby jeans and a worn T-shirt every day.) I didn't think much about him though, because he's a quiet person, until one day I observed him tutoring a young, crippled, shy girl with a severe speech impairment. He was so gentle and sweet and yet respectful with her that I was like instantly like redface .

Haha, I know what you mean by fake and too much make-up. Like this: https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/b7/92/e5/b792e512e3e6c775f0f4262f5739fc68.jpg
And this: http://cdn.emgn.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Too-much-makeup-17.png
Okay I know those were extreme examples, but I remember seeing a lot of girls trying to imitate those looks back during my high school days. It was ridiculous. xD

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