Lets cut right through the crap. Want to know me? Here.
My name is Elicia. I'm sixteen. I have a beautiful baby girl named Emaline, NO, her father isn't around. I like GIRLS, and well as BOYS. I'm 5'5". I have more flaws than anything else. But I don't aim to be perfect. I am stubborn. I get jealous real easy. I am in denial. I feel for others who don't feel a thing for me. I fall easily. I pick the wrong guys. I pick the wrong friends. I make bad decisions. I forgive way too easily. I can't trust. I have a wall built up. I always want what I can't have. I expect alot. Sometimes I am way too honest. Sometimes I don't think before I talk or act. I always find something to worry about. I wish my heart was closed off, but its impossible to shut it off. When I see love, I get sick to my stomach, yet, I wish I had it. I never can just want one thing. I am way too optimistic. I turn to bad stuff when I'm depressed & stressed. I believe in lies, because I like to try to see the good in everyone. I'm too mature for my age. I'm scared of alot, yet, I feel fearless most of the time. I can never be happy with what I have, I always find something else to go after. I am full of ambition & adrenaline. My dreams grow bigger everyday. I play volleyball, soccer, and dance, I'm a good friend, & making a difference in the world is my main goal. I choose to live by choice, not chance. to make changes not excuses. to be motivated not manipulated. to be useful not used. to excel not compete. i choose self esteem, not self pity. i choose to listen to my inner voice not the random opinions of others. I am confident & scared. terrified & excited. I am loving & caring. Thoughtful & hopeful. I am sick & tired. I am shy & friendly. careless & careful. I am broken & whole. I am misunderstood, misguided, and misled. I am hardworking and determined, but a little shaky on the inside. I wish on stars & dream my dreams. I cry my tears. I smile on the outside, while I am dying on the inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. I walk on eggshells & I walk on fire. I believe in passion & true love. I love you & I push you away. I want you but not so close. I am everythingthing all at once. & Sometimes, you just have to digg a little deeper to really see how I am feeling. All in all, I love this crazy, wacky, rollercoaster ride called my life.