I acknowledged my cowardly past
but still don't understand why
I hide my fear behind a hopeful self-image
I've drawn so many skies
my heart must be fleeting out of control
in my dreams I'm flying away from all my fears
these sleeping feelings blossom from inside me and grow
I realize, despite my weakness, as long as you're with me
I can remain strong in this dark world
my heart will dream forever
I want to always be with you
I'll give you everything I have

the tolling of faraway bells
sounded a little lonely to me
so I tried again, even harder
this time flying as high as I could
neither this reality that just keeps repeating itself
nor all my wishes as numerous as the stars
now that I know the future I should strive for
none of them can overcome these feelings I have
an endless world opens up before my eyes
even if it's only a dream
even if I'm still lost, deep in my heart, it's strong
forever and ever it echos
softly, so softly, it shines

call me Twilight, or Twi for short. if you want to know any of my other names, ask me, or make one up.

I am a non-religious Spiritualist. my view of God is smiler to the Iroquois beliefs coupled with Hinduism and Taoism. God is like the equation Zero Divided by Zero Equals the Solution Set Zero, One, and Undefined. God is also like White Light. in Physics, we know that White Light is made of a Spectrum of seven colours (Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo, and Violet). we cannot see these colours until we refract the Light through a prism. similarly, Reality is a Spectrum of God, which we only perceive because we refract the Undefinable God through our Minds. you can't perceive God because to attribute any quality to Him is to only deny him another. God is Everything and Nothing, and all things and nothing are God.

politically, I am Syndicalist, leaning Anarcho-Syndicalist. you could call me a Left-Libertarian. I believe that Confederations and Communes and Tribes are more effective structures of civilization, and Direct Democracy and Worker-Managed Industry make the best government models. personally, I want to live a simple rural agricultural lifestyle with home-grown foods and home-raised livestock.

socially, I am a Tribalist. my friends and family come first, and within that I hold Loyalty in utmost importance. seniority rules can take precedence over a new person very easily. I've never really understood how race or marriage or heritage can be so binding to people. to me, Family is defined by Loyalty and Love and kinship. my Clan is whoever the hell is on my side.

Ethically, I am an Emotivist. I am amoral, but I believe that Enlightened Egoism is the most practical ethical behavior. Benevolence should be one's default behavior, because Humans need eachother to survive. but all that benevolence should be an investment. if it isn't being reciprocated, cease to be generous to the mooch. altruism is ultimately more damaging in the long run, to individuals and communities. the most important thing is to be True to Yourself. in D&D terms, I am most likely Chaotic Neutral with Evil tendencies.

if you wanna know more, talk to me. I love answering questions.

Coco name: Sonja
Goti name: Skottie
Crow name: Norn
Mouse name: Isa
Wolf-Pup Name: Garrow
Ace name: Pepper

My Gaia Sign is Halos for those of you who are wondering, though my first account was sign Arca.

Those born under the Halos constellation are what you might call a goodie-two-shoes. They do their best at everything they do, always wear a smile and negativity never gets them down. They usually obey the rules, which is admirable, but sometimes when the rules ought to be bent or broken, they reveal themselves to be a stick in the mud. They can be incredibly friendly, generous, forgiving, helpful, likable and all-round saint-like, but they can also come across as smug, self satisfied and holier than thou, which won't win them many favours.

Those gaiaborn under the sign of the trunk, the Arca constellation, are capable of staying cool under most pressures, or at least maintaining that illusion. As a friend, they can be incredibly supportive, but as a result of keeping up such a tough, reliable exterior for everyone else, they can often feel empty inside and in need of someone to return the favour. Often loyal and trustworthy, they rarely divulge secrets they've been given, and can keep them locked away inside for as long as necessary. Sadly, they can often be exploited because of their loyalties, which can lead to them feeling worthless, but when freed from the vibes they hop around like there's no tomorrow!

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Japanese Lyrics

Setsunasa no kagiri made dakishimetemo
ii basho made
Itsumademo hitotsu ni wa narenakute
Yasashisa yori fukai basho de
Fureau no wa itami dake
Futari wo musunde kudasai
Bokura wa mou yume wo minai
Tomadoi nagara te wo totte
Zankoki na yoake no hou e arukidasu.
Hontou no kotoba wa kitto hontou no sekai no dokoka
Bokura no mukuchi na yoru ni hisonderu
Ima mo kitto.

English Translation

Even if we embrace until it begins to hurt
until we find where we belong.
we two won't be able to become one.
Even in a place deeper than kindness
touching each other is merely pain.
Please bind us together.
We won't dream anymore
We'll just hold hands hesitantly
and start walking toward a cruel dawn.
True words must be somewhere in the real world
hiding in our nights of silence.
Surely, even now.


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Report | 07/23/2014 6:22 pm


I understand that fact, and I agree. And yet, I choose my battles carefully. A rock that has been battered by thrashing waters for an eternity, may never find any relief. Truth be told, there were many aggressively written replies already, shaming, patronizing, demonizing her. I know full well how it feels, after something so regrettable has taken a-hold of your spirit. She confided pleadingly to the internet, while I had the chance to turn to my older sister to ask for some relief. This is why I tried relieving some of that pressure from her, the weight of guilt, of questioning who you really are. Sadly, I highly doubt she read much farther than the first page of comments before she drifted away. There will come a time when all of us have to deal with the pains we cause ourselves. It is to coming to terms with them, and finding the people to be there for you, that is the real struggle.

Report | 07/23/2014 6:04 pm


If you would like to know why I tipped you, it is because you worded it brilliantly, and I am a feminist. I believe in equality between both sexes, especially in forms of sexual reproductive freedom and consent. However, I do also understand that people may make mistakes, and some of those mistakes are not worth killing yourself over, or ruining your friendship with someone. Afterall, our first fault is being human, and that is not the fault of our own.
Alana Starcrystal

Report | 07/23/2014 1:06 pm

Alana Starcrystal

emotion_hug Just thought you could use one of those. heart
Gay African Mammoth

Report | 07/22/2014 2:30 pm

Gay African Mammoth

Like Jaws :>
Gay African Mammoth

Report | 07/22/2014 12:03 pm

Gay African Mammoth

I see you in LD a lot, and you are one of my favorite posters to lurk about and read. Very logical and to the point.

Report | 07/20/2014 2:37 pm


Excuse my poor English (i sound a lot smarter in Dutch lol), but what kind of logic is Formal Logic?

Report | 07/20/2014 7:28 am


Hmmm interesting. As for my carreer.. I have to make sense of endless amounts of different data and then come up with a brilliant solution, considering everything. i now realize that reflects in my posts. I try to gain as much points of view possible before I make up my mind.
What do you do for a living and how do you think it's affecting your way of posting?

Report | 07/20/2014 4:50 am


You're not being rude, don't worry about that. There's just one little thing I like to adress.. No offence really! But your 'normal', truth and logic is still your perspective on things. Just as mine is mine. That's why you'll never see me write down: "This is the truth" or "This is just plain logic". In my opinion it's better to provoke a little bit and see what you can learn from the response. Does that make sense? emotion_c8

Report | 07/20/2014 2:21 am


In the documentairy that I have seen they explained that those snakes were brought to Florida from elsewhere and that they were unbalancing the ecosystem in Florida. Ofcourse I don't live there and other then the documentary I have nothing else to go on.

I like the way you post by the way in the forums. I don't mind you disagreeing with me all the time lol! I hope you feel the same way wink

And it's funny how close you are related to a small country like ours. Who would have guessed???

Report | 07/20/2014 2:09 am


Are you not afraid the snakes bite you? eek

I live in the Netherlands. We don't have wildlife here. even the spiders are puny. Which is good, because I'm scared of spiders too! ninja The Netherlands is a really small country. I think it fits in Florida multiple times! Ever heard of it?


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