These are the thoughts that go through my head
In my backyard on a Sunday afternoon
When I have the house to myself and i'm not
Expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend

Is he the one that I will marry?
Why is it so hard to be objective about myself?
Why do I feel cellularly alone?
Am I supposed to live in this crazy city?
Can blindly continued fear induced regurgitated life-denying
Tradition be overcome?

Where does the money go that I send to those in need?
If we have so much why do some people have nothing still?
Why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning?
Why do you say you are spiritual
Yet you treat people like s**t?

How can you say you're close to god
And yet you talk behind my back as though I am not
A part of you? why do I say I'm fine when it's
Obvious I'm not? why's it so hard to tell you what I want?
Why can't you just read my mind?

Why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen?
Why do I care whether you like me or not?
Why is it so hard for me to be angry?
Why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck
And not the other way around?

Will I ever move back to canada?
Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student and a master?
Why am I encouraged to shut my mouth when it gets too close to home?
Why cannot I live in the moment?


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Report | 08/21/2011 2:54 am


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Report | 08/16/2011 8:37 am


I am doing fine, it has been a while.
Miss talking to you.

Report | 06/23/2011 12:30 pm


Looking good.

Report | 06/17/2011 2:28 pm


Thanks for purchasing from my store~ c:

Report | 11/21/2010 11:20 am


o: Your as old as I am!! I mean, gaia-time wise!! I don't have very many old friends anymore as they left years ago, may I add you? It's nice to have someone know what I'm talking about when I say gogaia.com XD
Heartless Symphony

Report | 10/16/2010 4:23 pm

Heartless Symphony

-bows- Thank you for shopping at Hatter's. I hope you enjoy your new item "Lumiere Noire".

Report | 08/18/2010 1:23 pm


I float around XD Mostly in UTOPIA, but you can find me in my minishop too. ^^

How've you been? I've been busy-- working during the summer, and classes starting again soon.


Report | 08/17/2010 7:42 am


ninja heart

I read your status xD (and also I miss you! T.T)


Report | 07/28/2010 2:20 pm


ty 4 buyin

Report | 07/25/2010 1:32 pm


thanks for buying!! heart


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