Hello there, i am BrgLeonheart also known as BrgLam or Jon. I'm 19, for now. Gaia used to be a place i enjoyed thoroughly, hanging around with friends and such i used to have so much fun, i started off almost exclusively on zomg, joining in 2008, though i do not remember how i managed to get onto here, i soon started getting bored on zomg from farming especially when there were no new real updates and the gold cap starting to be introduced, so i moved to fishing, where i found myself wanting to compete and obtain the angelic rod and later the +, along the way i found many more friends who i enjoyed my time with and as a result i started going on more and more, competing through their presence helped greatly, and i was able to do well, i managed to obtain multiple bronzes, and this was not broken until December 2012, where i managed to obtain my first non-bronze trophy, which was the Gold Junk Tire, with an interesting 100k score, that i matched in bass'ken as well. During these events i managed to go into towns where i found a few people, not as much as in zomg and fishing, but friendly nonetheless, throughout this whole period i developed many crushes on people i got close to and dedicated my time accordingly to each of them separately, making sure i never went for more then one at a time. Each of these instances were very warming and i was glad that i had done so, but some of them i never had the chance to tell them that i liked them, and was afraid of losing them, so i decided not to say. Eventually i managed to lose them one way or another from being too obsessive or idiotic things and not being able to control myself. Each time i fell into a deep darkness i kept hidden mostly, although i did lash out once, i kept myself to myself with my emotions, so i wouldn't do so again. Many of these have left me, though i am saddened by it i know i cannot keep them, and i have but wished them the best i can, many of them will not see this as they have forgotten or chosen to leave. But one of them was especially dear, she was almost constantly shining and happy, even when she wasn't i tried to help her and she would thank me for the help and it gave me a warm feeling, i never had the heart to tell her, because i did not feel myself worthy, later on i made a mistake and lost her, it was one of the deepest blows i had and i tried to gain her back into my life, but she could not except me, so i tried hard to avoid her for her sake, wishing not to be an occasional black whole in her happiness, and tied off many things that i had to do with her to do so, i slipped into a dark void for months, and the thought still haunts me. This set off many others to leave me, one by one slowly i lost them until i was left into a darker void then i would've thought possible, i am stuck in this void though i occupy myself with other people, and help them to get but a spark of that happiness back, and to hide my true emotions from people, for making them better would help me gain piece by piece of what i lost. More recently i have gone off gaia onto other things, seeing as what kept me on here have mostly left or forgotten about me, it does not feel right to be on as much, so i hung up my fishing rod, my town searching and much of gaia, but i stayed in contact with some via skype or facebook. This is the truth and it is all i will tell for now, before leaving one last thing up of who i adored and crushed any existing ones shall not be mentioned for obvious reasons , so that i will not forget them. They will be on the right side and in no particular order.
A side note just because you're not on this "list" does not mean i don't care about you or treasure your friendship, you are just as important to me as to why i help you.
Updated 06/06-2013 17:31 GMT