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"A negative mind will
never give you a positive life."

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About Me

Alias: Semira Evonette
Age: 24
Residence: New York
Height: 5'2"
Gender: Female
Martial Status: Single


In the end, people will judge you anyway.
Don't live your life impressing others. Live your life impressing yourself.


Interests:
Adventure. Nature. Animals. Animal rescue. Animal rights. Anime. Manga. Cosplay. Anime conventions. Music. Pain. BDSM. Dominance. Horror and gore. Desserts. Knives. Video games. Plushies. Storms. Confidence. Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Kandi. Sports. Dancing. Photography. [WWE] The Shield. Ambrollins. Tumblr. Astrology. Visual Kei. Japanese culture. Fashion. Cosmetology. Candles. Fireworks. Cooking. Burlesque, Dita Von Teese. Harley Davidson. Pagan. Witchcraft, and Wiccan. Paranormal. Abandoned and haunted places. Halloween. Psychology. Serial killers. Pinups. Professional wrestling. Health and fitness. Quotes. Positivity. Hippies. Role-play. Yaoi. Yuri. Art. Human rights. Cameos. Culture. Ainu. Hokkaido. Jewelry. Decorations. Cute things. Antiques. Cuddling.


Things I Dislike:
Hunters. Bitches. Immaturity. Abuse. Cigarettes. Drugs. Cheaters. Control freaks. Sexists. Pressure. Trolls. Preconception. Liars. Obnoxiousness. Impatience. Furries. Loneliness. Illiteracy. People who can not handle someone else's opinion. People who complain that I don't reply fast enough, or people who want to talk every single day. Insecurities. People who are way too sensitive.


Extras:
☑ I have been a member of Gaia since 11/17/2005.
☑ I am an artist. I like to be creative. I write my own poetry, too.
☑ Horo Horo from Shaman King is my favorite anime character.
☑ I have a Dean Ambrose obsession.
☑ I am passionate about nature and animals. It's my dream to save them and help those in need. I believe everyone is equal, and they deserve to live just as much as humans do. Nature is my safe place to fall when times get rough.
☑ I have lived with depression all my life. However, I try my best to stay positive. Being around people all the time can be exhausting, so I do disappear for a few days to get my head on straight. Therefore, if you plan on being friends with me, respect my space or get out.
☑ I may write down how I feel inside, but I have no interest in having a conversation about that depression. I write it down so I don't have to keep talking about it. I just need to get it off my chest and move on.
☑ I am a Switch. (70% submissive. 30% dominant) with a Sadomasochist side.
☑ I like women, and very few guys. I have no interest in dating men. [Unless it's Dean. He's special.]
☑ I am opinionated and blunt. I speak my mind and I am honest about it! It can be misconstrued because I don't always take the time to explain myself. Nevertheless, I do not go around and troll people. What you see is what you get. I do not enjoy debates. Though, I do enjoy intelligent conversations!

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Genyusai

Report | 07/23/2015 1:07 am

Genyusai

Is your soul Bohemian too?
Xarx-E-Ixim

Report | 07/19/2015 9:52 pm

Xarx-E-Ixim

The name sounds cute. ^u^
Sorry for the late reply; I've been gone from Gaia for a lil while now.
I also see that you have Facebook once again o:
Mindistortion

Report | 07/13/2015 4:54 pm

Mindistortion

People in general, but serial killers or mentally insane or depressed intrigue me. I like to hear different perspectives. I also just like to know what is going on that makes people behave the way they do. Especially in social environments they are unfamiliar with.
xXx ENOS xXx

Report | 07/03/2015 6:47 am

xXx ENOS xXx

You are beautiful

Deathbed Confessions

Report | 06/25/2015 9:27 pm

Deathbed Confessions

you're really deep too. it's refreshing, talking to someone who doesn't make talking a strain. i'm tired of recycled conversations.
i can only imagine. if i didn't hear back after a week, i'd want to think that they're just ignoring me and need space or maybe they want to drag out feeling like i'm worried about them, but after a certain amount of time i guess that dread would set in. it was really thoughtful of the sister to reach out to you. it would be terribly draining to have to keep wondering every hour of the day, wishing you could bring them treats and hold their hand beside the bed. sometimes the power of physical touch feels necessary.. speaking in ways that words can't. feeling someone close to you is so comforting.
the night before my grandma passed away, i had this odd urge to tell her i love you an extra time and give her an extra big hug and i remember soaking in the sight of her.. i think i know that feeling you mentioned. but when it's someone you love in a romantic way, it's almost like you become attached in a different way. like you connect on a telepathic level or something. have you ever felt compelled to reach out and see how someone is (especially a boyfriend/girlfriend), only to find out that they were in a bad place or just got in an argument or lost a family member? it makes me think that there's a level of connection and communication that we don't really know about.
i hope that it's easier to let go of things BECAUSE you are strong, and not because you think that nothing else will compare. my opinion is that once you love someone, you never really stop loving them, you just find someone that you love more. i feel like this experience made you mature at a pretty young age. you seem like an old soul. it's admirable. i truly believe you'll find happiness with that personality of yours (: even just replying to your comment, i got lost in the moment.. i bet you have that effect on many people.
I love advice! Sometimes someone else's take on things is like a love tap, a gentle slap to the face that is much needed. I wish that I could think of an example of when her advice felt misplaced, but it's been around six years since that really bothered me. I think we both made an effort to communicate better and try to understand each other's way of speaking and thinking more, and it payed off! Now it's more that sometimes our viewpoints disagree, and who doesn't want to make their mother proud? But after a certain age you really start to be a little more selfish (while staying compassionate), and in turn, a little more happy.
This is the first time in my life where I'm unsure whether or not anyone knows the real me. It hasn't gone on long enough for me to feel lonely because of it, but it can get tedious when I feel desperate to project myself accurately (if that makes sense). I feel lucky to have had such great relationships in my life so that I know how good it can be. I'm not worried about not finding someone who sees my soul for what it is. I know the day will come again (: And it will for you too, I think that's something that I can promise. Someone will love the real you, whether it's the first time or the tenth time it's happened.
Honestly kind of scared of the shark thing haha. There have been a lot of local horror stories lately. May just stick to getting my toes wet :3 *huggles your arm back and rests my head on your shoulder*
haha, that made me grin. be expecting some yoga advice questions next week (i'll need some help lol).
Deathbed Confessions

Report | 06/24/2015 11:13 pm

Deathbed Confessions

wow, that gave me chills. i agree with whoever said that, though. whether someone dies from suicide or unintentionally, i can't imagine them not wanting someone they love to keep living, and make all the memories that they couldn't. i'm sorry that you had to experience that. i bet it made everything a lot more confusing and you're probably an incredibly strong person because of it, whether you feel that way or not.

i often feel like i'm not listened to, and in person i'm interrupted and talked over a lot, so i can really empathize with that. i know what you mean, how you said we never really understand each other. i dated someone for two years before their parent's divorce caused them to move overseas, and part of what kept things fresh was that we were constantly trying to know each other as well as we possibly could.. which is impossible, because if you're always helping each other grow, you constantly have new things to learn about each other. it can be a great thing, not reaching the maximum potential of understanding, because nothing will ever get stale.

my own mom hasn't been a great person for me to turn to for support, either. it used to be insignificant little irritating things like her wanting to give advice when i just wanted someone to listen.. but now that i'm almost 22 that just seems petty. now it's more that if i open up to her, her opinion of me is tainted and she manipulates my words to use against me, which can be an unhelpful ********. i've heard a lot of things like "get over it" and "you're thinking too hard" because she gets frustrated.. frustrated, i assume, that her "help" didn't have the immediate results that she wanted and it makes her feel useless, or like i'm wasting time by "mulling over things". to be honest, i haven't felt depressed or anxious in a really long time, partially because i learned that maybe she just never made it that far along in her mental growth process.. maybe it's possible for us to surpass our parents in that regard and maybe we can help them see with more clarity.

i'm going to the beach with my family next week, and i'm really looking forward to trying yoga while i watch the sun rise. i honestly wouldn't have thought of it if it weren't for reading your post. maybe i can find a place that offers free classes, too (:

*gets a big blanket and throws it over both of our shoulders*
Kuroko Kusanagi V1

Report | 06/23/2015 7:35 am

Kuroko Kusanagi V1

Wise words of a wise man :3

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Dt6iTwVIiMM
Deathbed Confessions

Report | 06/23/2015 12:38 am

Deathbed Confessions

Yeah, if anyone isn't struggling with it at all, they probably are really ignorant. I've said this before to people, but I think it's important to be your own role model (and therapist). Some days you'll be the only one cheering yourself on, and you're the only one who really knows you. People jump to conclusions and "say the wrong things", but the truth is, no one will ever give you the perfect words, they can only try. I think that's why people shrug things off. It's up to you to interpret words in a way that's true to you, and understand that people aren't trying to insult you, they just see that you have the ability to be happier ^^ (sorry this is all a rambling mess, i'm a little sleep-deprived)
I took some of yours too (: definitely been wanting to try yoga, but i'm super uncoordinated
*looks into your eyes and blushes*
Deathbed Confessions

Report | 06/23/2015 12:25 am

Deathbed Confessions

very much so~ i feel like i got some insight into your soul after reading your post in that forum. it seems that we have similar perspectives and interests 3nodding *hides face in a pillow*
Deathbed Confessions

Report | 06/23/2015 12:02 am

Deathbed Confessions

emotion_kirakira *makes a blanket fort and prepares snacks* so down (:

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