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Report | 12/27/2010 8:33 pm

launchpadmcquack13136

ive lethatred cnsume me
ive let rage consume
it got worse when you left.
your the only human being one id stop for.
the only human being id put before the feeling of fighting
the one that was there when i wanted to pummel arnold.
launchpadmcquack13136

Report | 12/02/2010 2:46 pm

launchpadmcquack13136

look. the only time my hands stop shaking is when i think of you now. this disease is about to swallow my life up. im not speaking figuratively. i realized a couple of months ago that i dont remmber much before 2009. january 15 is when you really came into my life of that year. and.. there has gotta be a connection there! when i started talking to you alot, my life was like... SHAZAM!!! i think i love her. when you left my life it was like sh... shazam.... shes gone. i can live off of gods love, but it would be nice if you were there. i miss you so much. i mean really? we texted all through the night, and all through the day, and at one point i got to spend time with you 5 days a week. i still care about you... i miss you alot. i dont wanna break my promise! i promised you that id find you when i was an adult, and i will. i care so much about you. even though i havent seen your face in 11 months i cant get you outa my head! even though god is changing me so much... but, your not here to see it. your not here for anything. i promised you we would atleast be friends for ever. and i cant get the sound of you whispering to me... I love you cody. rachael, no girl will ever be able to take my mind off of you. i hear your laughter, in my head clear as crystal. please? just dont be surprised when i come after you. You know how hard it is for me to let someone go. bringing people together is gods job. but parting is what we do. thats a quote from an anime called .hack//sign. my thaughts are all over the place. you dont even know how much randomness ive written for and about you in the last 10 months. i donated the necklace to the church, to god, i didnt want it anymore. i deleted your texts, cus i gave my phone away. but i still have fredward. i all ways say that he has a strict diet of air. like you said lol. i couldnt let that go. i cant let you go!!! its not going to happen.
launchpadmcquack13136

Report | 11/25/2010 5:37 pm

launchpadmcquack13136

Her smiles, make me smile.
Her laughter makes me laugh xd
her love given to her from god, reaches deep into my heart.
her hand so soft to hold.
Starlight doesnt even compare to her face.
the way she Screams randomly
the way she knows every lyrics of the song
the way that we both have a passion for love and lyrics, and music, and emotions.
The way i would try getting her to say love you too, heart
the way she opened up to me.
the way she would look me in the Eye no matta WHAT!
the way that she started getting slightly shy around when i got sure of my emotions. redface
the way both of our lives stopped for eachother, i felt like i had a second chance and god gave me a new beautiful life.
the way we hung out day i and day out for a YEAR, the only times we got mad at eachother, i would talk it out no matter what.
It never got old. EVER.
the way we would talk about god, and life.
anything was possible.
but that was back.
i gotta find a way to go after her
if i have to wait till i graduate to go after her.
the only thing i will put before her is god.
i havent talked to her in 10 months.
We were ripped from eachother
the way I KNOW god put her in my life for a reason.
the way im so confused right now but i know that i love her and god put her love in my life.
everything was mutual, especially the fact that we wanted eachother to be happy.
i dont want you to know, where i am...
cus then youll see my heart, in the saddest state its ever been in...
this is now way, to live my life
my smile is broken.
im living off the things she loved. energy drinks... music... emotions...
Im trying to follow gods will. i need her INSPIRATION!!! i need her strength... i need her love.
my life is boring.
everything is lonely.
the lights are turning off
but wait! i can see her eyes agleam through all the darkness!
i can hear god telling me, "GO! you want her dont you?! WE BOTH KNOW SHE IS RIGHT FOR YOU! BAHA! do you think that i do not know?"
Ive tried making it with other girls before. it doesnt work.
so ill wait.
she is five years older than me
never once did she care about that. never once once did I.
now all i have to do is wait till i get my chance, to get away from here.
i have to hope everything she told me was true. i have to hope none of it was lies.
i have to hope
...

Hope... her love... will... come back........
ZZzzzzzzz


thats how i fall asleep every night. stressed

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