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i wouldnt call myself emo because im not depressed only sometimes.... i wouldnt call myself goth because i dont know what they do i think they like heavy medal or something but if they do, then i have something in common, i would call myself scenekid because im kindof shy but girly and i wear really bright clothes and listen to techno, i know that no body understands me because im mysterious and i try to be different and make people curious about me... idk y i do that i guess its just a hobby? idk... i talk to myself alot because there are nobody to talk to... people call me crazy and weird because i see things nobody else can, the spirits talk to me, i think im supposed to help them, i know that my spirit projects and saves the spirits and helps because i remember doing that, when i never did... i hear things when im alone and when i know im awake... i think u guys get a pretty good idea of my life... also, i realized i messed my life up when my crush would flirt with me when i didnt know it until he walked away, one day me and this guy were arguing about who was out in PE or something and then he pushed me and started fighting with me, i backed away so i wouldnt get hurt, but then i gave one last push and the coach saw, i got suspended for 2 days and when i came back everything was different between me and my crush... my friend aileen knows him pretty well because they sit close to eachother and she slips him notes about me :/ i dont like that idea very much... then she asked him wat he think about me and he said that he thinks im like a boy because i beat guys up... now i pay people to beat me up but i dont think its working.... i have real problems :'(