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Me, Myself, & I
I'm an artist, well to be more specific I'm a bisexual artist. I'm very weird, I can be very blunt at times depending on what mood I'm in and I tend to have my crazy moments and my emotions are about as calm as a storm..... As for my sexuality I'm bisexual.
Me: I don't ever want to get married or have kids, that kind of life isn't for me. I've had people say to me that'll change my mind and that it will happen but I know that it won't. Just because they went down that path, doesn't mean it's meant for me too. I'm not entirely sure what I want entirely because well my head is very chaotic....as well as my heart. Honestly I don't feel like figuring it out just yet. But I do know that I want to do art, dabbling in just about anything and everything I find interesting. I just want to do art and travel to different places, trying to get out of the rut I call my life and out of this protective shell I put around myself in every way. But hey I have to patiently wait until that day comes and when it does I will be so happy for once in my life. I'm not really a happy person, I just put on a fake smile and everyone seems to believe it. I don't expect anyone to be able to see behind it so I suppose I'm just used to being alone and waiting for the day I can get away from here and start fresh where no one knows me at all and I can meet new people and have fun for once. Meet people who actually want to be around me and want to be my friend. I just don't get that around here. And no one around here seems to want to know me at all, I mean yeah some people say hey or whats up once in a while but they don't really care, they just say that to be nice to the girl who's sitting alone with no one to talk to except herself. I suppose it's a bit sad but I'm used to it. I guess thats one of the reason I ramble on so much and how much I want to get out of here, I have all this bottled up and no one to talk to, let alone anyone who cares. I may sound a bit emo or whatever saying all this but I really don't care, it's the truth. All in all I'm just one big crystal covered person, waiting for each little crack, tear, and split ready to finally break open and let everything out until I have nothing left to bottle up and thats probably why I listen to so much music, it's good for my soul and my heart in a way. I feel calmer with it and it makes me somewhat happy and its kind of like my coffee in the morning, unless I have it I'm in a depressive mood all day, it helps keep my mind off things I guess. As you can probably tell I'm not a very optimistic person either, I don't really see the positive sides of things. But even though I just put on this fake smile and keep this wall holding up against an emotional barrier, it tends to crack bit by bit, until one day it breaks. I've had a few number of breaks but I haven't really broke down completly....at least not yet anyway.
& I want to go to art school so badly, thats what I've wanted since I realized I wanted to be a professional artist. I just want to go so bad and yet I'm in a school that I really don't want to be at, I never did, it's what my mother wanted. But luckily I just have to put up with it for two years and during those two years I will save up money and apply for scholarships so I can go to art school. I can actually go to a school where you learn art and be surrounded by people who want to do the same, how awesome is that. I would love to be surrounded by people like that instead of being stuck in the place I am now. I know it may seem like I'm complaining or something but hey if thats how it sounds then so be it, it's the truth. It's bad enough I had to be in a high school where no one even bothers to know me or anything but in art school maybe there I can find the things I'm missing. I want to be able to do all these great things and be around people who get it and like it, I don't have that here, I may get the occasional compliment or praise but I want someone to ask me what were you feeling when you did this?, what were you going for?, not just a simple very nice or good. I'm not looking for praise or compliments, I'm looking for someone to get what I'm saying. For once I'd like to meet someone, just one person even who actually asks me those questions when I show them something I've done or I ask them to listen to a song and they tell me what they think the meaning of it is or whats behind the lyrics, not just a simple nice song or good band. I can't find any of that here, the only thing here are people who don't get me in the least and people who don't even bother to know me, it's depressing really but I'm used to it so it really doesn't bother me if I don't think about, if I do I start crying due to the fact that I bottle everything up. My only outlet for my frustration, anger and completly and utterly pissed off mood is listening to music at full blast and screaming my heart out with the lyrics, preferably to the songs "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance. "Hate My Life" by Theory of a Deadman, "Pain" by Three Days Grace, "Never Too Late" by Three Days Grace, "Animal I Have Become" by Three Days Grace, "It's Just Me" by Escape The Fate, and "Not The American Average" by Asking Alexandria. So basically since I'm always in a depressed, sad, pissed off at pretty much everything kind of way with a fake smile that lies to everyone who sees it saying that I'm happy and everything is okay is a 24/7 thing for me, I listen to a lot of Three Days Grace, Asking Alexandria, Seether, and My Chemical Romance. Have you ever just screamed and when I say screamed I mean really screamed out the song "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance? If you do you will feel like a giant weight has been lifted off your shoulders, well for me it lasted for about a few hours but still it was really awesome to just scream all of my bottled up angst in one song. Well I did this four or five times....relief, sweet relief. It feels epic to scream..
You know sometimes I think people are scared of me, not sure why it feels like though. Maybe thats why no one ever talks to me, I could be sitting alone, all by myself at a table and countless people will walk by and not even notice I'm there, I'm just in my own little world where the only person who exist is myself...my own little bubble or shell...just me...but even so I'm used to it, so I'm not really bothered by it much. Or maybe they just see a girl dressed mostly in black who is probably emo, if you want to go by a stereotype or label that is.
Likes/Loves: Art, books (I could sit and read for two to three hours straight with my music on and be completly content), music (I could listen to music all day long and be happy, well somewhat happy), key lime pie, mango's & California peaches, Spaghetti, my iPod touch, guitars, drums, and guitar solos(I love guitar solos),anime, Japanese music,....I think thats it.
Ignorant, judgmental, idiotic people; country music, rap music, random guys who hit on me when they don't even know me, talking on the phone (it's so impersonal and personally if you want to have a conversation with someone just walk up to them and start one or sit next to them and just say hi or even something completly random just texting or calling someone is just impersonal to me and a bit boring but I do text when I get really bored and I have nothing else better to do), math (any and all math I hate), ....I think thats it.
Quote: You only have one life to do whatever you want with. In 100 years nobody will remember the stupid mistakes you made, so make a fool of yourself while you still have the chance because if you spend all your life trying to be the coolest kid around you will never be happy with yourself.
Me... More Rambling/Dislikes
And I don't like ignorant people as in people who base all their beliefs on a book(religious people mostly) instead of developing their own opinion, I don't have anything against anyone religious it's just that I don't like the people who base everything on a book, it's ridiculous, ignorant people who think being gay is wrong or think a really good book should be banned because it has cuss words or sexual references in it, I don't like those kind of people, it drives me crazy. I myself am a free spirited person, I believe that you should get to know someone from the heart and that you shouldn't judge before you get to know that person and I love books, no book should be banned just because some ignorant moron has something against it, besides weall have freedom of speech, get the ******** over it, everyone is allowed and should speak their mind not just out loud in words but also on paper or any other way you can speak your mind. And I'm gay friendly, hell I don't care if you had a sex change, all that matters is whats inside, thats it. Someone walks up to me and says their gay or whatever, I say cool. And I don't like people who lie about who they really are, I mean no one should have to hide or lie about who they are, it's just not right. Be who you are, whoever that may be. smile
Quote: Do What Makes You Happy, Be With Who Makes You Smile, Laugh As Much As You Breathe, & Love As Long As You Live.
Quote: ******** the haters, the assholes, the people out to get you, the whiners, the people that cheat you, the people who PRETEND to be your friend, those who are purposely rude, those who purposely lie, the hypocritical, the greedy, the decieving, the people who don't appreciate you.
Quote: There is no such word as "loved". Love has no past tense. If you ever stop loving someone, then you never truly loved them in the first place.
Music: Music Gives Us An Escape From Our Drama Filled, Teenage Heartache Driven Lives, To Actually Be Apart Of Something Amazing, It Gives Us Something To Believe In......
.. Train, Green Day, Adam Lambert,Three Days Grace(Favorite band), Escape The Fate, Black Veil Brides, My Chemical Romance, AFI, Oranthi, Lostprophets, Paramore, Sum 41, Hit The Lights, Hey Monday, The Offspring, Simple Plan, Bowling For Soup, Boys Like Girls, Panic At The Disco, The All American Rejects, Good Charlotte, Avril Lavigne, Michelle Branch, Muse, Thriving Ivory, Collective Soul, Seether, A Kiss Could Be Deadly, Apocalyptica, Coheed And Cambria, Shinedown, Kill Hannah, Flyleaf, Blaqk Audio, Linkin Park, Evanescence, Lifehouse, P!nk, The Black Ghosts, Death Cab For Cutie, Florence + The Machines, Anya Marina, Alanis Morissette, Kris Allen, The Friday Night Boys, Christina Perri, Cute Is What We Aim For, ect.
Books: Kissed By An Angel, Spanking Shakespear, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, The Host, North Of Beautiful, Getting The Girl, The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, Pieces: A Collection Of Voices, Running with Scissors, Dry, Magical Thinking, Possible Side Effects, Selevision, Crank, Glass, Speak, Twisted, Wintergirls, Harry Potter Series, Just Listen, Impulse, Burned, Identical, Tricks, Memoires Of A Teenage Amnesiac, The Black Tattoo, Memoires Of A Geisha, The Davinchi Code, Angels and Demons, The Lost Symbol, A Series Of Unfortunate Events, Dead Connection, Fallen, Waiter Rant, ect.
Japanese Artist: Do As Infinity, Hitomi Takahashi, Younha(Korean Artist), L'Arc~en~Ciel, Rie Fu, Namie Amuro, Little by Little, Halcali, Bonnie Pink, ect.
Anime/Shows: Ouran High School Host Club, Lovely Complex, The Wallflower, Paradise Kiss, Kyou Kara Maoh, Elfen Lied, Read Or Die Tv, I,My,Me Strawberry Eggs, Mirage Of Blaze, Loveless, The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya, The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya, Inuyasha, Inuyasha: The Final Act, Fullmetal Alchemist, Rurouni Kenshin, Rurouni Kenshin: Seisouhen, Rurouni Kenshin: Tsuiokuhen, Yu Yu Hakusho, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Gokusen, Spiral, Naruto, Rave Master, Chobits, Wolf's Rain, Fruits Basket, Full Moon Wo Sagashite, Kodocha, Cased Closed, Rurouni Kenshin: Samurai X, Eureka 7, Sailor Moon, Kekkaishi, xxxHolic, xxxHolic Kei, xxxHolic Shunmuki, Kore wa Zombie Desu ka?, ect.
Bones, Doctor Who, Torchwood, Smallville, Supernatural, Gilmore Girls, Scrubs, Charmed, Will And Grace, The Golden Girls, The Nanny, Dead Like Me, Married...With Children, Warehouse 13, Ghost Whisperer, Leverage, The Big Bang Theory, 8 Simple Rules, Still Standing, My Fair Wedding With David Tutera(I may not ever want to get married but thats one wedding show that is very addicting when theres nothing else on), & I like to watch cartoons from time to time, mostly on Nickelodeon, I grew up on watching that channel so yeah, it's nice to watch a cartoon every so often.
Quotes I Happen To Love
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it" - Unknown
"You only live one life, so make this one as crazy as you can. Love as much as possible. Scream! Laugh! and cry! as much as you want. Party like a rockstar. Act as if your famous & just live your life to the fullest because you don't know when it will end." - Unknown
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself" - Unknown
"Life is about being yourself. Someone only you can be...Someone only you can understand...Someone that is unlike everyone else. Someone that doesn't copy others to look the same. Someone who is extremely unique. Because you are you. Be original. Be creative. Be yourself." - Unknown
"Art is anything you can get away with" - Andy Warhol
"Sex is the biggest nothing of all time" - Andy Warhol
"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - Andy Warhol
"Everybody winds up kissing the wrong person goodnight" - Andy Warhol
"I am a deeply superficial person" - Andy Warhol
"In the future everyone will be famous for fifteen minutes" - Andy Warhol
"Making money is art and working is art and good business is the best art of all" - Andy Warhol
"Two people kissing always look like fish" - Andy Warhol
"It's the place where my prediction from the sixties finally came true: "In the future everyone will be famous for fifteen minutes." I'm bored with that line. I never use it anymore. My new line is, "In fifteen minutes everybody will be famous." - Andy Warhol
"I wonder if it's possible to have a love affair that lasts forever." -Andy Warhol
" Do What Makes You Happy, Be With Who Makes You Smile, Laugh As Much As You Breathe, & Love As Long As You Live." - Unknown
" ******** the haters, the assholes, the people out to get you, the whiners, the people that cheat you, the people who PRETEND to be your friend, those who are purposely rude, those who purposely lie, the hypocritical,
the greedy, the decieving, the people who don't appreciate you." - Unknown
"There is no such word as "loved". Love has no past tense. If you ever stop loving someone, then you never truly loved them in the first place." - Unknown
"Art never comes from happiness" Anonymous
"I wonder if it's possible to have a love affair that lasts forever" - Andy Warhol
"Life's about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past" - Unknown
"Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when your riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief, and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake up and live." - Bob Marley
"You'll never become old and wise if you aren't young and crazy." - Unknown
"Fall in love or fall in hate. Get inspired or be depressed. Ace a test or flunk a class. Make babies or make art. Speak the truth or lie and cheat. Dance on tables or sit in the corner. Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride..." - Soulbeam
"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So...Explore. Dream. Discover." - Unknown
"Giving up doesn't always mean your weak, sometimes it just means your strong enough to let go" - Unknown
"To accomplish great things we must not only act but also dream, not only plan but also believe." - Unknown
"Stand up for what is right, even if you stand alone" - Unknown
"Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it." - Salvador Dali
"Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life" - Pablo Picasso
"Art seems to me to be a state of soul more than anything else" - Chagall
"Art teaches nothing except the significance of life" - Henry Miller
"Reality can be beaten with enough imagination" - Mark Twain
"Color in a picture is like enthusiasm in life" - Vincent Van Gogh
"The job of the artist is always to deepen the mystery" - Francis Brown
"Imagination is more important than knowledge" - Albert Einstein
"The secret of life is in art" - Oscar Wilde
"You only have one life to do whatever you want with. In 100 years nobody will remember the stupid mistakes you made, so make a fool of yourself while you still have the chance because if you spend all your life trying to be the coolest kid around you will never be happy with yourself." - Unknown
"Music Gives Us An Escape From Our Drama Filled, Teenage Heartache Driven Lives, To Actually Be Apart Of Something Amazing, It Gives Us Something To Believe In......" - Unknown