I was gonna post this in the thread we were talking in but I think I am close to derailing it so I thought I would respond to you here. n.n (Holy crap, your profile is awesome! o.o +1 A.D.D. moment)
Thank you for talking to me; I agree with everything you said, for the record. I am in a terribly conflicted place in regards to what Gaia is doing to make money...I know they need the money and hell, I even want them to be prosperous because I love the site that much and feel good work should always be rewarded...and yet I hate Flynn. I hate how it has caused such discord among people; I know the site is too varied and demographically spread out to constantly agree on everything all the time always but to see this huge divide that I don't feel was always so blatant and obvious...
It's just been disheartening. And people being pricks to one another just because they feel they are justified in being that way is not helping; running into a thread to smack the hornet's nest with a stick and laugh at the effects of said action is not cool- and that goes for anyone being an a*****e to anyone else for whatever personal reason they are gilding themselves with. I feel I have come dangerously close sometimes to achieving True a*****e Level a few times and that is when I have just stopped responding to people and left the thread. I knew if I posted anything else it would come out mean and in the heat of the moment it might feel really good...but I knew later I would just feel worse, even if I felt justified in defending myself. I want to be able to actually CONVERSE with people, as we have done, but there are those on BOTH sides that I know there will be no conversing going on; I care so much about this site and even the people that have irked me matter to me because they are here, too. I'm a total goober for this site, man. cat_sweatdrop
I have been focusing on the bright sides you mentioned; I do wince with every update now, though. I worry for the health of the site and I hate seeing so many unhappy users. >.< I just want things to settle down...and for the majority to be focused on something nice and fun and site/community oriented. I want to be able to roam the forums as the softie for the site that I am instead of feeling like I gotta have the armor and shield up. xD
I am glad I did not sound hostile. n.n I post things- especially in that forum- when I am not fully awake or clearly thinking and then later regret it when I read back over things and it sounds like it is being written in a jerky manner. It has been nice to go back into the SF and talk over things with people like you, though- here lately I have been able to have more and more actual conversations with people and I take that as a good sign. n.n
Or maybe I have been blocked by the people that hate me the most, I don't know. xD