I know I need to stop being a downer but there's so many things that get in my way.
I wouldn't mind being alone as well, but I can't help myself from "thinking" that people are always looking down on me because of it. I just want to be carefree and ignore them, but it's difficult for me.
I know it's up to be whether or not I should do things on my own will or not, but this, too, is difficult. I mean, how do you manage to persuade yourself to do something you don't like at all? And what if there's something better in front of you that distracts you all the time (internet)? D8 gonkgonkgonkgonkgonkgonk
That's why I'm never going to give birth. I'm a nun, remember? screamscreamscream
Even if not I'm still not going to give birth. SCREW THEM ALL WHO THINK THAT'S BAD. I really don't care. Too much pain to bear and I will die. Physically and mentally. If you're comparing what's happening in school these days with giving birth,then here's your answer. If I give birth I will die. If I keep trying to push through this tough work, I will die. I mean, I've died many times already. But I know you can't die more than once in the real world. It's not just self-confidence I'm missing. It's stubbornness, laziness, motivation and loneliness. Lonely, because without someone there for you, you feel left out and never in the mood to do what you're suppose to. That's happening to me in math class this year. I am secretly crying inside when I'm there in class.
I know, though. I know I should try harder to succeed, but it takes too much energy to do so. You know what I mean?
I know what resiliency is and I know what I should do, but at the same time I don't. I am either lazy or don't know where to start over. Life is too hard for me to continue living.
I wonder if there's another planet out there that's very similar to ours. I'm only interested in this because it's something that exists outside of Earth. Out and away from this world. Mysteries are what makes life worth living. For me, anyway.
I don't know what I'm saying most of the time, so I'm sorry if this makes no sense. I think that all I'm trying to say is I want to live somewhere else. I want to have been born somewhere else; then, maybe my life would be a little different. Perhaps happier.
you have to do this and that and move things around and look at the problems in another way. It's hard and I don't fricken get it. I'll just try to do good in bio and get in bio career or something. Or arts since I'm dumb. I like writing stories, but that won't get me anywhere in life. I like studying stars, planets and the universe, but that's PHYSICS RIGHT THERE. omg. WHYYYYYYYYYy.
I mean, we haven't learned relativity yet but that's what I had always been hoping to learn. Yet, it's supplemental this year. And next year I can't take physics. I'm not fit enough. (SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST. LOL)
Yeah, I basically suck at everything. It's like I always do worse than my friends and no matter how hard I try I barely improve. I just don't get it. How to stop being lazy and move on? I can never talk to anyone in person about this issue I have, because once I get too serious, I end up weeping. emotion_sweatdrop
Because it seems like everything and everyone is against me.
I'll stop it here so I don't end up rumbling on about other stuff that this will lead to. But yeah. I always feel left out. Like my brain is not growing up or something. Everyone I know is smarter than me. emotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwantemotion_donotwant
...I don't remember what I wrote... LOL.
Well, there's nothing wrong with them. Just hard. Bio = tons of memorization.
chem = may sometimes be confusing.
I just wish I can stop being lazy and doing whatever I want when I should be doing work.
Right, I remember now. I always tend to keep coming back regardless of what happens. Like, I say to myself: omg things are so expensive im gonna be a noob forever time to quit" Then I come back. Omg what is wrong with me? yum_sausageyum_sausageyum_sausageyum_sausageyum_sausageyum_sausageyum_sausage yum_shrimp <----- i want to eat that now.
Anyways, I should go study now. Too much s**t left for me to do on Sundays.
Why you spell ugly like ugleee? lolololll 8D
Well, as long as you find use of it then I guess it's okay. I guess I won't be going for all of them anymore. Due to that and inflation. When did items on the MP start to inflate anyways? D:
I don't even know why I'm still on here. I have absolutely no life. emotion_zombie
You mean the crimson one? Or the bloody one?
They're both awesome. My least favorite ones would have to be pink, icy (even though I am wearing it), and antique. I don't know why antique is so expensive...
Pale is okay/cool but not that great to me.