Name: Whatever you want
Age: Is but a number
Sex: Yes please
Location: Not near you
Dislikes: People asking me personal questions, committing to anything, those who judge people they don't know
Likes: for people to talk to me to get to know me (not really. I'll tell you what I want, when I want. So don't be "salty" if your questions are ignored).
Weight: is a number
Height: 5'10" without heels...or shoes
Piercings?: 5 and working on getting more
Sexual orientation?: hahaha...come find out
Fetishes?: Not telling.
Hair Color: Dark as hell (dark dark brown)
Skin Color: Doesn't change unless in the sun (think medium roast with three teaspoons of cream...somewhere around there)
Eye Color: See Hair Color
Pictures of Me: it's somewhere on here...good luck
Zodiac Sign?: I'm a scorpio, baby
Skype: Hell no
Piip?: That One Person (send me email or your digits for an add)
Facebook: N/A but maybe in the future
e Harmony: Not looking
Want Kids: No
Any other things to note: No.
New/Additional Information: I actually qualify as a tease, I'm looking for a good, fun time, not someone to "sleep" with, so don't even bother <3
I love making sexy and alluring avvies. Yes, I admit I cyber, and yes, I can count the number of people I cybered with (my entire life, mind you) on two hands....and now a foot.
And there have been a few times where I'll stop and tell my...partner that I can't take them seriously or can't continue due to (insert reason here), but I don't mean to be rude or mean about it. Just thought it'd be nice if I told them the reason why I fell silent...I prefer strangers, FWB seem to always leave me slightly distressed, and then there's no complicating words with emotions, no false promises or pretty words dripping with honey. We both know why we are talking to each other, so there is no faking friendships...
In real life though, I'm a virgin. And since I doubt anyone will actually read this ('cept for the select few who actually care about me somewhat), I will also admit that I have never dated or even kissed anyone, ever.
I find myself attracted to both sexes, but I have yet to find anyone I am willing to think seriously about... and feel safe enough with to let them put me in a vulnerable position (this remains true, to this day. Last updated May 6th, 2014)
Not only that, but I am TERRIFIED of commitment. I'm not sure if I already said this, but 'tis true. I have to weigh the pros and cons, evaluate, then re-evaluate my decisions before I finally commit. I try not to lie, so if I dodge or ignore a question, it is because I really don't want to answer it or I don't know how to answer it.
I am African American, Native American (two different tribes) and my last name is German. But I like to mark myself as "other" when I can. I am very self-conscious, and socially awkward. I am unhappy with my body, but I am working on fixing it. That is honestly why I don't have any pictures of me up on here. I don't think I'm pretty, and I don't want anyone to really know me...or do I want to be known? Why else would I type all this up...for strangers? I dunno. End of edit.
I'll probably delete this section... I hate it when people automatically judge me based off of one conversation, or when they see you say something that has nothing to do with them in any way, shape, or form, but they decide that hey, I'mma be an asshat today, then they jump in when they aren't welcome. And to be completely honest, I'm tired of people lying to me, using and abusing me and taking me for a fool. I know what you want, and you're damn sure not gonna get it for me ('specially donations, if you want something, work for it like the rest of us) and if this is all you want me for, go ahead, unfriend me now, or better yet, simply don't friend me at all. This section may seem like a pity party, or me ranting while I'm pissed off, but no. I am calm, level-headed, slightly thirsty, but fine. The way someone explains themselves and expresses their thoughts and desires shows who they are.
There are times when I feel...alone. And I find myself seeking out the attention of others, searching for some shared spark that will grow and morph into a mirror image. I...look for someone who shares my thoughts and desires, hoping that unlike previous encounters they will be...true? They will be real. I some times tire of being unknown, and want someone who knows all my secrets and fears, all that I desire and loath. But each time, each person I seek out, gives me a taste of what I want the most, only to gradually fade away and leave me...empty, sad, I don't quite know. But I know each time I grow more wary, more cynical. It's funny, because I don't even give them a piece of who I am, not a single crumb to hold onto, and yet...and yet...I latch onto lies and false promises for the hope of something more. I just want to be known, as I am, all that I am, but words alone cannot convey the message I wish to show. My actions never reflect how I feel, but are so restrained that I'm not even sure what I originally set out to do. Then there are times when I try to explain, try to find the words that will fall into place on a page, "perfectly" composed, telling all that I feel in one sentence...only to realize how short they fall of their goal. But, I hope, that one day, someone will venture to read this, and be able to decipher the language here, and tell me the right words. But I am tired of waiting, I'm tired of disappointment that I set myself up for. I want to learn not to have expectations, to take things in stride, I want to not feel as if I need to explain myself to strangers because I don't want those I consider "friends" to know just how truly vulnerable I am, or for those I seek out how much I crave their acceptance. And yet...there is no reason for any of this....whatsoever....
So, based off of all the information given throughout my entire profile, who am I? Please, feel free to comment or pm me and tell me. Tell me my faults, strengths, what you believe is true about me. It's entertaining to see what ya'll come up with. So really, do it. I look forward to reading them <3