I hope you don't, you seem like an awesome person. I know life sucks sometimes.... Or a LOT! And there are times I don't wanna be here anymore too but there's always hope for things to get better. I believe in my heart that one day things will get better not only for me but for you as well. I don't want you to miss seeing your life get better. :/ It's okay to talk about it to people though rather online or rl.