Today marks day 1 of my preparation for your arrival and the day is proving to be long and tiresome..
It's hard returning here. Returning to a life online. I have been here for days and I still feel lost and out of place. The house is lonely and cold...I miss the comforting warmth of being near you. You've walked me through your life for months now and the experience has awakened a new ache inside me. An acknowledgement that you're part of this wonderful place and community that I'm not a part of..I only get to taste what it might be like. I can only dream and hope to someday be able to wake up knowing I never have to leave again.
Until then..I will continue to push on leaving parts of me there with you to keep my presence alive.
Your smile hides it well, but I know it's hard for you too. But we'll get through this..Christmas is just around the corner and I'm determined to make it one to remember.
Happy Birthday my powerful partner~! I can't wait to spend this month with you and what a great way to celebrate my first day here c: FINALLY a day where you HAVE to let me spoil you c; I love you Nicky and this month us going to be CRAZY with smash bros on the third and everything the palpitations of my heart are going to make me k.o. I can't believe I was lucky enough to find a partner whose gaming enthusiam rivals mine. For now I may be just a small threat but just you wait I've brought my A game and im in it to win it, ill never give up!!! So get ready, get set, LETS DO THIS! - Your enthusiastic eager enemy ;P
My Poor Prince..
It's so hard to always have to return here. It's not my home anymore. You're my home..Your warming voice helps soothe the ache of distance, but I need more. I hope for now time passes by quickly so that I may return to your arms that much sooner, then it can come to its slowest speeds so I can relax warm and safe in your arms forever.
I'm sorry for all the ache and turmoil my return and unforeseen absence has caused you..
*Gently grips his hand in her own and holds it to her heart *
I promise you nothing bad is ever going to happen between us..Even if I have to spend my whole life proving it I will get those negative voices to hush. I know it's hard..I know you were scared..and I'm sorry for putting you through that. I love you Nicky and would never let anything, or anyone come between us. Your love has fueled me with such a great power that no one DARE trifle with me.
For now though, nap peacefully and know that I'm eagerly awaiting your return, DS in hand and smile on my face C: