This may be a bit silly because you're only at work and we are talking on skype, but I just have to tell you in some special way that I miss you! 13+ hours we spent today in call sleeping together before work, eating together, watching movies and i'm still not full of Nicky yet I want more ♥ My day just isn't complete without you. Nothing is worth doing unless we can share in it together.
I can't even remember life before my Nicky. The way we just so quickly bonded and fit together it's like it was the way it was always meant to be. The way you care for me is just..breathtaking. I love how you hold my hand on the stairs and grip me tight as I count the steps attempting to not fall down. And I love the way you hold me close to your warm chest and kiss me so deeply on the escalator, rewarding me for everytime I step onto it so bravely. I need you nicky always by my side to take care of my little goofball self..and I promise I'll always be there to take care of you. To clean all your dishes when you're turned around cooking us a meal, and kiss and dress all of your wounds.
And I truely do love the way you love me..I know I've been so needy lately, but that's only because I'm getting so attached to having you in my arms irl that it's so hard to smile through the times when I'm far away.. But don't think your affections have all gone unnoticed. I feel your love a lot my darling. When you kiss my forehead as I rest in your bed, when you nuzzle into me and grip my hand on the bus, when you unlace our fingers just so you can wrap your arm over me and pull me close as we're walking, when you ask me to be your gaming partner, when you proudly introduce me to your friends and coworkers, when you hold my hand on the swings ;//~//; , how you can't stand to be without me even for a minute, in the way...you kiss me with so much passion we're both left breathless...I appreciate it all nicky. I feel it all..always ♥
And I promise to always wear this ring proudly and continue to take good care of it. Even if it's a promise ring for now it feels like so much more. I'll cherish it always and forever hold in my heart the day you slipped it on my finger. I love you Nicky and I always will. ♥
Ifeel as if I have been dangling on threads trying hard to steady myself as to not fall into the pit of despair. I can feel each thread unrivaling with the moments we're forced to be seperated from each other. But whenever I fear the break is nearing my handsome hero returns to my side and rescues me all over again so that the only place I fall is into his strong arms.
Despite the vast array of fun activities I've partaken in this month since my return to Washington I've found my enjoyment in them to be lacking. Paintballing, camping, fireworks galore, such big events and yet they pale in comparison to a simple day sitting beside you with a controller in my hand. You are the energy and driving force of my life. Fun is wherever you are.
The greatest gift is having you as my life partner. I absolutely idolize you Nicky. Your determination, kindness, vast skills, and soft soul constantly draw me in closer. Ilove learning from you. Withyour nurturing hands and overwhelming patience I've started to grow and blossom into a beautiful, confident, strong woman. A true force to be reckoned with. It's a steep mountain for me to climb, but I will push on knowing youwill be right up there at the top excited to greet me!
I'll keep trying my best to get there ,