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Last Login: 07/03/2014 2:10 pm

Registered: 07/02/2010

Gender: Female

Birthday: 08/13

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hello, my friends call me mesha.smilies/icon_biggrin.gif
I am going to nursing school smilies/icon_stressed.gif
im 5000 years old.smilies/icon_redface.gif
i ******** love my pet fish
my favorite colors are orange and yellow.smilies/icon_exclaim.gif red now
im more than likely a hufflepuff. smilies/icon_4laugh.gif [b]but for pretend

the seaweed is always greener in somebody else's lake.smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif
what im wondering: will i actually get all my titers and vaccinations done by the deadline...
im realizing now more than ever the values of friendship.smilies/icon_3nodding.gif (was i?)
im realizing that everyone i know has troubles
currently reading: The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman:shock:
last book i read: Anansi Boys...
i forget a lot of things i watch in the movies and read in books.smilies/icon_whee.gif
im good at not being lost.smilies/icon_razz.gif
i have no time sorry
im good at school.smilies/icon_cool.gif
but im very shy.smilies/icon_talk2hand.gif
i love baking. smilies/icon_heart.gif
last bakes: Hello Kitty Velvet Cake with cream cheese frosting
and i love art.smilies/icon_heart.gif
and i love the humanities most of all.smilies/icon_heart.gifsmilies/icon_heart.gifsmilies/icon_heart.gif
i found a magical seashell the other day.smilies/icon_4laugh.gif ( i still have it, i made it into a necklace)
i just recently quit my job.smilies/icon_wink.gif (that was a long time ago)
im not very sure what to do about that....
now i am passively looking for work (sure)

An art mango made me for my birthday <3 Full Size here

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Things I Didn't Know I Loved
by Nazim Hikmet
translated by Mutlu Konuk and Randy Blasing

it's 1962 March 28th
I'm sitting by the window on the Prague-Berlin train
night is falling
I never knew I liked
night descending like a tired bird on a smoky wet plain
I don't like
comparing nightfall to a tired bird

I didn't know I loved the earth
can someone who hasn't worked the earth love it
I've never worked the earth
it must be my only Platonic love

and here I've loved rivers all this time
whether motionless like this they curl skirting the hills
European hills crowned with chateaus
or whether stretched out flat as far as the eye can see
I know you can't wash in the same river even once
I know the river will bring new lights you'll never see
I know we live slightly longer than a horse but not nearly as long as a crow
I know this has troubled people before
and will trouble those after me
I know all this has been said a thousand times before
and will be said after me

I didn't know I loved the sky
cloudy or clear
the blue vault Andrei studied on his back at Borodino
in prison I translated both volumes of War and Peace into Turkish
I hear voices
not from the blue vault but from the yard
the guards are beating someone again
I didn't know I loved trees
bare beeches near Moscow in Peredelkino
they come upon me in winter noble and modest
beeches are Russian the way poplars are Turkish
"the poplars of Izmir
losing their leaves. . .
they call me The Knife. . .
lover like a young tree. . .
I blow stately mansions sky-high"
in the Ilgaz woods in 1920 I tied an embroidered linen handkerchief
to a pine bough for luck

I never knew I loved roads
even the asphalt kind
Vera's behind the wheel we're driving from Moscow to the Crimea
Koktebele
formerly "Goktepé ili" in Turkish
the two of us inside a closed box
the world flows past on both sides distant and mute
I was never so close to anyone in my life
bandits stopped me on the red road between Bolu and Geredé
when I was eighteen
apart from my life I didn't have anything in the wagon they could take
and at eighteen our lives are what we value least
I've written this somewhere before
wading through a dark muddy street I'm going to the shadow play
Ramazan night
a paper lantern leading the way
maybe nothing like this ever happened
maybe I read it somewhere an eight-year-old boy
going to the shadow play
Ramazan night in Istanbul holding his grandfather's hand
his grandfather has on a fez and is wearing the fur coat
with a sable collar over his robe
and there's a lantern in the servant's hand
and I can't contain myself for joy
flowers come to mind for some reason
poppies cactuses jonquils
in the jonquil garden in Kadikoy Istanbul I kissed Marika
fresh almonds on her breath
I was seventeen
my heart on a swing touched the sky
I didn't know I loved flowers
friends sent me three red carnations in prison

I just remembered the stars
I love them too
whether I'm floored watching them from below
or whether I'm flying at their side

I have some questions for the cosmonauts
were the stars much bigger
did they look like huge jewels on black velvet
or apricots on orange
did you feel proud to get closer to the stars
I saw color photos of the cosmos in Ogonek magazine now don't
be upset comrades but nonfigurative shall we say or abstract
well some of them looked just like such paintings which is to
say they were terribly figurative and concrete
my heart was in my mouth looking at them
they are our endless desire to grasp things
seeing them I could even think of death and not feel at all sad
I never knew I loved the cosmos

snow flashes in front of my eyes
both heavy wet steady snow and the dry whirling kind
I didn't know I liked snow

I never knew I loved the sun
even when setting cherry-red as now
in Istanbul too it sometimes sets in postcard colors
but you aren't about to paint it that way
I didn't know I loved the sea
except the Sea of Azov
or how much

I didn't know I loved clouds
whether I'm under or up above them
whether they look like giants or shaggy white beasts

moonlight the falsest the most languid the most petit-bourgeois
strikes me
I like it

I didn't know I liked rain
whether it falls like a fine net or splatters against the glass my
heart leaves me tangled up in a net or trapped inside a drop
and takes off for uncharted countries I didn't know I loved
rain but why did I suddenly discover all these passions sitting
by the window on the Prague-Berlin train
is it because I lit my sixth cigarette
one alone could kill me
is it because I'm half dead from thinking about someone back in Moscow
her hair straw-blond eyelashes blue

the train plunges on through the pitch-black night
I never knew I liked the night pitch-black
sparks fly from the engine
I didn't know I loved sparks
I didn't know I loved so many things and I had to wait until sixty
to find it out sitting by the window on the Prague-Berlin train
watching the world disappear as if on a journey of no return

19 April 1962
Moscow

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M a x s A n j o Report | 09/27/2013 12:03 pm
M a x s A n j o
I'm not. I love the snow! Winter is the best season there is XD
Lucky. I haven't gone out alone since she was born.
Not that its a bad thing, but I sometimes miss having a couple of hours alone.
Oh well she's still a blessing and I wouldn't trade her for anything <3
M a x s A n j o Report | 09/17/2013 11:28 am
M a x s A n j o
That would be nice. :3 I take Natalie to the park and she loves it! She's always interested in what the other kids are doing and wants to copy them.
Hehe that's cute! She can say: cat, kitty, hello, oh dear, hi, bye, here you go, daddy, mama, papa(food), water, Paprika, oh my god, ow, Blue's Clues.
I might of missed out a few but she seems to learn really fast (:
M a x s A n j o Report | 09/14/2013 1:28 pm
M a x s A n j o
ooo sounds like fun! We actually went to a fair too last weekend, it was fun!
Natalie and I are great. Natalie can walk now and her vocabulary is expanding!
M a x s A n j o Report | 09/01/2013 3:28 pm
M a x s A n j o
Hellooo, how are youu doing? How's the little one?
xXProfessor-PhantomXx Report | 08/24/2013 7:09 pm
xXProfessor-PhantomXx
Comes Peddling up to your door..*
Bugs..paper...old shoes tires..flowers?
-w-
buying any the young lady might have yesh?
ChocoIate Tea Report | 07/10/2013 4:31 pm
ChocoIate Tea
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGyEd0aKWZE
This is amazing, also the song I just put on my profile. c: I love Ellie Goulding.
ChocoIate Tea Report | 07/09/2013 9:49 am
ChocoIate Tea
thank you mesha ^u^
i love you too! c: heart
ChocoIate Tea Report | 07/07/2013 10:46 am
ChocoIate Tea
Yeah, she is pointing c:
ChocoIate Tea Report | 07/06/2013 7:42 pm
ChocoIate Tea
Oops I mean this one haha
http://www.tektek.org/avatar/53750241
ChocoIate Tea Report | 07/06/2013 7:41 pm
ChocoIate Tea
http://www.tektek.org/avatar/53747904

This
I also want this someday lol
 

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Last Login: 07/03/2014 2:10 pm

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