Things, they suck. I won't lie. I'm in a severe depression, but I've got meds for it, don't worry, not thinking of killing myself. The thing is, I just have no ambition to take care of myself.
Yes, I'm taking my meds, irrigating my bladder and stuff, but, my eating habits suck. I don't like eating meats, save hot dogs, shrimp and taco meat. Mom and I argue a lot or she's always chewing my a** out.
I'm living in a make believe world and I can't get out. I despritely want out of this world! Not death, but to go and live on Mobius with Sonic and fight Eggman. To go to Dreamland and stop Nightmare and help Kirby learn what he needs to succeed. I want to fly an arwing and travel the Lylat System with Star Fox's team. I have my own character for each world, and I go there to be free of the pain I face. I want there to be a portal or some magic stone that takes me away.
My character is everything I'm not, and somethings I am. I want to be the hero for once and stop being people around me pain because I can't get my head out of my a** and do what I need to so I can survive. I know it will never happen, but I dream it will so that I can escape.
I'm so screwed up because of this. I never had a true childhood, and I believe that I am behind mentally because of it, though my mom doesn't seem to think so. Just a thought on my part, I suppose.
All the time I feel scared, or depressed. I feel that I can't talk to anyone about these feelings, and I feel that going to my councilor is useless now.
The worse part is, mom says that I'm slowly killing myself. And I'll be dead by the time I'm 30. I know I can't take back everything I've done in the past. I know I screwed up. I know I can change and turn my life around, but I just don't have the ambition.
Sometimes, I feel there is no will to live, yet I don't have the guts to end it all. It would be cowardly to do so.
I've never shared these feeling with anyone. The worlds I go to, only my councilor knew, and my mom.
I am scared to die. I always have been, and for one and only one reason. The people I'd leave behind. Especially you. I've left a "Will" of sorts behind for my mom. Should something happen to me, you will recieve a PM from my mom, titled "From Babz' Mom" and in it will be my last message to you, and the reason of death. I've been scared to die because I don't want you all to go on without knowing why I sudden disappeared.
Now you know everything. These are things I've kept hidden from you, because I feared losing you all because of my actions. Often I think of quitting Gaia and separating myself from you. I feel that I am only bringing pain to you, my dearest friends. It's not fair to you. Why should you hurt just because I hurt? I've never been so close to quitting before.
Please, just let me know your reactions to this. All of it. Go ahead, rip me a new a** hole. Yell and swear and say what you want.
As I cry writing this, I want you to know that I love you all. And I'm sorry that you ever knew a terrible person like me. You deserve a better friend than this. One who can take care of themself.
This is all from my mind, heart and soul.
Love to you all for putting up with me. I'm sorry I lied.
~Babz





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LOOK! A distraction! And it's carrying a change of subject!



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Name's Akoto. Look me up!



GREEN IS THE OFFICAL COLOR OF KIDNEY DONATION. WEAR A GREEN RIBBON TODAY!

The wait will be longer than they thought. My sensitivity leve is 89%, meaning that only 11% of the population can be a match for me. That means I could be waiting for 5 years, or longer. And I heard that there is possibly a kidney shortage to boot. Making not only my wait, but other kid's waits even longer. It also means that adults have a high possiblity of not even getting a kidney.
It's tough, but someone's got to do it, right? So others won't suffer?



Call me Akoto or Akoto-chan. Formally known as WolfEarz.
Born in '92, junior in high school....That's really all I wanna share...
I'm a zOMG freak. Love playing it.
Love roleplaying! If you're a lit. to semi-lit. male, mail me.

Once upon a time I was a member of the Shadow Clan and the Demonic Clan and the Sound Clan. Those were the days....If you asked me, I'd tell you I miss those days.
But, I can't go back, no matter how hard I try. I hope everyone is doing well.
~Wolf





Thank you Lunar Mystica for donating 30k so I could get Suprior Form!
Thank you Noble_Lance for donating Gift of the Gods!



Caramelldansen Lyrics in English:

Women are you ready to join us now?
Hands in the air, we will show you how.
Come and try,
Caramell will be your guide (be your guide)

So come and move your hips sing
Oa-ah-ah
Look at you two hips do it
La-la-la
You and me, can sing this melody

Owah-owah-ah-oh

Dance to the beat,
Wave your hands together
Come feel the heat, forever and forever.
Listen and Learn
It is time for prancing,
Now we are here with Caramel Dancing

O-o-owah-owah
O-o-owah-owah-ah-oh
O-o-owah-owah
O-o-owah-owah-ah-oh

From Sweden to Uk, we will bring our song.
Australia, USA, and you people at Hong Kong
They have heard,
This means all around the world.

O-o-owah-owah-ah-oh
Now come on and move your hips singing

Oa-ah-ah
Look at you two hips do it
La-la-la
You and me, can sing this melody

So come and
Dance to the beat
Wave your hands together
Come feel the heat, forever and forever.
Listen and Learn
It is time for prancing,
Now we are here with Caramel Dancing

Dance to the beat
Wave your hands together
Come feel the heat, forever and forever.
Listen and Learn
It is time for prancing,
Now we are here with Caramel Dancing

O-o-owah-owah
O-o-owah-owah-ah-oh
O-o-owah-owah
O-o-owah-owah-ah-oh

So come and
Dance to the beat
Wave your hands together
Come feel the heat, forever and forever.
Listen and Learn
It is time for prancing,
Now we are here with Caramel Dancing
Dance to the beat
Wave your hands together
Come feel the heat, forever and forever.
Listen and Learn
It is time for prancing,
Now we are here with Caramel Dancing

Caramelldansen Lyrics:

Doodo doo-oo
Yeah-eah-eah-eah

Vi undrarar ni redo alt vara med
Armarna upp nu ska ni fa se
Kom igjen
Hvem som helst kan vara med
So ror pa era fotter
O-a-a-a!
Och vicka era hofter
O-la-la-la!
Gjör som vi
Till denna melodi

Oh-ahh-ahh-ahh!
Dansa med oss
Klappa era händer
Gjör som vi gjör
Ta nagrå steg at vanster
Lyssna och lar
Missa inte chansen
Nu ar vi har med
Caramelldansen!

O-o-oa-oa
O-o-oa-oa - ao
O-o-oa-oa
O-o-oa-oa - ao

Det blir en sensation over alt forstås
Pa fester kommer alla att slappa loss
Kom igjen
Nu tar vi stegen omigjen
O-o-oa

Så rør pa era fötter
O-a-a-a
Och vricka era höfter
O-la-la-la
Gor som vi
Til denna melodi

Så kom och
Dansa med oss
Klappa era händer
Gjör so vi gjör
Tå några steg at vänster
Lyssna och lar
Miss inte chansen
Nu ar vi har med Caramelldansen!

Dansa med oss
Klappa era händer
Gjör so vi gjör
Ta negra steg at vänster
Lyssna och lar
Miss inte chansen
Nu ar vi har med Caramelldansen!

O-o-oa-oa
O-o-oa-oa - ao
O-o-oa-oa
O-o-oa-oa - ao

Så kom och
Dansa med oss
Klappa era hander
Gjör so vi gjör
Tå några steg at vanster
Lyssna och lar
Miss inte chansen
Nu ar vi har med Caramelldansen!

Dansa med oss
Klappa era händer
Gjör so vi gjör
Ta några steg at vanster
Lyssna och lar
Miss inte chansen
Nu ar vi har med CarameldDansen!

My roleplay character: Note, she is the ONLY rp chary I use for my RPs, unless I use a white wolf or a cat.