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Hello there. My name is Jessicka. I love to write, paint, draw, sleep, play the bass, take photos, make movies, play videogames, watch movies, listen to music, design clothes, and play on the computer. I love to RP, and in RL I play D&D and a few other systems: Palladium, Laodisia, World of Darkness, Call of Cthulu, Star Wars, Scion, Changeling. and quite a few others. I love to read as well. My favorite authors are Edgar Allan Poe, Anne Rice, Stephen King, Douglas Adams, J.R.R. Tolkien, H.P. Lovecraft, Brian Lumley, Jim Butcher, J.K. Rowling, and Brian Jaques. I have 4 dogs at my mother's house, 2 dogs at my dad's house, a cat, and a turtle. I love animals. I'm usually laid back, and i'm a lot less cynical than i used to be. I try to give everyone a chance, even if they act like idiots. *shrugs* Don't judge a book by its cover, etc, etc... Although i still can't stand those ScEmo brats >.> (that's me mashing Scene and Emo together, in case you couldn't piece it together).I fancy myself a writer, though the quality of tales is arguable. I love art, although apart from the mighty word processor my only artistic talent lies in photomanipulation.
I'm dangerously open about myself and my emotions. When I contemplate the fact that most people build their relationships and personalities on lies, I endeavor to be different. In regards to personality, I'm a laid-back dreamer. Part of my ambition is to settle down with a Life-Mate, as I despise my solitude. Do I Love? Yes, I do. Hopelessly. There's a certain knack I have for falling for Assholes, or the Unattainable. My current situation is favorable, however painful the knowledge that it's a facade is.
Imagination controls me. I am constantly in a state of daydreaming, even over reality. I can function in this world while off in my mind, having adventures or finding love. The two states of consciousness can be terribly annoying while overlapping, sometimes the fantasies can be crippling. It's all terribly lucid- i can feel them, taste them, hear them, smell them, see them. Although it lessens the boredom, it can be annoying.
I do not hide myself behind any false image. I wear my heart on my sleeve, so to speak, what you see is what get. I am terribly shy and child-like when nervous, I'm bright when I come out of my shell. I do not lie, I do not cheat, I do not steal. I am loyal to the bitter end to my family and friends, and especially my Lover (on the rare occasions I have one). I'd sacrifice anything and everything for the one I love. Music moves me. Books captivate me. I love discussions and debates. I love animals. When referring to dating, I'm more content to stay in, curl up with my Lover and watch movies than to go out. The little things mean more to me than gaudy displays of cash- a hug from behind, a surprise kiss, holding my hand... they're preferable to a fancy dinner or ugly jewelry. I never try to change my Lovers, and all I ask is loyalty and acceptance. When I was younger I was very dominant, but in the past few years I've shifted into submission. I hate being treated like an inferior in everyday situations, but I love it when my mate takes charge during romance.
I plan on attending college in the computer or editing field. I live with some friends of my mother's currently, although things got a bit hectic there recently so I'm seeking shelter at a friend's.
I am Gothic. Not because of the music I like or the clothes I wear. I have a different mindset than most teenage kids (Hot topic is NOT a Gothic store now, it's Emo. get over it). I believe that a Subculture is a state of mind, NOT a fashion statement, and NOT listening to one kind of music. More often than not, people claim to belong to a subculture due to clothing. it. is. Bullshit. Clothing is incidental. Same with music. I like a nice, diverse mix of things. it doesn't change who I am. I feel that your views, the way you look at every situation you come across, your ideals, your lusts, and your passions make you who you are. not how much money you have to spend on cheaply-made "alternative" clothing. I'm strongly Anti-Scene, Anti-Emo, and Anti-Idiocy. Go ahead and bash me for it, it's my opinion, and I'm entitled to it. I'm a hybrid, of Lolita and Victorian Goth, with a whole lot of geek mashed in there too, and I'm not painting on my eyebrows and spending 80 dollars on Dreadfalls, so if you wanna call me a fake because I don't look like you, go ahead, you're obviously lacking in the Intelligence department.
I speak German and French (not fluently, just enough to get by), and English. I'm 5'1", 140 lbs, with short black hair and hazel eyes. I live in Plainfield, Indiana. My best friend is miss Kala Guilluame, or Raz as we call her. My friends ARE my family. We're a very tight-knit group, very defensive of each other til the very end. I used to attend Broad Ripple High School. I was in Theatre and Humanties. I love science classes and theatre, and I'm pretty good at math. Please do not make any sexual comments towards me, as it's VERY rude, and please do not ask me for physical things. You will be turned down rather rudely, because it's rather annoying, and a slight against my morals. It's shallow.
I'm really not that interesting... I play alot of videogames. I love many different types... RPGs, Adventure, sci-fi, action, fantasy... I'm not gonna list what videogames i play, because there's a ton. i may not own alot, but i play alot. Thank god for rentals ^^. I'm A HUGE geek. I think I've said that alot.. oh well. My Geekiness knows no bounds. I'm the girl who gets excited over a Dragonlance book she's never read, over a convention, over new videogames and expansion packs, over learning a new RP system, over getting to read the new HackSLASH... I'm not racist, either, like some people. I think everyone deserves an equal chance in life, whether they be black, white, yelow, tan, green, magenta, sky blue... The computer pwns my life. Yes, Pwns, not Owns. I write poetry, I paint, I draw, I LOVE books, I like toast more than is humanly possible, I love the rain, and animals... I love to play D and D and all its derivations, especially the Buffy, Vampire Masquerade, and Call of Cthulu versions...Um.. I've never done drugs, by the way, and I never will. same for smoking. w00t for being a "Good Lil' Girl". At least in that sense. *giggles* Okay. I swear I'm done. Sorry for wasting your time.
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