Illusion of Innocence

Yunimori

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Through The Eyes of a Child

The journal of a child resigned to her fate. Neither living nor dead, lost in the world of the forgotten. Spurned by human and homunculi alike. Daring to survive. This is her story.

 

Who Am I?

"I know my Redeemer lives....He lives forever....My Savior and my friend."





My name is Yuni. I am 9 years old. I am a Homonculus; a Sin by the name of Agony.

I am alone.

I used to have a family...In a way, I suppose I still do. But how can I really be a little sister when their blood is no longer the same as mine?
I'll...I'll never grow up. I'll watch my brothers and sisters get older, but I'll never change. They'll just leave me behind again in the end...

I used to have a family.
I used to be a person instead of a 'monster'.
Now I can only dream about it.
Once upon a time...
But then again, everything begins with 'Once upon a time' , doesn't it?
Even dreams...

But dreams are only fairy tales, and fairy tales are lies.
Good doesn't win all the time, no matter how hard you try.
Darkness creeps in, blocking the light, and once again, a little bit of your soul dies.

Everything I once had...everyone I once loved...it's nothing more than a dream from a past life. I can never go back...I can't even die, now. Not without someone killing me the right way...and so far, no one knows what that is.

Not even me.

I'm a child who was never a child, and who can never grow up. I am less than a shadow, but more than nothing. I feel pain just like humans, but I no longer show it. Torment and Suffering are my constant companions, they who are part of the entity of me, yet separate, unseen. Voices in the night. Delighting in the pain inflicted on the world, whether small or great...caused by my hands at the bidding of the Elder Sins.
Envy.
Lust.
Greed.
Gluttony.
Sloth.
Pride.
Wrath.
They set the stage,They inflict the damage, They cause the first strike. They are the Actors. The hundreds of Sins beneath their status are the Chorus, the Extras, though They too, see the stage.
I am the Stage-Hand, the Assistant; the one that silently gives the Actors' performances the final touch, the one that finishes the job in the middle of the night, who never leaves the sides of the Players. I know each of Them, though never we see each others' faces. My touch is the last thing Their victims feel as Death takes his dues. They are my Fear, yet my Life. My existence depends on Them, though They cannot kill me. They revel in my existence, yet Their hatred of me causes fear, as well...not of the child, but of the Sin.
Should They die, I will be Their Guide, and Their Keeper. They will be unable to escape me, regardless of mine or Their wishes. They will hate me far more than now, and my fear of Them will increase the Agony I bring to Them.

I am the One That Follows After.
I am the Malingerer and the Guide to Death.
I am the Illusion of Sanity.

I am the sin of the Sins.

The family that was once my blood loves me, even with their knowledge of my Sins. And while a Sin's love is questionable, I love them still. It is this love that causes my avoidance, and prevents me from revealing to them the full extent of 'who' I am.

I'm not that cruel.

But.....even though I stay away for their own good.....

I'm lonely.

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Dark_Angel_Alchemist 07/17/2009 10:41 pm

*pokes back*

Grunnys_Rule_All 04/12/2009 8:08 pm

I FOUND A BLUE EGG ON TOP OF YOUR BLACK & RED STRIPED ONE!!!
IN YOUR POST!!
IT WAS LIKE A BULLS EYE!!!
AWSOME!!

Kurosaki_Blank 04/10/2009 4:37 pm

ty for being on the thread =)

CrystalAngelofMagic 03/14/2009 6:15 pm

"Jeweled Attitude" is awesome!

iSexyBear 12/24/2008 9:03 pm

Nice avi,and nice aquarimum

Gr3yfrost 08/03/2008 10:31 pm

Hey, I finally got this whole RPing thing down. You know how you've got the alchemist Cafe, right? I'm in a similar one that just started, and I'm the assistant manager. This is really cool stuff, I'm staying away from the chatterbox.

Gr3yfrost 07/20/2008 12:04 pm

Hey, Yuni. I'm Jon's new profile, cause I hated having "blackpond5" as a name. Add me if you get the chance, thanks.

Satzuni 06/17/2008 7:23 pm

*blinku*



*hugs*

Czaritsa 05/19/2008 5:45 pm

Haaay!!

I forgot you were on here.... (this is blindside from dA btw 8D;; )

Sin the Feline 12/31/2007 10:17 am

Always remember for 2008.... life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that made you smile! Send too all the people you love and care for, and dont want too lose in 2008 even me. ENJOY YOUR LAST DAY OF O7!

 

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