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Of all that I know that I want to give to the world and all that I want to be, I confess I don't know if I am capable. I don't care for money, fame, power. I just want to do something that is worthwhile for people. I don't know what it is or how I will accomplish that.

Also I find myself believing the best of people while knowing that is not true and not trusting anyone at the same time. I sometimes feel like a living oxymoron as a result.

I confess that I am letting everything I've wanted spiral out of my grasp because I am too afraid to commit myself to myself. I'm proud of who I am but ashamed of how I am, if that makes any sense.

People can walk over me pretty easily. But I let them. When I really want something and am motivated to achieve it, no one can stop me. I'm stubborn as hell when I bother.

Besides that, I wish I was a kid again. I'm an adult now (19), but never receive any respect from other adults because they believe I'm an airheaded and immature like most people they have encountered around my age, though I've always tried my hardest and made sacrifices when I had to. I received the same respect I do now when I was a kid and it was a hellova lot more fun.

Here are some of my favorite quotes:

"I like pigs. Dogs look up to us. Cats look down on us. Pigs treat us as equals." -Winston Churchill

"We are what we believe we are."-C. S. Lewis

"A fanatic is one who can't change his mind and won't change the subject." -Winston Churchill

"Better than a thousand hollow words is one word that brings peace." -Buddha

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A Thousand Ways To Kill Yourself and Never Ever Die

Dwelling without the clutter of a concious mind... ...in a place where there are no masks or lies.


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RedXMoonlight

08/26/2009 12:50 pm

RedXMoonlight

Hello! ^^ I came across your name while searching for people who are interested in roleplaying. A friend and I started a literate roleplaying site recently and we're looking for more members. Our open roleplays right now are Naruto and Harry Potter, but we have several more on the way. I would appreciate it if you browsed the site and considered joining. Feel free to comment back or PM me with any questions. 3nodding

http://justpretending.proboards.com/index.cgi
Pyris Dacalian

08/16/2009 6:22 pm

Pyris Dacalian

ello random person I havent seen or spoken to in a long time
Draculas-Mistress

05/21/2009 6:49 pm

Draculas-Mistress

Thanks.
Draculas-Mistress

05/20/2009 3:29 pm

Draculas-Mistress

Awesome profile.
Lyra Shay James

05/18/2009 1:06 pm

Lyra Shay James

yup
Lyra Shay James

05/17/2009 2:25 pm

Lyra Shay James

My Fake Fiance
Lyra Shay James

05/17/2009 2:24 pm

Lyra Shay James

Good. I had a date yesturday with my boy friend and then after that we came back to my house and layed together on the floor watching a movie.
Lyra Shay James

05/17/2009 2:20 pm

Lyra Shay James

Thank you so much for the kimono.
LilMissChocoLoco

05/17/2009 11:46 am

LilMissChocoLoco

Okay. Talk to you later, then! ^_^
LilMissChocoLoco

05/17/2009 11:39 am

LilMissChocoLoco

Definately no fun. I'm not a morning person either... I hope things are easier once your manager's back.

Enjoy your last few minutes to their fullest! =D

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