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Nunc lento sonitu dicunt, Morieris.
Now, this bell tolling softly for another says to me, thou must die.

Good evening humans, and welcome...enter with caution and at your own risk as you never know when i may decide to bite...if you are looking for someone to help you, you have come to the "right" place...but as there is really no such a thing as right and wrong, then that all depends on you...if you are looking for someone to...laugh at, dump ridiculous amounts of emotional weight on, stab in the back, stab in the heart, step on, rip apart verbally, abuse in every sense of the word, or just to sit there and listen and have your back...then you have come to the "right" place! go ahead do as you like! i do not mind nor care at all...for i will always love you...and forever hate you...i am your enemy and/or friend...take your pick...i can also be your worst night mare if you wish...what matters to me is to make you happy...and i will do what ever you wish me to…as long as you do not push me to the point beyond the edge, and I feel there is a risk of my demons coming out and hurting other humans or yourself...i will bleed for you gladly if necessary…as I said before, I have your back…it just all depends on if you want me there…or anywhere near you at all…now that we have that cleared up…if you care enough to step out of your pathetic…or rather I mean “perfect” little bubble inside your “perfect” little world to have the decency to care even the slightest bit about anyone else around you such as myself (if you do then I applaud you, for you are one of the few humans left in this rotting world who actually seems to “give a s**t” about anyone other then yourself anymore)…then here’s a little about myself……I am…what you would call “weird” or “a freak”…to myself however…I would hope to be worthy of the title “open-minded individual”…so I guess we’ll just settle for…”different”…I thoroughly enjoy Death! There is something…some sense of pleasure which I seem to find in the notion of the termination of human’s lives and the natural, wonderful cycle of life in general…Blood is the most delicious and beautiful thing I have ever known in my entire life! (meat is the second)….now, of course some of you, at this moment, may be saying things such as “ew” “what a freak” or perhaps even spewing such words as “what a vampire wanna be”…first of all…celebrating in my thirst for blood does not make me a “vampire wanna-be”…I am not really even sure what the hell “wanna-be” is…to me it is but a jumble of sounds, rather gibberish which on a daily basis I hear spewing from the mouths of those Barbie doll drones who walk about as if higher then all else and pollute this beautiful planet with their “society’s” rules…second of all…aspiring to be a vampire is certainly better then hoping to become one of the Barbie doll humans who are so very fake they themselves should be made of plastic…vampires put humans in their rightful place…not as the “high and mighty” top of the food chain where they allow there arrogance and ignorance to destroy all around them…but instead lowering them….making them real food…showing them that they are not only the farmers, but the cattle and sheep as well…I must tell you, that IF murder was legal I would indeed kill someone each day and eat their bodies…and their souls…as all humans do to almost all other edible life on this planet….but seeing as how its not…then I guess I’ll just have to wait…in the mean time…I shall be here for you if you need me…Now, (if you have even cared enough to read this far…) then either fear me and run away screaming, join me if I deem you open-minded enough, or continue on with your human lives not appreciating what it is to live life and continue on in your “perfect” little bubble under the rule of the disgusting human society…’tis your choice…and so I leave now to your deciding…Enjoy...

my poetry-

The night grows long,
My shadows grow strong,
None are able to hear my song,
My cries reach out into the night,
My body grows faint,
As it goes out of sight,

The light grows dim,
The end draws near,
I watch as my body just disappears,
All of my rage and all of my fears,
Come rushing out in a furry of tears,

Screaming and shouting inside of my head,
Can’t move as I am tied down with led,
They watch and they laugh,
As I sink so far down,
No one will know,
No one cares that I drown,

I can't help but give in,
The crushing darkness must win,
I am forced to recount every single sin,

I cry out with the searing pain,
The blood on my hands is beginning to stain,
I do believe that I am going insane,
In my mirror I don’t see my likeness,
I can't help but wonder as,
i am consumed by darkness...

some of my favorite quotes-
"can i borrow your pen? i need to stab you in the eye"
"no fair sky! i'm the one who feels like crying"
"I want to do my part to make the world a better place, but murder is illegal"
"It's a miracle that curiosity survives formal education." -Albert Einstein
"I don't discriminate. I hate everyone equally"
"Mankind has the incredible ability to reason logically and come to the wrong conclusion."
"I haven't failed a thousand times; I just have found a thousand ways that don't work."
"There's a smile on my face but I don't know why its there
I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care"
"The loneliest feeling in the world to be crying and no one is there for you."
"The room starts to spin as I lay on the floor.
I’m used to the chills; I’ve had them before.
I begin to drift away as my eyes begin to close.
Once again hiding what nobody knows.
I wake to a shouting voice; it's time for me to go;
Another day of hiding secrets that no one will ever know"
"To himself, everyone is immortal; he may know that he is going to die, but he can never know that he is dead."

love, hate, can't escape, consumed by fate