Well, I don't really consider such a thing as "life" to exist. I think "life" implies some kind of aphysical will behind things or as a part of things and that's something that doesn't exist. It's very easy to make things relative, bring them to a human level.. because you have to do that in this gigantic and chaotic universe.. but on a non-human level, we're just smaller things interacting with each other. They say that every 7 years, all the atoms in your body have completely changed. They're off somewhere else... And everyone has lots of atoms in their body that other people had at some point. I think that's a good way to put it though, life is just change, like everything else.. but it's easy to be fooled by a "consciousness" that isn't actually there.
I think it's easier to be open or even blunt with people on the internet. There's no physical representation of anyone.. just a sea of people that you can instantly meet or leave.
I can understand that, I just don't know if I can do it that way. I guess I feel like I'd be lying to myself. I have a pretty lonely philosophy about life.. but I'm always on the fence of being a "normal, driven, motivated" human, or being honest and seeing that there's nothing of true importance in life. When I'm in the state of mind that nothing's important.. it's too corrosive with other people in general to maintain any level of true honesty or sincerity in social situations. My social life has very much suffered and basically disappeared because of it.. I can't tell whether I like it better this way or not.
Hmm.. you're probably right, heh. It's not that I try to seem antisocial, that's just kind of how it happened. Maybe it was just too many years of feeling intellectually distanced from most of the kids I grew up around. I don't want to say I developed contempt for them, I just kind of withdrew into myself because of it. Shrug. The internet is definitely nice, you can easily find someone who you can understand and get along with well out of millions of people.. if only it were like that in real life wink
I can't really help it. You could say it's not good but I am in the end misanthropic, cynical, vicarious, etc. Society and humanity has annoyed me so much that I've become this way. There's just so many things not to like for someone like me. In a way I think I might be better off if I wasn't like that, but then again I feel that it makes me who I am in a way and so I don't think it's all bad. It's not that I can't get along with anyone, only that the type of people I can truly enjoy being around are pretty few and far between.
I'm doing pretty good, although I have had a sore throat for 2 weeks now.. I guess I will have to stop by the doctor soon..
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