Thanks for the Happy Birthday Chupii I am sorry it's taken me so long to reply but I haven't had much time for Gaia lately. I miss talking to you, RPing with you and Private Messaging you are a few things that I remember fondly about Gaia
Your certinally welcome, if its one thing I can do right, its being there for my friends when they need me most. Though, I also have a tendency to upset people without realizing it, it happens with my two best friends a lot. I mean I will do something that seems like fun or innocent and yet it upsets one of them some how. Its not like I purposely do it, it just happens. Ans thanks I will keep that in mind :3
Well, panic attacks cause the body to like go rapid, so if I panicked enough I think I could have a heart attack and that would be bad, but just having a panic attack with nothing to really harm myself, no I can not die from it. Hey it was fine example as any XD It just shows NOTHING in life is normal and I do not care what anyone continues to say, there's not. Honestly, I can say, I try and hide when I am upset a lot from people, but they can tell something is going on and I rarely ever cry in front of someone cept my two best friends, I hate making them both worry, but it just slips out a lot and then they really worry about me, which I hate. But, they can not help it, they are just being friends, I am the same way friends and my brother are all I have in this world now, so I naturally care about them a lot, they have helped me so many times in my life, that I owe it all to them. I care about them more then myself. Well, that is a fine example when to use the word perfect, because that would be more of a expression people use for something they are really passionate about or like. Dounuts are awesome XD Regardless if they make ya fat or not XD Oh that is totally fine, I do not mind you liking things like that, I have always had a innocent mind, but then again I was mentally scared by things my step-brother and an ex-boyfriend had done to me when I was younger, I have no desire for sexual activity, but being 21 does not mean that I do not have the urge for certain things, which I feel awkward for. I do not watch porn, because I was forced to when I was younger and it bothers me now, but hey you like what you do. Honestly, there is nothing wrong with that, its only a problem till things get really outta hand and even then, if things keep you happy, I think it is ok unless its hurting yourself or others then its a problem and that would be more towards when people try to like commit suicide or homicide, stuff like that. But, being into porn? Theres no problem with that. My best friend has had sexual urges since she was 11 years old and she is 18 now, she has more testosterone in her body then females should which results her in having very little peroids, so she has more of a males like views on sex, because of that all. She watches porn and hentai whenever she can and she has since she was like 13. So, really its totally fine to me. Drawing is nice, I wish I still could draw, but like one day I just could not draw as well as I had before, it was really werid and no matter how hard I tried it never came back, so I just sorta gave up on it. I know what being a perv is like, I may not be sexual and stuff like that, but I can be one serious perverse person XD Its bad, let me tell you XD I try not to be that way, but being 21 and how my life has been I know a heck of a lot more then I really want to know. Roleplaying is a great way to get your mind off stuff, I used to do it a lot, but now I just got so depressed not even that was helping anymore, I started AMV making more and that really helped speically once I got my Sony Vegas program and everything. I want to rp again, because I feel bad making people wait on me, but I just have no jive about 75% of the time any more >< I still join rps, because I am asked to, but I just get so slow and honestly do not mean to, I LOVE I mean LOVE to roleplay, but I have just been out of it so much lately, it is honestly scary for me. Roleplaying is a great stress reducer and its fine, thats why I do it. I cosplay as well, because I love feeling like I am in the characters literal shoes, I am always gonna be an anime fan, its one of the few things in my life that I have a major passion for that I love so much, I have been a fan for 12 years and i know it will never leave me. Yes, as long as we get back up again, then we are able to become stronger then the last time. And I know what you mean, I have felt that way for awhile now, but if I totally lose it, I am gonna end up in a freaking mental hospital and I do not want that. I can...can not leave my brother here...no not alone with my mother...I just can not.
Well good luck yet again =D And yes, I have ADHD its both a blessing and a curse to me XD But, yeah, my friends always joke about how I would drive and its sad that I acutally agree with them XD Well, thats the thing I have an unknown illness with my body no doctor cares to find out about, because my stuff has come back normal, so I have no idea what the hell is going on and it honestly scares me, thats one of the million things I have going on right now, but I do not worry about it much, I have it for almost 2 years now, so I learned to cope with it. And it made perfect sense do not worry :3 And because, its the start of the steps of doing something with your life that will effect it forever, like getting a lience and having that bit of freedom. And from then on things just seem different in the world at least they did to me. My favorite age is 17 and I dunno it was just a interesting age XD
Uggg, I have a bad sore throat and cold AGAIN, this is like the 3rd time since the Winter started that this has happened, I feel like crap, so much I do not wanna go to work today x-x;
I see now, I understand you are not saying anything as you said, for our reasons, but if you ever want to talk you can drop me a pm, I am not gonna judge you or anything, I like to be there and listen to my friends. *hugs* I know how that feels, sometimes I feel as though my soul or whatever you want to call it is just hallow and I am just a being standing there, its werid.
Well at least you understand, evne though I have not explained anything. And panic attacks are not fun, at all. I had them a lot for awhile, then they went away and now they have started up again. And thanks, I am at my insane-sane mode xD There is no such thing as normal, so I never even say I am at my normal just my sane-insane mode XD Yeah, no one is perfect and everyone has at least one mental struggle they deal with and I do not believe people when they say they do not, struggles are part of being human, not struggling and that just makes you perfect and no one is perfect and if they are, they are sure as hell not human. I see, I am not gonna pry on what you mean by that unless you wanna tell me, its your personal business its just rude asking. Its the best we can do, is be strong, even if things like the worst.
Aww thanks XD And I do not drive, to afraid of being in a car accident, never even tried driving. I have really bad ADHD, so knowing me I would see like a freaking butterfly and lose focus and crash x-x; Well good luck with it all regradless <3 And well thanks XD I just feel...sorta old xD; I think 16 is a good age :3
As long as it will get fixed if you do that, I just hope it all gets better <3
Yeah, I am going through a lot of stuff, left and right, I mean I think I will be ok, but sometimes I wonder, I get to the point I can not take it anymore and I really do not have control of my thoughts anymore, that did not happen for a long while till the other day and I had a massive panic attack over something really small and I just like lost it. I honestly, am scared, but right now I seem alright, overly paranoid as always, but ok. I am just a mental case is all XD No need to worry about it, its juts how I am XD; And I am trying to stay strong as best I can ^^
Oh thats awesome 8D I feel ackward saying I am 21 now xD
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Thanks for the Happy Birthday Chupii I am sorry it's taken me so long to reply but I haven't had much time for Gaia lately. I miss talking to you, RPing with you and Private Messaging you are a few things that I remember fondly about Gaia
Your certinally welcome, if its one thing I can do right, its being there for my friends when they need me most. Though, I also have a tendency to upset people without realizing it, it happens with my two best friends a lot. I mean I will do something that seems like fun or innocent and yet it upsets one of them some how. Its not like I purposely do it, it just happens. Ans thanks I will keep that in mind :3
Well, panic attacks cause the body to like go rapid, so if I panicked enough I think I could have a heart attack and that would be bad, but just having a panic attack with nothing to really harm myself, no I can not die from it. Hey it was fine example as any XD It just shows NOTHING in life is normal and I do not care what anyone continues to say, there's not. Honestly, I can say, I try and hide when I am upset a lot from people, but they can tell something is going on and I rarely ever cry in front of someone cept my two best friends, I hate making them both worry, but it just slips out a lot and then they really worry about me, which I hate. But, they can not help it, they are just being friends, I am the same way friends and my brother are all I have in this world now, so I naturally care about them a lot, they have helped me so many times in my life, that I owe it all to them. I care about them more then myself. Well, that is a fine example when to use the word perfect, because that would be more of a expression people use for something they are really passionate about or like. Dounuts are awesome XD Regardless if they make ya fat or not XD Oh that is totally fine, I do not mind you liking things like that, I have always had a innocent mind, but then again I was mentally scared by things my step-brother and an ex-boyfriend had done to me when I was younger, I have no desire for sexual activity, but being 21 does not mean that I do not have the urge for certain things, which I feel awkward for. I do not watch porn, because I was forced to when I was younger and it bothers me now, but hey you like what you do. Honestly, there is nothing wrong with that, its only a problem till things get really outta hand and even then, if things keep you happy, I think it is ok unless its hurting yourself or others then its a problem and that would be more towards when people try to like commit suicide or homicide, stuff like that. But, being into porn? Theres no problem with that. My best friend has had sexual urges since she was 11 years old and she is 18 now, she has more testosterone in her body then females should which results her in having very little peroids, so she has more of a males like views on sex, because of that all. She watches porn and hentai whenever she can and she has since she was like 13. So, really its totally fine to me. Drawing is nice, I wish I still could draw, but like one day I just could not draw as well as I had before, it was really werid and no matter how hard I tried it never came back, so I just sorta gave up on it. I know what being a perv is like, I may not be sexual and stuff like that, but I can be one serious perverse person XD Its bad, let me tell you XD I try not to be that way, but being 21 and how my life has been I know a heck of a lot more then I really want to know. Roleplaying is a great way to get your mind off stuff, I used to do it a lot, but now I just got so depressed not even that was helping anymore, I started AMV making more and that really helped speically once I got my Sony Vegas program and everything. I want to rp again, because I feel bad making people wait on me, but I just have no jive about 75% of the time any more >< I still join rps, because I am asked to, but I just get so slow and honestly do not mean to, I LOVE I mean LOVE to roleplay, but I have just been out of it so much lately, it is honestly scary for me. Roleplaying is a great stress reducer and its fine, thats why I do it. I cosplay as well, because I love feeling like I am in the characters literal shoes, I am always gonna be an anime fan, its one of the few things in my life that I have a major passion for that I love so much, I have been a fan for 12 years and i know it will never leave me. Yes, as long as we get back up again, then we are able to become stronger then the last time. And I know what you mean, I have felt that way for awhile now, but if I totally lose it, I am gonna end up in a freaking mental hospital and I do not want that. I can...can not leave my brother here...no not alone with my mother...I just can not.
Well good luck yet again =D And yes, I have ADHD its both a blessing and a curse to me XD But, yeah, my friends always joke about how I would drive and its sad that I acutally agree with them XD Well, thats the thing I have an unknown illness with my body no doctor cares to find out about, because my stuff has come back normal, so I have no idea what the hell is going on and it honestly scares me, thats one of the million things I have going on right now, but I do not worry about it much, I have it for almost 2 years now, so I learned to cope with it. And it made perfect sense do not worry :3 And because, its the start of the steps of doing something with your life that will effect it forever, like getting a lience and having that bit of freedom. And from then on things just seem different in the world at least they did to me. My favorite age is 17 and I dunno it was just a interesting age XD
Uggg, I have a bad sore throat and cold AGAIN, this is like the 3rd time since the Winter started that this has happened, I feel like crap, so much I do not wanna go to work today x-x;
I see now, I understand you are not saying anything as you said, for our reasons, but if you ever want to talk you can drop me a pm, I am not gonna judge you or anything, I like to be there and listen to my friends. *hugs* I know how that feels, sometimes I feel as though my soul or whatever you want to call it is just hallow and I am just a being standing there, its werid.
Well at least you understand, evne though I have not explained anything. And panic attacks are not fun, at all. I had them a lot for awhile, then they went away and now they have started up again. And thanks, I am at my insane-sane mode xD There is no such thing as normal, so I never even say I am at my normal just my sane-insane mode XD Yeah, no one is perfect and everyone has at least one mental struggle they deal with and I do not believe people when they say they do not, struggles are part of being human, not struggling and that just makes you perfect and no one is perfect and if they are, they are sure as hell not human. I see, I am not gonna pry on what you mean by that unless you wanna tell me, its your personal business its just rude asking. Its the best we can do, is be strong, even if things like the worst.
Aww thanks XD And I do not drive, to afraid of being in a car accident, never even tried driving. I have really bad ADHD, so knowing me I would see like a freaking butterfly and lose focus and crash x-x; Well good luck with it all regradless <3 And well thanks XD I just feel...sorta old xD; I think 16 is a good age :3
As long as it will get fixed if you do that, I just hope it all gets better <3
Yeah, I am going through a lot of stuff, left and right, I mean I think I will be ok, but sometimes I wonder, I get to the point I can not take it anymore and I really do not have control of my thoughts anymore, that did not happen for a long while till the other day and I had a massive panic attack over something really small and I just like lost it. I honestly, am scared, but right now I seem alright, overly paranoid as always, but ok. I am just a mental case is all XD No need to worry about it, its juts how I am XD; And I am trying to stay strong as best I can ^^
Oh thats awesome 8D I feel ackward saying I am 21 now xD
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Aww, well I hope things are getting better for you <3
And honestly, I have been through a lot of crap ups and downs, still going through a lot, but trying to hang in there, but I will be ok =D
OMG! CHUPII! I MISSED YOU! <3 How ya been? =D
Happy Birthday's Eve! mrgreen
Hey! 8D It has been forever <3 How are ya?
Oh, thank you xd
lol Killing threads is fun sometimes unless you're interested in receiving feedback
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you been a member for more than 2 years thats a long time