About

In the wilderness the only place to find freedom is in the dictionary
under "F"
men in holes, men in caves, men in chains I ask but the store clerk needn't check
man I forget which came first
the bad idea or me befallen by it?
not giving a sh--
may we never forget you

In the wilderness
senile live the zealous
lost to the treasures that compel us
muted down like patriots amiss
you know I'm jealous of how you can just turn them off
those bad ideas that feel so soft
may they never forget you
- MG

Y hallo thar.

My name is Tonya, but you can call me Fee (German for fairy, pronounced: Fay), or Tillow. I'm a 22 year old college student, although I'm taking a break until next fall as I've just gotten married this past June and am in the process of moving... I grew up in VA, went to college first in NC, then in WI, and now I'm living in WA. My husband's retiring from the Navy in January, so we'll be moving again soon... so yeah... no point in doing many things until then. xD

I'm a dual citizen of Switzerland (Bern canton) and the U.S. I grew up in Fairfax, VA, and am now living in Oak Harbor, WA - soon to be living in either Portland, OR or Vancouver, WA after January 14th. I speak English and German fluently, and am in the process of learning French and Russian, and would also love to learn Swedish, Finnish, Icelandic, Welsh, Punjabi, Japanese, Farsi, Italian, and many other languages. I have a knack for it, so why not?

I'm bipolar type II (I have many more manic lows than manic highs). The doctors told my parents that I was just a shy little kid and that I would grow out of it, but I never did... so it progressed, and when I was 17 years old I had my first major anxiety attack. Parents being parents and not wanting to believe that there was something wrong with their "strong kid" (my sister's a winer), they just ignored it and got angry when I even just brought it up. When I was 19 I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and panic attack / general anxiety disorder, but after a million trials of different medicines and cocktails, I was finally diagnosed with bipolar II when I was 22... just this past July, actually. So that accounts for just about every weird emotion and thought that I've ever had. HURRAH. I'm very good at listening and talking, so if you have any problems you want to talk about (sometimes it's easiest to talk to a stranger about things), feel free to PM me.

I don't know what I want to be when I'm finished with College, but I know I want to have 2 kids and be a SAHM while their between the ages of newborn and 8, just to get them started with a healthy mom-kid bond. I like belly dancing though, so I might become an instructor and performer, but I also like languages, so I might also be a language immersion teacher for adults.

I was born into a non-practicing Mormon family (my parents joined a sect near our home because it was a popular fad religion in the 80s), but they ended up seriously hating it because they had to give up everything that they loved, so they left. Thankfully I was never baptized, and I am now a practicing Neo-Pagan.

Likes: Belly dancing, languages, linguistics, history, reading, drawing, painting, making my own clothes, watching weird movies, playing videogames (currently playing WoW and tekken 6 on xbox live), Indian food, exercising, being in the outdoors when it's actually nice out (it rains basically 24/7 in WA, year-round), meeting new people - although I'm very shy, traveling, anything 1920's-1940's pop culture, old movies, jazz, jazz fusion, bluegrass, heavy metal, snow and ice, Autumn, Halloween and Christmas, geosystems, astronomy, clubbing...

Dislikes: Feet, mathematics, green beans, fast food, soda, people who do too many drugs or drinks too much, people who wear clothes that are at least 3 sizes too small for them, talking about politics or religion because it always just ends up becoming an argument that goes nowhere.

I like music... I have quite an eclectic taste in music, so outside of country, rap, and emo music, I'm set. xD

Moo.