About

Current Status
The guns are set off again...

They dodge and scatter, another crash and another collapse
The main room stained with the smell of poison, but no one tried to stop it
Atmospheres are falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces
He does nothing to hold back her tears, every word seeping from his mouth excuses

excuses excuses excuses

And the one day that everything seems to be caving in
The one day I need the smallest sign of life from the tips of your fingers
1:47pm... The time nearly redundent

My family is dying
My mother is crying
My family has died
And I wish I had cried

But these tears lock into my skull

...I need you... I need you...


Hello! My Name is... Well too bad, I don't want to tell u! ha! now i got u wondering! XD
Sucks for u!!

Anyway...

I got this result on a quiz, and it describes me almost perfectly

Sensitivity- Your inner power is Sensitivity! You are true to your heart, and probably a hopeless romantic. Everyone loves you for your gentle ways and kind words, and you are brilliant with animals and young children. Youre very sweet and caring, and you have friends who love you, who are always there to support you and hold you when your fragile heart is broken. You are most likely often found daydreaming about your life and your future, and you have a talent for dealing with kids, all of which adore you, even if youve only been around them for five minutes. Youre the one your friends turn to when they need a shoulder to cry on, and a kind word to get them smiling again. You are lovable, compassionate, and seek to make the world a better place. You will go far in life for sure. You go girl!
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: The romantic, sweet guy/girl that every girl dreams of at some stage in their life. You just love the way he/she treats you as you are the most precious, important girl in the world, and the way you know hell/shell never cheat on you.
Your stone/jewel: Calcite
Your power: Love. You can make the most revengeful person mellow, and have a talent for being a brilliant match maker.
Your element: Earth
A quote that applies to you: "When you step to the ledge of all the light you have left, and you take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you might believe one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you step upon, or you will learn how to fly."


Dream Avitars

Total Value: 424,349 Gold
[Item Information]

Item List:
Superior Form
Pora Ice (on my head) 3rd gen.
Summoning Tome
Enchanted Book 3rd Gen.
Devil Imp Plushie
Prism Butterfly Mantilla
Rock Hard
Angel Imp Plushie
Demonic Anklets
Gothic Veil
Gothic Veil
Gothic Veil
Oculus Mythica


Total Value: 225,960 Gold
After Exclusions: 90,269 Gold
[Item Information]

Item List:
KoNfUzEd MoNoChRoMe ToE SoX
Black Web Bustier
Black Leather Strapped Manties
Summoning Tome
Summoning Tome
Rock Hard
Demonic Anklets
Demonic Anklets
Raven Black Kachina Dancer\'s Wings
Heart of Gold
Chain Of Command
Broken Heart Mood Bubble
Vampire Bite Marks
Oculus Mythica
Bloody Upper Arm Bandage
Bloody Head Bandage
Bloody Arm Bandage






Now... I'll attempt to explain me in as little detail as possible, for I am a very confusing person.

First the basic
Age: Ask me and I'll tell you, if I want to
Location: Yeah right, like I'd tell you that
Name: Just call me Muffin, Kitty, Ninja or a combo of the many
Current Fav songs: Out Tonight - Rent, At The Ballet - N/A, Sit and Listen to the Rain - Ryan Adams, Shake It - Metro Station, Gay Boy Friend - The Hazzards
Fav. Color: Purple
Fav. thing to do: Smile (rare), sing, wonder
Fav. thing to see: The "New Message" alert at the top of my screen, and the beautiful stars in the sky
Fav. thing to smell: Cookies in the oven, and popcorn from the microwave, spring winds, ocean breezes
Fav thing to touch (I am aware it sounds slightly perverted, just shut up, and read!): Sand, Water, Fuzzy Caterpillars, and Fuzzy Blankets, the warmth of hugs
Fav. Foods: Baked Goods, Popcorn, Gum (if it counts), Blood
Fav. Animal: Kitten, Frog, Seal, Bat, Giant South American Cow Bird (random order)
Fav. Bug: Caterpillar(sp?), Slug/Snail, Worms , Moths, Spiders and Ants
Fav. Time of Day: Night, when the stars are out <3
Fav. Location: On my Roof outside my window, or on my computer talking to the ones close to me ^^
Fav. Person: idk...
Fav. Flower: Dried red roses (if they had black, then dried black roses) ((I collect them ))
Fav. thing I own: This computer! Connects me to so many wonderful things and people
Fav. "Magical" place: My desk of history, my piano, and the space in front of my tv (shut up, its very magical )

Heres a TekTek of Myself


We see these people walking by
Brushing our bags
Tapping our shoulder
But what history lies behind them

We see these people walking by
Hiding their tears
Grinding their teeth
But what do we do to help

We see these people walking but
With tears in their eyes
And a broken heart in their chest
But what can we do to help

We saw those people walking by
With tears in their eyes
And a broken heart in their chest
But what did we do to help

....Nothing....

As seen above, I enjoy writing poems
Sometimes they take years for a simple line
Sometimes I can't type them down fast enough
But whenever, They each have a lesson from their journey from my toes, to my heart, to my mind, and back down into my heart and out my hands onto a surface that the human eye can see

Inside my mind, there are many voices
I know I may sound insane
But its in everyone

I originally thought there where three, but now I see there are more then that. One for every distinct mood... But I could never really name them all

So I'll stick with the original three...
Voice one is what you see and hear for the most part
It is crazy, and random
It is the fake smile on my face almost every day to cover the pieces inside still broken from my shattered childhood that, not even in a journal, or a story, can I describe the true pain and memories inside... It is me
(pic of voice 1, or me)


Voice two knows right from wrong
I cannot lie to it
But it is understanding to myself, and doesn't care about anyone else but me, and occasionally who ever I love deeply and spend half my time thinking about, and the other half trying not to, so I can focus in school or in anything really...
voice to is my conscience as well. If I did something wrong, It bugs me to say sorry. It can drive me insane until I say sorry...
It also tells me to make someones day. All those good deeds. hug someone, love someone, care for someone... you get the point
(pic of voice two, or the things that I would see it closest to)



Voice three is the messed up me. The one that holds grudges, and hates all those little things in life. It is building up, because I am too scared that if i let too much out, I could hurt my friends, and family. It is bleeding and torn. It hates everything but the one I would ever consider to kiss or love who is nonbiologicly related to me (not related to me)
In other words, the person I would want to be my bf, or is my bf
If it ever does, it hurts more and I can't forgive myself. Not unless that someone says they forgive me...
It hurts inside. It holds all the deadly sins. The worst hit it takes is Envy. This is because I don't have many things in my life I would consider fighting for. If one of these is bothered or threatens to be taken away or leave, I freak... I can't really help it. I just do. The other sins dont really bother me much.
(pics. of voice three)




Under these three voices, is my soul. I'd say voice two is effected by voice three and my soul. The soul makes it kind, and voice three, weak. My soul is no longer clean and perfect. I have been broken (And whom ever you are, it isn't your fault. Don't you dare blame urself) It bleeds, while it trys to see the good in life. It is my heart and I cannot live without it. It is scared by names like "It, ex-girlfriend, annoying, weird, wtf is wrong with you, insane, she's lost it, loser, b***h" and the worst of them all
"Freak"
It hurts and it's hard to ignore...
Those are most of my scars.
Then there is my family, and stepmom who wants me to care more about looks, and less about individuality. Yes, I do not like her. She is the last person to understand. And so my Dad married her and forced me to see her every Wensday and on the weekends.

Anyway, my soul is the best part of me, despite the scars, but the only time I can feel the freedom and happiness it brings is through a kiss, or a hug. A sign of affection or love...

That's really all I want...

(pic. of soul, or as close as I can imagine it in human form)



This is my Tally Section
Its a (xxestimatedxx) number of how many times i have done the following, or someone did the following to me...

Tried to help someone
lllll lllll l

Managed to help that person
lllll l

Helped someone on accident
lll

Tried to kill myself
llll

Cried myself to sleep
lllll lll

Fell asleep on my computer
ll

Erased myself
l

Danced in the rain
lllll lllll

Books read since 5th grade
lllll lllll lll

Times had my heart broken
lllll

Times someone fixed it
lll


Times I felt peaceful at heart
lll

Times my smile wasn't fake
lllll l (Thank you ninja)


Now Time For Some of My Very Simple TekTeks
You Can Make Then Without Much Thought
I Just Like To Look At Them

Soilder (sp?)



Basic Fairy

Prisoner


Angel (to others point of veiw)
Female


Dark Vampire


One Little Pixie


Vampire Hunter (NOOO)


Rusty TT~TT


I love this one ^_^


Ballerina


Fire Flower


Artist



RANDOM PICTURE TIME
(because my pro won't let me post anymore pics from photo bucket on it)
lol


I so agree with this one:


Naruto Madness








(Isn't it so cute!!)




CANDY


Cookie... O.O


Its so pretty...








I hope this doesn't happen again...


Pointless much...


I love this one


Bob Deserved it, remember I have a Spatula


*holds up food-related-wepon*


ATTACK!!


Aren't I!! LOL


For Me and Maria!!


For me and the rest of the world
To be and soon to be


LOL

Without one there wouldn't be the other

Good


and

Evil

(I love how it looks <3)

Death


Life (I'm aware it's simple)


Cold


Warmth



While talking to someone I remebered my mode system, my modes are basicly the things I commenly enjoy doing through out the day... They change like every couple months, so if u want to know what I'm into right now, just check here
Current modes: Singing, Drawing, Editing Pictures, Being Cold in my over ACed room, Spinning in cricles, hugging people <3, Hoping

This was one of those, "send this to everyone you know" comments, but I like this one

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Makes me feel good...

Quote of the period of time (may be made by me, or come from an unknown or unimportant thing or place): As she dance around the courtyard, I knew I would make her mine


Here
My friend made a quiz ^_^ It's pretty good
You should take it!

http://quizilla.com/users/SuperVamprieNinja/quizzes/What type of Vampire Are You? (decent results)/

In 1976, a Los Angeles secretary named Jannene Swift officially married a fifty pound rock. More than twenty people witnessed the ceremony.

Thats true! No lie XD So weird isn't it!
She is such a winner

Not for the tradional Hate/Love thing

Loves (as in things, not people)
Music
Video games
Naruto
Christmas
The Internet
Gaia
Angel Wings
Animals (KITTIES!! XD)
Helping Others
Figuring out that immpossible and lingering question
Relizing I got it right (mostly in math XD)
Being hugged
Watching old TV shows from when I was five with my little sister, Grace (shes four, not Gracem on Gaia) like Winnie the Pooh
Playing the Piano (mostly the song My Heart Will Go On)
Eating (my deadly sin ;_; But, no, I am not a fatso XD)
Reading
Writing
Sleeping
Typing
Talking
Jumping on the trampoline
Playing with Cats
Acting random (LIKE A NINJA MUFFIN QUEEN!!)
Being reconized for something I did without thinking, or much effort
Readin something twice and seeing my opinions change
Fishies!!! (GO ZEEKY!!)
Fantasy creatures *points out "dragon" in my name*
Day dreaming
Remembering things in the past (like, not a month ago, but like years)
Drawing/Doodling
Almost All Music (except for Rap)
Vampires
Ninjas
Ninja Kitties
randomly colored socks
Individuality
(sorry if any repeated)

Hates:
People who don't accept me for who I am
Stubbing my toe (owwy!)
Telling yourself not to eat too much, and breaking it almost right away
Crying over something stupid
Spending so much time on something, and giving it your all just to relize it was worthless, or canceled
Having ur best friend go off to find themself and classify whats inmportant to them, and being all alone trying as hard as possible not to think of them, but end up thinking about them more then ever
Having a Friend Move away
Wishing for something everyday, and just have the oppisit happen
Thinking of something nice to do, but miss your chance to do it
Hearing noises from nothing, and getting freaked out
Having a cat jump on you at 2 am and keep you up for an hour
Bees!!
White Socks
Valentines Day
Will, When he won't shut up <.< (He's GOING TO BE BI!!!)
Rap music

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This is Hope


Love Hope
She loves to sleep, but there's room for you in her heart too

I took two amazing tests and this was my results




lol, I re-took the test a year later, and these were my new results


For every boy, who wants to let her know he loves her
I thought it was the sweetest thing, and I almost cried when I read it...

Sadly there is almost no man on this planet with that much love in his heart...


So, for all you guys

Are you going to be an almost?
Don't wait
If your not, become one
<3 </3



Emotional?