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People call me Kittie. I’m 20 years old and am engaged to my wonderful fiance, Kenny-kun0817 IRL. I attend Rasmussen college and am going for my degree in Medical Assisting, then going back for my RN. My fiance and my mom are my life, along with my twinneh, Blackrose332. She is the bestest friend anyone can ask for and no one can take her place!!!

I have 8 special needs cats: Lulu (one-eyed calico), Tigra (6-toed brown tabby), Gremlin (whiney grey tabby with a abnormally long tail), Fanta (short orange nubby tailed bobtail), Fuzz (orange half-tailed tabby), Tigger (orange half-tailed tabby), Little b*****d (paranoid schizophrenic brown and grey tabby with a skinny tail), and Patches (Al Queda/Terrorist/Scooter; tortoise shell grey kitten with orange spots everywhere that looks like someone sprinkled bleach on her with a nubby tail).

Birthday: 9/26/89
Age: 20
Relationship Status: Engaged to Kenny-kun0817
Education: Medical Assisting
Academic Achievements: Director’s List (4.0 GPA)
Anything else, message me =)

On to my views!!!!

When it rains, it's the best weather. When it rains...each individual rain drop that falls on you is a tear. A tear that washes away all your sins. All your regrets. All your worries. All you fears. With each falling drop comes the purity that's able to wash away all the negativity. With all of the fleeting negativity, comes hope. Happines. Positivity.
If the tears don't fall on you, all your sins will continue to reside within your body, always haunting you and clouding your mind from making new experiences. If you shun the purity, you shun a chance for a new life. If that happens...your chances to find happiness are limited. Without happiness...the body shuts down and the soul retreats into itself, never again welcoming this feeling we know as love and happiness. Never again getting the chance to experience joy...sorrow...all the emotions that make up our humanity
If we lose our humanity...then, and only then, are we ever truly monsters. Monsters with no soul. No heart. No emotions. So unwelcoming of happiness that awaits us. That's why I love the rain. It washes away that which the eye cannot see. It helps me let go of things I don't want to remember. It helps me start over. Helps me forget all my mistakes, all my regrets...everything...

But there is another view...

The rain is known to wash away certain things such as worries, fears, awful experiences...but for me, it just reminds me of the painful memories that I've tried so hard to forget. When the rain falls on me, it's like each raindrop is a separate memory that haunts me. All of them are crashing over me at once. And won't let up no matter how much I want it to.

No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to win. No matter how hard I look, I can never truly see. No matter how much I love, I'm never loved back. Is this the future? Is this what fate holds for me? To be forever loving, but never loved? If this is what happens whenever I open up my heart to someone, then maybe I should stay alone and cut off all communications with others.





Nagareboshi ni yume wo takushite
I entrust my dream to a shooting star

Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
I want you to love me, but I don't think you will



"Love?"

I stole my mother's life at birth
and as Kazekage's son
I was overprotected, spoiled, and left alone
I thought that was love

Until that accident happened

These past six years...
my father tried to assassinate me several times
So why do I exist and live?
I asked myself that question
but I could not find an answer

But I need those reasons while I am still alive!
Or it would be the same as being dead
And this is what I concluded:

I exist to kill everyone other than me
I fight only for myself
and I only love myself
As long as there are people to kill in this world
To make me experience the joy of living
My existence will remain

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Kokurai_Alchemist

12/21/2009 8:21 pm

Kokurai_Alchemist

whats up anie-san?
Jokersfire

12/21/2009 3:41 pm

Jokersfire

=(^.^)=
Jokersfire

12/21/2009 11:50 am

Jokersfire

Hope you like your gift.
UndauntedShadow

12/20/2009 11:31 am

UndauntedShadow

k
UndauntedShadow

12/20/2009 11:28 am

UndauntedShadow

me too. how much was the goat?
UndauntedShadow

12/20/2009 11:23 am

UndauntedShadow

a little, hope everything is going well
UndauntedShadow

12/20/2009 9:33 am

UndauntedShadow

Hello. How are you
UndauntedShadow

12/19/2009 7:36 pm

UndauntedShadow

Hey
Jokersfire

12/18/2009 8:50 pm

Jokersfire

Okay Ill be there soon Thank you so much Kitty for coming
Jokersfire

12/18/2009 8:46 pm

Jokersfire

http://www.gaiaonline.com/launch/towns?&house_location=17292037&9nlirxeviml3qzm4n0pzceojp1xtvod3

Anytime ^.^. Yes as do I.

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