About
My Deviantart accountMy fanfiction.net account
When it rains, it's the best weather. When it rains...each individual rain drop that falls on you is a tear. A tear that washes away all your sins. All your regrets. All your worries. All you fears. With each falling drop comes the purity that's able to wash away all the negativity. With all of the fleeting negativity, comes hope. Happines. Positivity.
If the tears don't fall on you, all your sins will continue to reside within your body, always haunting you and clouding your mind from making new experiences. If you shun the purity, you shun a chance for a new life. If that happens...your chances to find happiness are limited. Without happiness...the body shuts down and the soul retreats into itself, never again welcoming this feeling we know as love and happiness. Never again getting the chance to experience joy...sorrow...all the emotions that make up our humanity
If we lose our humanity...then, and only then, are we ever truly monsters. Monsters with no soul. No heart. No emotions. So unwelcoming of happiness that awaits us. That's why I love the rain. It washes away that which the eye cannot see. It helps me let go of things I don't want to remember. It helps me start over. Helps me forget all my mistakes, all my regrets...everything...
But there is another view...
The rain is known to wash away certain things such as worries, fears, awful experiences...but for me, it just reminds me of the painful memories that I've tried so hard to forget. When the rain falls on me, it's like each raindrop is a separate memory that haunts me. All of them are crashing over me at once. And won't let up no matter how much I want it to.
No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to win. No matter how hard I look, I can never truly see. No matter how much I love, I'm never loved back. Is this the future? Is this what fate holds for me? To be forever loving, but never loved? If this is what happens whenever I open up my heart to someone, then maybe I should stay alone and cut off all communications with others.
Nagareboshi ni yume wo takushite
I entrust my dream to a shooting star
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
I want you to love me, but I don't think you will
"Love?"
I stole my mother's life at birth
and as Kazekage's son
I was overprotected, spoiled, and left alone
I thought that was love
Until that accident happened
These past six years...
my father tried to assassinate me several times
So why do I exist and live?
I asked myself that question
but I could not find an answer
But I need those reasons while I am still alive!
Or it would be the same as being dead
And this is what I concluded:
I exist to kill everyone other than me
I fight only for myself
and I only love myself
As long as there are people to kill in this world
To make me experience the joy of living
My existence will remain
I stole my mother's life at birth
and as Kazekage's son
I was overprotected, spoiled, and left alone
I thought that was love
Until that accident happened
These past six years...
my father tried to assassinate me several times
So why do I exist and live?
I asked myself that question
but I could not find an answer
But I need those reasons while I am still alive!
Or it would be the same as being dead
And this is what I concluded:
I exist to kill everyone other than me
I fight only for myself
and I only love myself
As long as there are people to kill in this world
To make me experience the joy of living
My existence will remain
My favorite music is metal and anything rockish. My favorite artists: Breaking Benjamin, Atreyu, Escape the Fate, Sixx AM, Motley Crue, Ozzy, Metallica, Killswitch Engage, Nonpoint, Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet for my Valentine, Trapt, Mudvayne, Drowning Pool, Thousand Foot Krutch, Course of Nature, Odis, Smashing Pumpkins, Five Finger Death Punch, Serge Takien, System of a Down, Ashes Divide, Three Days Grace, AFI, HIM, Korn, Nightmare(j-rock), Kagrra(j-pop), Dir en Gray (j-rock), Hyde (j-rock), Miyavi (j-rock), Red, Papa Roach, Guns and Roses, Against Me, Black Sabbath, Daughtry, Linkin Park, Taking Back Sunday, Switchfoot, The Killers, Wierd Al Yankovic, Saving Abel, Puddle of Mudd, Hinder, Evanescence, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Finger Eleven, and many more.
Friends
Viewing 12 of 21 friends
Multimedia
Signature
"I will...never be a memory!"
"I've thought of a wonderful present for you. Shall I give you despair?"
"Tell me what you cherish most. Give me the pleasure of taking it away"
http://tinyurl.com/z6ejg
"I've thought of a wonderful present for you. Shall I give you despair?"
"Tell me what you cherish most. Give me the pleasure of taking it away"
http://tinyurl.com/z6ejg












Comments
Viewing 10 of 20 comments.