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When it rains, it's the best weather. When it rains...each individual rain drop that falls on you is a tear. A tear that washes away all your sins. All your regrets. All your worries. All you fears. With each falling drop comes the purity that's able to wash away all the negativity. With all of the fleeting negativity, comes hope. Happines. Positivity.
If the tears don't fall on you, all your sins will continue to reside within your body, always haunting you and clouding your mind from making new experiences. If you shun the purity, you shun a chance for a new life. If that happens...your chances to find happiness are limited. Without happiness...the body shuts down and the soul retreats into itself, never again welcoming this feeling we know as love and happiness. Never again getting the chance to experience joy...sorrow...all the emotions that make up our humanity
If we lose our humanity...then, and only then, are we ever truly monsters. Monsters with no soul. No heart. No emotions. So unwelcoming of happiness that awaits us. That's why I love the rain. It washes away that which the eye cannot see. It helps me let go of things I don't want to remember. It helps me start over. Helps me forget all my mistakes, all my regrets...everything...

But there is another view...

The rain is known to wash away certain things such as worries, fears, awful experiences...but for me, it just reminds me of the painful memories that I've tried so hard to forget. When the rain falls on me, it's like each raindrop is a separate memory that haunts me. All of them are crashing over me at once. And won't let up no matter how much I want it to.

No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to win. No matter how hard I look, I can never truly see. No matter how much I love, I'm never loved back. Is this the future? Is this what fate holds for me? To be forever loving, but never loved? If this is what happens whenever I open up my heart to someone, then maybe I should stay alone and cut off all communications with others.





Nagareboshi ni yume wo takushite
I entrust my dream to a shooting star

Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
I want you to love me, but I don't think you will



"Love?"

I stole my mother's life at birth
and as Kazekage's son
I was overprotected, spoiled, and left alone
I thought that was love

Until that accident happened

These past six years...
my father tried to assassinate me several times
So why do I exist and live?
I asked myself that question
but I could not find an answer

But I need those reasons while I am still alive!
Or it would be the same as being dead
And this is what I concluded:

I exist to kill everyone other than me
I fight only for myself
and I only love myself
As long as there are people to kill in this world
To make me experience the joy of living
My existence will remain


My favorite music is metal and anything rockish. My favorite artists: Breaking Benjamin, Atreyu, Escape the Fate, Sixx AM, Motley Crue, Ozzy, Metallica, Killswitch Engage, Nonpoint, Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet for my Valentine, Trapt, Mudvayne, Drowning Pool, Thousand Foot Krutch, Course of Nature, Odis, Smashing Pumpkins, Five Finger Death Punch, Serge Takien, System of a Down, Ashes Divide, Three Days Grace, AFI, HIM, Korn, Nightmare(j-rock), Kagrra(j-pop), Dir en Gray (j-rock), Hyde (j-rock), Miyavi (j-rock), Red, Papa Roach, Guns and Roses, Against Me, Black Sabbath, Daughtry, Linkin Park, Taking Back Sunday, Switchfoot, The Killers, Wierd Al Yankovic, Saving Abel, Puddle of Mudd, Hinder, Evanescence, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Finger Eleven, and many more.

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Jokersfire

11/08/2009 8:14 am

Jokersfire

Okay, I have a girlfriend who I've been dating for little over a year now and she wants to have a romantic moment what do I do.
Jokersfire

11/05/2009 7:36 pm

Jokersfire

Really? So what are you doing? Can I ask you a question?
Jokersfire

11/05/2009 2:13 pm

Jokersfire

I grew up along time ago. Hope you feel better.
Jokersfire

11/04/2009 12:17 pm

Jokersfire

Yeah, I love school I can't wait to go to college. I hope you both feel better.
Jokersfire

11/02/2009 3:03 pm

Jokersfire

I will tell my sister you said congrats. Awesome I'm glad you had fun and it turned out to be amazing. Although I do wish I could have been there. Ashley has been out of it a while I do believe is anything bothering her? How is school going? I can't believe its my senior year. ^.^
Jokersfire

11/01/2009 2:02 pm

Jokersfire

That's exciting! Let me know please. My sister is going to have hers in May. How are you doing? How was your Halloween?
Jokersfire

10/29/2009 2:05 pm

Jokersfire

I'm good. Wow are you?
Jokersfire

10/27/2009 3:39 pm

Jokersfire

Ah. What was the freak out on? How are you?
Jokersfire

10/26/2009 7:27 pm

Jokersfire

Tired, Have you talked to Ashley in a while? Hope things get better.
Jokersfire

10/26/2009 1:26 pm

Jokersfire

It's been so long I forgot. :p how are you doing?

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