About

Let's see...
I'm female
Just turned 30
I'm a Pagan...sorta
I'm an Otherkin - Dark Faerie specifically
I sometimes go by the Toaster Faerie, if you've seen the movie Scrooged you know what I'm talking about.
I'm an Air Force Veteran
I can be a cynic and a bit rough around the edges.
I can also be very nuturing and motherly at times too.
It really depends on my mood.



When i RP i tend to play a Dark Faerie named Merincara. The form normally reflects what i feel my true Faerie form to be.

My fae form looks like this: fair skin with dark blue and black swirled tattoos on my body that seem to change pattern and shape each time you look at them and when provoked short spiky thorns rise up on my entire body, hair that tends to be black or dark dark blue and range from real short and slicked to the head to just past shoulder lengthy, my face is small and round, a crown of short white horns some nubby some spiked peaking out from my hair the ones up top are more pronounced and they get smaller as they trace around to the back of my head (when I say crown I refer to the area of the head starting a few inches in from the hairline making a circle, sort of like resting a crown on the back side of the head almost as opposed to directly on top), sometimes a catlike tail the same colour as my skin, blue sometimes black eyes, a mouth full of pointed teeth, my nails are a bit long maybe an inch but not claws, and I have two sets of wings the more common dragonfly style wings and a set of larger butterfly/dragon wings I use both to describe cause they look butterfly patterned but the shape and size is kind of dragon or gargoyle like.

I have recently come across a fae warrior glamour that I've been wearing as of late. The image is somewhat cliché, but I've only just started to sense it and I haven't fully fleshed out if there is more to it. She is a bit taller than my fae side, her skin is a very deep shade of red and the skin has a shine to it like glass catching the sunlight, it's like my skin itself is armor, my feet have hooves that are a black, I thought I had a satyr look to my legs but after some meditation it appears to be a furred wrap covering my legs as opposed to fur on the legs, my nails are longer and a bit pointed but again not really claws, on the top and sides of my forearms are these fin shaped pieces the same shade as my skin but are harder and sharp I assume they are for defense, my eyes are all black no pupils, I have black rams horns that start at my hair line and round back before pointing out from the sides of my head, my hair behind the horns is black and long a combination of wavy with braids and dreads, my hair appears to have a mind of it's own moving and reacting to different things, my face is more angular coupled with a mouth full of pointed teeth the upper canines are very long and the lower canines are only slightly longer than the bottom row.

Artists! If you're looking for a challenge and would like to draw me some free art based on the writings above I'd be ever so grateful. XD



You've found hope
You've found faith,
Found how fast she could take it away.
Found true love,
Lost your heart.
Now you don't know who you are.



She made it easy,
Made it free,
Made you hurt til you couldn't see.
Sometimes it stops,
Sometimes it flows,
But baby that is how love goes.



You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.



It's a secret no one tells;
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell.
It's no fairy tale;
Take it from me,
That's the way it's supposed to be.



You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.



You laugh, you cry, no one knows why
Behold the thrill of it all...
You're on the ride
You might as well
Open your eyes



You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
Even angels fall
Even angels fall



Even Angels Fall by: Jessica Riddle