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Update, I don't really care. For all I know it could have been a lie.http://web.archive.org/web/20040612122626/http://graphics.gaiaonline.com/GraphicElements/rockpuppy.gif[/color]
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Hey Gaia, It has been a while, huh? Well, it has. I am sorry I guess. Things just haven't been going well for me. Since my friends might read this, I have to keep my information to a minimum. I have to say that some pretty odd things have happened to me that caused me to kind of draw away from Gaia. Good thing those things didn't really work. Or else I would never have been able to come back.
Still, I some times wonder what going down that road means. I have always understood why people go down it, but I myself can't find out why I would want to. It just puzzles me beyond any thing! Any way, I have changed a lot. Here is the new Adiuvo's about me.
I have been a person who has kind of followed the course of history. I believe before the 5th grade I was blind, like a civilization first starting off. I then found balance and explenation in my life with religion. During the 6th grade I was exposed to philosophy and I began to ask questions and discover the world around me. I began to build myself so that I could more rapidly expand. Like civilization began to expand faster and faster as we developed technology. During the 7th grade I began to get into psychoanalysis. 8th grade was biology, and brain functions. 9th was biochemistry, and physics. Over the the summer of 2009 I began to look into applications of it all and social sciences. It's beginning, how we develop morals and aesthetics. Now, here I sit as a 10/11th grader. With conflicts of the world I want to solve and think of ways to solve them, but I can't solve my own problems. "Why do I love you, [insert lovers name]? Monoamine neurotransmitters are stimulated when I am with you of course. No I don't believe in love, but I enjoy you. Why do you believe in such an idealistic view of love? Why are you leaving me?"
As you can probably see I am more emotional, but still overly realistic with the world. I guess I am currently in a strange state where the two personalities struggle. I wonder why that is? (also I seem to question myself for hours. I will probably go to bed tonight and think for hours why I have these two personalities. Perhaps my overly emotional one is a build up of repressed emotions, or me just trying to hold onto humanity even though I hate it so much). Either way, I don't care about my problems so much, or that is a lie I tell myself. I am conflicted. Self psychoanalysis doesn't help either. It just makes more questions and it makes me feel like there are other reasons. I hate my brain. I wish I was a computer. Maybe I should regret ever learning so much about the mind and brain. But still, if I get down to the basic facts, it doesn't matter. And it depresses me.
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