Nothing about a nobody
“Dear Die-ary, there's nothing terribly wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling precedes some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their "discomfort" like a favorite shirt. I can't say I'm very pleased with where my life is just now... but I can't help but look forward to where it's going.”
Forever I have been alone.. Always helping others when they ask.. Believing in that which doesn't exist.. I have fought for this...... Love.. Since the beginning.. No longer will I slave myself to others.. These so called... Old souls... I've met along the way are nothing but sad sad shells of what they once were.. They lie to themselves, use others, and say anything to connect with their old selves... I cried for these people... How could they have changed so much? So much... Ugly.... Inside now.... So now I know... I no longer will trust anyone... No one... And if I see these said people.... Xen wants to have a talk....
The memories of the voices:
The deal was simple. I build them an impenetrable wall, they give me the moon. They got their wall.... What I get? The soul of the moon split into six.... I know the Gods play a twisted game of chess with us but that's a bit extreme don't you think? I have found five and don't plan on looking for the last... One, I consider a sister.. Two, is an extremely wild and broken soul... The third, is a lying two-faced temptress.. The fourth, she'll never know because I honestly will never tell her... Its better that way.... The fifth.... I love.... She was my wife in many of my lives.. She fought beside me.. Together, the Gods ran in fear..... One day, I hope to find her.. I've had dreams upon dreams of her in this life... I've written them all down... The sad thing is, past lives have clouded my view of her... The day I truly meet her? I'm giving her this notebook in hopes she remembers.... Us....
Now, on to hopes and dreams:
Simple... Be happy.. All my lives I've put others ahead of me and had them toss me away.. So, no problem.. 'Slip out the back before they knew you were there, and at the worse, you'll see no one cares'.. No one has, no one will..
Now what I like?
I'm a video game FREAK!! Hmm, I love poetry, making music, drawing, making games, writing, the night, I love my Luna (When I meet her) and cloud gazing... If I'm online, I'm only getting gold or blogging.. I enjoy killing but it's frowned upon in all civilizations so I'm stuck with killing re-spawning creatures.. My religion is Asatru.. If you dont know what it is, maybe its better that way cuz I wont tell you.. Honestly, my Gods frown upon the thought of me flaunting them.. Better to not know then be picked on.. Believe what you want, I do..
Thank your gods for video games..
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See ya soon.........